Before you go barking your spit I have you know this is not about the Series NEEDLESS, but anyone who have read the series maybe able why I love the series from reading this. I feel some do not know me that well, but I shall give you this to help with that.
My accounts, I have always been that outcast or weak link to everyone. I was the wimpy kid trying to be a manga hero. (yes I did have a wooden sword and goggles to give you a picture) I have been through a lot of psychological experiences. Does this mean I am some god? no I just know what some people have been through and if I haven't I mentally abuse myself to put myself in their shoes to help them out. I was timid at early age, but there is one thing that has hardly ever changed, and that is my means to protect. I would forsaken all of who I am and what I have for my KIN and give a die hard try to all existence.
Most of my life I had very little to no friends and the friends I had forgot about me, forsaken me, or targeted and assaulted me later in life. I was also seen to having paranormal attributes that would make me "superior" but hated, and then on the flip side had faults that would shun me from the rejects. I was just the middle person, and this way of thinking of being needless and being an outcast hurt me in my early teens and I had fallen into suicidal thoughts and acts, experimenting into all sorts of classes and groups just to be noticed and only to be hurt more and hated by others. I began to lose my faith that I had grown up on, and I was going insane I was mean to myself and my family; however, I began to just stay alive for the lights in my life and even the darkness that was around me, so I did and eventually I began to see the light and the dark realizing neither one was for me.
I was saved and I began to dig through what all has happened and carve and search my own purpose on my own accord and with aid from my Eve, whom I met upon joining one of the biggest cult/sects of my life. She was one of the heads and being in that cult/sect of outcasts I found another family and made me see the world and the universe; however, I almost lost my Eve permanently several times and the thoughts of losing one of the two people, two lights, in my life burned a stigmata into my soul and made me remember the one thing that stayed true to my heart was still there, to protect. I did all I could physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, effort of my entire existence just to save her, even if it meant losing my own life or my own sanity, I was to save her.
Later teen life I was grateful that she is still with me and we are a whole, and I saw us as more of Adam and Eve, with that my faith returned with more fire, zeal and passion than ever before. I began to be proud of being an outcast and proud to be needless to the world, for I did not care if the world knew me or not I love who I am and all of existence whether or not it shared the same feelings back. So here I am today, some one who has a goal and many dreams like I was when I was a kid still coping with daily trials and old and new complications, but after the milestone I went through I knew I can make it, and even if I die on my road I will be a spirit to continue to protect and guide everyone who put me in what I am today.
So yeah. Do I care if you like me, no. do I care and like you. yes. If you do not want me to care about you to bad, I am evil that way. A demonic saint that will always be with you, attached to your soul.
Thy Sanely Insane Pries†
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P.S. Anyone who has read NEEDLESS curious if you could see why I love the series and why Blade is my favorite character trough the similarities.
Before you go barking your spit I have you know this is not about the Series NEEDLESS, but anyone who have read the series maybe able why I love the series from reading this. I feel some do not know me that well, but I shall give you this to help with that.