My parents insist I'm just going through shock, but I really am just so mixed up about things, I'm numb all the time...

 

One of my best friends has been hiding his leukemia from me for two months now. Since he was diagnosed, he decided not to tell me because he was graduating at the time, and he thought it would upset me.

 

He told me and my best friend two days ago.

And I haven't felt anything, while she has been his ultimate pillar of support. The only time I've actually shown I care, he wasn't there because I was at school. I don't even remember it properly, but apparently I broke down in the middle of class, randomly bursting into tears and needing to be taken out.

 

I feel like he thinks I don't really care about him, because I just shut down and can't show it whenever I see him. (Which has happened three times since he told me, since me and my best friend visited him before and after school yesterday...)

All I can think of is losing him.

D: Oh my God, that's horrible Rosie.

First of all, I hope he gets better.

Second of all, just because you don't feel anything doesn't mean you don't care. Maybe you are in shock, but I really don't know.

Maybe you shut down when you face him because you're afraid to show any fear because you don't want him to be weak?

I really don't know what to say D:

I wish I could be more of help.

-hugs-

Oh wow...Rosie I feel so bad...Listen, I'm sure that if your is best friend and you guys talked a lot previously then he'll know you really care. He probably knows it shocked you if that's why he didn't want to tell you at first for fear of you getting upset. And he might have heard about you crying during class, so I think there's a 95% chance he knows you care. And what you're feeling is disbelief for the situation, after all, it's your best friend. I do hope you feel better and that this doesn't take a dramatic toll on you, I really don't want to see you upset...I'm sorry i'm not much of a help, I'm not very good at cheering people up but you're a strong girl and he knows that and your friend will get better knowing you care and your strength towards him is what really counts. I hope you feel better Rosie~ -hugs-

Man not another one my friend died of cancer and i wish the best for you and your friend. Please dont go into depression.

I hate it when I see stories like this, mostly because I'm going through something quite similar. What with my Grandmother having cancer, I can probably relate to the fear you're experiencing.

But that doesn't offer much help, does it?

I probably am gonna go with what the people above me said, cause they already spoke what I was thinking.

Just, hang in there Rosie, and send your friend our regards.