Silenced in a corner.

 

The screaming faces shouting.

 

Can't block out their piercing shrieks.

 

It goes right through me.

 

Can't they tell I'm not comfortable?

 

Do they just not care?

 

Perhaps not.

 

Every idea that I have of escape,

Ends up in failure.

 

These screeching faces don't want me out.

 

Misery loves company.

 

Perhaps, I should forsake my ideas.

 

They are futile!

 

I only need to join with the wall

And embrace my hopeless fate.

 

 

 

Jack of all trades,

Master of none.

 

Jack never could get things done,

He built a house while playing poker,

 

The house fell apart,

Jack lost to another gambler.

 

He got fired by the houseowner

Because the woman's husband got hurt.

 

Jack be nimble,

Jack be quick,

Jack didn't make it over the candle stick.

 

Jack of all trades,

Master of none.

Oh when will you learn?

I created this world,

Innocent and untainted.

 

I created this world through your eyes

To be how I wanted you to remember what I grew up with.

 

It may not be free,

But it's peaceful.

 

Everyone gets along,

My childhood isn't bleak.

 

My friends never go away,

They always stay in touch.

 

My parents never bicker,

My older brother never bullies me.

 

My girlfriend never dumped me,

We had you.

We never fought in this world.

 

So, why do you view it as a jail?

 

There are plenty of sights to see,

Plenty of people to meet.

 

Does it matter that this world is fake?

Why must you protest?

 

Haven't I given you happiness?

Have you ever wanted to be someone else,

Not confined to this jail cell you call a body?

 

I am just talking to myself as usual,

After all I am behind a brick wall.

 

I can see what goes on outside,

Through this transparent brick wall.

But maybe I'm not getting the entire picture.

 

I am so different,

Or perhaps I am not.

It's not like it matters.

 

Plenty of people have thought of themselves

As different and trampled over other people.

 

Being different isn't a sin

But what do I know behind this transparent hellhole?

 

I have a lot of complaints,

Just more glass bricks to my futile asylum.

 

Do I really affect anyone?

I am just a barely seen face in the wall screaming at anyone.

 

Perhaps, I need to stop pitying myself.

Deep, man. That is deep! A way for us to analyze ourselves as people and what makes up our essence!

Nobody said entering the world was simple.

Keep at it!

 

Don't go away,

Hazardous is staying the same.

 

Change,

There's where I need to go.

 

I can't keep saying "you"

I am one person,

Not two.

 

However, is separation,

Better?

 

I don't like.

So, why not split?

Insomnia is like a cage,

A cage I can't get free from.

 

My body is a prison,

The light is slowly fading.

 

I just want to go away,

Do you hear him?

 

I can barely concentration,

I'd rather go to sleep.

 

I must stay away,

For that is insomnia.

 

I am groggy,

About to fall over.

 

Why can't I get eight hours of sleep?

Why must I sleep on and off?

 

Can't the doctors help me

Or am I their little lab rat?

 

I need to trust them

For they know what's best.

 

I don't want to go down that dark path

Will I ever get better?

 

Insomnia and grogginess

Are brother and sister.

 

I can't deal with either of them.

Things I once adored are slowly fading.

 

I can't handle it anymore,

But I must keep up.

For I shouldn't shut up.

 

I am about to pass out,

Good thing I am not in a road.

 

God help me if I surely would be.

I am scared.

 

Will the doctor tell me different?

This work is so grueling.

 

I have been keeping faithful,

But it seems to be grueling torture.

 

I am tired,

I just want to lie down.

 

Please, don't take my advice.

Follow the doctor's advice.

Ask 'em questions daily.

 

I am going to bed,

Because I am beginning to dread.

There exists many time lines,

All guided by the same fate.

 

Alternate worlds,

Alternate shadows of their former glory.

 

Their hearts restored,

Or forever lost.

Along with the locals.

 

Choice an illusion,

A fabrication if you will,

To protect fate.

 

If you promise free will,

Then you're not a fatalist, right?

 

Who wants to believe their free will is a hoax,

Not me for sure?

 

That's why I have been roaming down these roads,

Everything is always the same.

Even the book would reaffirm my hopeless conclusion.

 

That boy is just a tool,

Nothing else and nothing more.

Shrouded in mystery,

Clouded in secrecy.

 

To protect a friend is above all else,

I don't know where I will go.

 

I despise my past actions,

I want to destroy this very mirror.

 

This reflection mocks me,

Reminding me of my sins.

 

One left injured,

Another shall be left unsaid.

 

If my friend found out,

Meteors shall collide with the earth.

 

Everything must remain shrouded

For his sake.

 

Friends do keep secrets from one another,

Even big ones.

People aren't like video game players,

You can't design them.

 

You can't control their movement.

 

You can't force them to jump off high ledges to their deaths

Or get gobbled up by giant monsters for your folly or amusement.

 

You can't force them to succeed

Though it brings a smile to your face when triumph reigns supreme for them.

 

When failure comes,

Don't shout and threaten hostility.

 

Their failure nor success reflects upon you.

 

When you scream in the bleachers and act like a little brat,

You're just making a fool out of yourself.

 

Don't be like Casey who had to learn the hard way.

Don't sit in your rocking chair grieving over how bad you've got it.

 

Everyone has their pros and cons.

Everyone is their own being.

I want those!

I want these!

I want this!

I want that!

 

Telling me no is the worst thing ever

You might as well tell me that my house is on fire.

 

I want the world,

I want the whole world.

 

I want today

I want tomorrow.

Is that too much?

 

But I know you can't comprehend.

After all, you see me as nothing more than a brat.

 

I want it now!

I'm sick of waiting!

 

Waiting is absurd

I've tried that game before and nothing came of it.

So, don't tell me to wait.

For I want it now.

 

Is it wrong to want too much out of life,

Instead of getting a lousy deal?