I don't know, I just feel like, people don't want me around, like I'm rude to people without meaning to be, and I feel sad when they are rude back.

I just start feeling like... like there's something really wrong.

I just don't know, tough.

I've realized this a few times before.

and when I try to talk about this with people, they just don't want to either talk back or help me, and change the subject possibly into giraffes. not the case

I don't expect anyone to help me, just wanted to throw that out of my chest.

I only want to know why I'm so different from before I joined here.

I used to be cheerful... then I started becoming depressed on real life. I didn't realize this, until I realized I was starting to lose my life out there and only have one here.

And then I noticed... That I'm starting to lose my life here.

I'm starting to become a cybernetic autist.

I don't know if I can void losing my both lives and recover the onw most important to me...

Out there.

I like it here, almost more then there, but I've realized it's there that it matters the most.

edit:: Found the website: http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/teen-depression/DS01188 Good luck~

Mmm...I once found a really good site with a listing of depression symptoms and other things. I'll see if I can find it again. =)

 

If you really feel that you're becoming depressed or suicidal, though, or that you're losing your life, you should really tell someone (like a parent, guidance counselor, doctor, therapist, etc.) They can get you help.

Don't feel like you're alone though. Even if it doesn't seem like it, there are people who care about you, I'm sure of it.

You've already accomplished the first step by admitting you have a problem. Admitting things such as this make you lose the fear of the emotion itself. You need to find someone you can talk to or relate to. I'm here to chat with you and talk about it if you want. I really don't have a life outside the net so I can relate. If you feel that you need to work on your life outside the net then take a few days off so that you can have time to sort things out. Sometimes you need to take a step back and look deeper into your mind to figure out the real problem. In my opinion, you could also be dealing with anxiety and that can be making you feel this way at least that's what happens to me. But no matter how far you go down the wrong path, you can always turn around. If you can't find your way out then take a different passageway so that you can discover new things and by that I mean, you should discover something you enjoy doing such as writing, talking, sports, ect. Doing the things you like will make you feel good inside.