There's this person I've liked since 8th grade year ( I'm sure I complained about him a lot)

And it really bothers me

He kind of makes me feel inferior and less of a human

When I think of him I often feel depressed and I miss him (But I guess it's better for me to be aware of my emotions unlike I was last time)

 

I guess part of it is me wishing to at least have a friendship with him (We've grown distant this past year)

But I feel like I shouldn't talk to him because it may have the same impact as before... which is strange because I already am feeling bad about it

 

Honestly I don't even want to like him

I want to despise him with all my heart and never talk to him again

I guess you could call me weak, but I kind of just need help on what to do and how to feel?

There's this person I've liked since 8th grade year ( I'm sure I complained about him a lot)

And it really bothers me

He kind of makes me feel inferior and less of a human

When I think of him I often feel depressed and I miss him (But I guess it's better for me to be aware of my emotions unlike I was last time)

 

I guess part of it is me wishing to at least have a friendship with him (We've grown distant this past year)

But I feel like I shouldn't talk to him because it may have the same impact as before... which is strange because I already am feeling bad about it

 

Honestly I don't even want to like him

I want to despise him with all my heart and never talk to him again

I guess you could call me weak, but I kind of just need help on what to do and how to feel?

 

 

TBH have a deeeep think if you want him as a friend.  .... Also could it be possible that because you miss and care about him you want to hate him so you dont feel down? ... Best thing deep think do you want him as a friend and if so why and if not why. Then act upon it

You are stuck in a bad thing, just like I was. You seem to want to hate him but also like him at the same time. What you need to do is, decide if you have true feelings for wanting to be around him, or if you just want to really hate him. If you know that, then the pain is lessened.  You also need to decide if you want to try and be with him or not. Its complicated to do as what I am telling you, but it makes pain go away. If you find out that you like him, and the reason why you hate him is because you miss him, then try talking to him and see where that leads. If you find out you hate him, and the only reason you miss him is because you miss being able to argue with him, then you need to just try and find someone else. There are many people to get to know other than this one person. If you want to be friends with him, then watch yourself carefully, last thing you want is heartbreak. And being his friend could end up making you love him. You need to snap out of it and decide if he is special to you or not. You are young and have all the time in the world to find the right type of people to be around, don't let one person bring you down.

 

 

 

 

You are stuck in a bad thing, just like I was. You seem to want to hate him but also like him at the same time. What you need to do is, decide if you have true feelings for wanting to be around him, or if you just want to really hate him. If you know that, then the pain is lessened.  You also need to decide if you want to try and be with him or not. Its complicated to do as what I am telling you, but it makes pain go away. If you find out that you like him, and the reason why you hate him is because you miss him, then try talking to him and see where that leads. If you find out you hate him, and the only reason you miss him is because you miss being able to argue with him, then you need to just try and find someone else. There are many people to get to know other than this one person. If you want to be friends with him, then watch yourself carefully, last thing you want is heartbreak. And being his friend could end up making you love him. You need to snap out of it and decide if he is special to you or not. You are young and have all the time in the world to find the right type of people to be around, don't let one person bring you down.

 

 

 

 

@The bold part, at the time I knew him we didn't argue. We were really nice friends to eachother, but lately I wonder if he could have been faking it because I notice he never really seemed engaged in our silly chatter. I guess by hating him I mean it's my way of telling myself I don't need or want him in my life.

I also have been feeling a bit neglected/hated by some of my other good friends and I guess I thought his thought on me would cheer me up or something o3o.

 

I have no idea how I feel about anything currently and I'm starting to really not want feelings. 

 

 Anyway, thanks to the both of you who replied

I guess I'll spend time the rest of the weekend deciding and I may try talking to him Monday (if I even get a chance to approach him). 

I know how it is to want to not have feelings. I have been in love with one girl for a long time. But I never get the chance or guts to tell her. Now it might be too late because she is in a relationship. So I just want to forget her, but I can't. It hurts me to forget her. So it is okay to not know what to do. Its like my video said.

Best thing to do is find someone else.