Oh wasn't I in a depressing mood today.

So in algebra, I got bored and started writing my thoughts down in my notebook.

This is what resulted.

 

I keep having to write my name over and over again... Paolette. Sometimes I feel like I don't even know who that is.

I wish my name was Juno. Oh, yes I adore that movie. But that's not the reason I want my name to be Juno.

When you look up Paolette... Nothing comes up. Nothing really.

My name is suppose to be spelled Paulette. When you search that, the meaning is; humble, small.

Look up Juno and you get; queenly woman: a woman of queenly bearing and imposing beauty.

As well as; Roman goddess: in Roman mythology, the queen of the gods and wife of Jupiter.

And then also, the month of June. I love the summer. And I love the month of June. Not because my birthday is in June. No because Father's Day is in June. The day were my father is obligated to act like a father and the day I actually feel like his daughter. When I don't feel awkward around him and when I feel like last August never happened. Last August... When he told me he gave up on me. That hurt me. That really did. But what can I do?

I still wait for the month of June and then Father's Day.

And I sometimes I smile. Suprisingly, I can smile, without having to fake it. That's a good thing, right?

I still wish my name was Juno.

Because sometimes I just don't wanna be Paolette anymore.

 

Depressing? Weird? Blah.

I'm just ranting/venting/ ect

Blah

I'm feelng better though

Well its good to hear your happy, maybe you were just feeling down subconsciously and you needed to write it down?

 

I hope things will be bright for you

 

Suffering from depression myself. If you want to talk bout anything lemme know. ( I understand random thoughts but still )

awwwwww

Juno....

(^see what I did there?~

it's okay~ I'll be here!

And maybe ur dad was just.. mad? stressed? idk; but no excuse cud make up for saying that!

Why dont u talk to him about it?!

hope things get bettar

yesicwutudidthar ;3

Thanks Ace <--- ucwutididthar ;3

He's always mad Especially at me. But oh well...

If I do, he'll start yelling at me saying it's not true, or he didn't mean it, or that I'm over dramatic

I'm sorry Paole- Juno...

Perhap's your father, like Larxy said, was in a bad mood, or concievably just mad.

My Father has had moment's like that... but in the end I know he's there.

Never doubt yourself or give up hope, because that leads to pain.

We're here for you... always will be.

I'm sorry Paole- Juno...

Perhap's your father, like Larxy said, was in a bad mood, or concievably just mad.

My Father has had moment's like that... but in the end I know he's there.

Never doubt yourself or give up hope, because that leads to pain.

We're here for you... always will be.

 

He's always in a bad mood. And he's always mad. AT ME.

And when he's mad, he doesn't just take it out on me. He takes it out on my mom, which results in my mother being mad at me.

I hate it. I hate it.

Ouch...

And they refuse to sit down and talk about it? Thats just wrong...

Do your sibling's confide in you? Or could you confide them? You can sometimes find help in the most unlikely place.s..

My sister's 11. And I feel bad for her... because she has to suffer with me and my dad yelling at each other all the time.

What's sad... is that I never see her cry. I think she's holding everything in.

Well, with your friend's being on the... "meh" side nowadays... you can't really go to them... is there anyone in your family or at school who will help?

Nope not really

But I've been feeling better.

I just need to vent every now and then

I'm here for you... I always am... alway's have been. :-/