Okay.......LIFE SUCKS! Things are not going well within my family, everyone here is in a constant turmoil, my parents are never proud of me and are always putting me and my dreams down, my boyfriend lives several states away from me and I barely get to see him but maybe 3 times out of a whole year and we've been dating for nearly 2 years and we haven't even spent 1 full month together, school is becoming harder for me because of all the **** going on in the place that I live......

 

I don't know....I sometimes wonder if it's all worth it.....

 

I have scars on my wrists and arms that say it's not.....but I have a heart that says it is.....

 

I pray to God that things will get better.....but it's not working from what I can see.....

 

My parents are trying to make me pick a side that I will fight on.....My mom's side? Or my dad's side.....Preferrably.....I'd like to stick with calming grounds......but they're making it impossible for me to do so....

 

I've also found out recently that I may have an illegitimate little brother....who I could care less for....If it is true......

 

But this is going to continue happening and I won't be able to stop it.....I can barely deal with it......

 

No one here could possibly understand in full how or what I feel......or some of the things I've done to myself to make it stop........

 

I've also found out recently that I may have an illegitimate little brother....who I could care less for....If it is true......

 

 

How old?

 

 

I've also found out recently that I may have an illegitimate little brother....who I could care less for....If it is true......

 

 

How old?

 

Don't know...maybe 3 at the oldest.....But I don't exactly know.....

I had to go out yesterday and couldn't come here, when I'm sad or lonely I draw, write and make photoshops, amvs too. But the important thing is to never think that life isn't worth, everyone have a bad time on life. If you need to talk to someone I'm here as well.

I had to go out yesterday and couldn't come here, when I'm sad or lonely I draw, write and make photoshops, amvs too. But the important thing is to never think that life isn't worth, everyone have a bad time on life. If you need to talk to someone I'm here as well.

 

Thanks Gizzy. ^_^ But I'm all better now....my emoness usually lasts only a few hours....and I spent last night reading manga that made me go 'awwwww' and 'tee-hee'. But I'm better. ^_^

I'm happy for that. I hope you stay like this for a lot of time.

This is the Brixta I know.

I'm happy for that. I hope you stay like this for a lot of time.

This is the Brixta I know.

 

So do I. I hate it so much when I get all emoized. :-/ But no one need worry about me harming myself, I haven't done anything major like cutting in a looooong time.

 

The most severe thing that I've done remotely recently was I bruised my right arm....but it was only because I was afraid for my life for a little bit.

So, take care of yourself, we here didn't do anything at all, this type of thing is about confidence, we just help you to see that you're better them you think.

So, take care of yourself, we here didn't do anything at all, this type of thing is about confidence, we just help you to see that you're better them you think.

 

I know not to hurt myself....Afterall I made a promise....And I intend to keep the promise.....Because I know that sooner or later I will leave this place, and Repliku and I will get married. (We're kind of in a pre-engagement thing right now) We're both wanting to get married sometime within the next year.

Invite me for your merriage (as if I could go)

OH mai gawd, if I could go, I would o-o

OH mai gawd, if I could go, I would o-o

 

Well you're both welcome to come!

Ima save up my money for a plane ticket... or I'll hitchhike

Ima save up my money for a plane ticket... or I'll hitchhike

 

o.O; No don't hitch hike! You may not get here!! x_x You may end up somewhere COMPLETELY wrong! And flying is fun!

 

Ima save up my money for a plane ticket... or I'll hitchhike

 

o.O; No don't hitch hike! You may not get here!! x_x You may end up somewhere COMPLETELY wrong! And flying is fun!

 

But I'm poor

 

 

Ima save up my money for a plane ticket... or I'll hitchhike

 

o.O; No don't hitch hike! You may not get here!! x_x You may end up somewhere COMPLETELY wrong! And flying is fun!

 

But I'm poor

 

Then I shall drive and get you. Advantages of having friends who are adults.

 

 

 

Ima save up my money for a plane ticket... or I'll hitchhike

 

o.O; No don't hitch hike! You may not get here!! x_x You may end up somewhere COMPLETELY wrong! And flying is fun!

 

But I'm poor

 

Then I shall drive and get you. Advantages of having friends who are adults.

 

YAY!

 

 

 

 

Ima save up my money for a plane ticket... or I'll hitchhike

 

o.O; No don't hitch hike! You may not get here!! x_x You may end up somewhere COMPLETELY wrong! And flying is fun!

 

But I'm poor

 

Then I shall drive and get you. Advantages of having friends who are adults.

 

YAY!

 

-starts driving- This may take a while. XDD

 

Ima save up my money for a plane ticket... or I'll hitchhike

 

o.O; No don't hitch hike! You may not get here!! x_x You may end up somewhere COMPLETELY wrong! And flying is fun!

 

No, flying is not fun, I hate the food they give on plane, the last time I traveled by air they gave us some biscuits everytime, when we got to the ground we didn't want to even see that biscuits, and when we were coming back they gave us another tipe of biscuits, and them I started saying disgusting things for my sister , who was next to me, so she wouldn't eat, and because I was bored.

Now I guess you'll never want to travel with me That's what happens whem I'm bored.

 

 

Ima save up my money for a plane ticket... or I'll hitchhike

 

o.O; No don't hitch hike! You may not get here!! x_x You may end up somewhere COMPLETELY wrong! And flying is fun!

 

No, flying is not fun, I hate the food they give on plane, the last time I traveled by air they gave us some biscuits everytime, when we got to the ground we didn't want to even see that biscuits, and when we were coming back they gave us another tipe of biscuits, and them I started saying disgusting things for my sister , who was next to me, so she wouldn't eat, and because I was bored.

Now I guess you'll never want to travel with me That's what happens whem I'm bored.

 

No I'm sure that flying with you would be a better than my 1st flying experience. I was alone, going to Atlanta Airport (the biggest airport in the US), I got delayed for about 1 hour 30 minutes to 2 hours, and I got really bored! I just whipped out my DS and began playing Days until the pilot announced that we'd be moving soon and then flew to FL...but on the way back from FL a week later....I was still alone on the plane (well not alone but traveling by myself), and I was sick with bronchitis....FUN...... >_<

How much fun you had on that plane

How much fun you had on that plane

 

LOADS! :rolleyes:

Plane rides are scary

Plane rides are scary

 

The take off is the only really scary thing. After that, when you're up amongst the clouds and it feels like you're on a roller coaster, then it's really cool.

It depends on the plane you're on.

It depends on the plane you're on.

 

I flew with Delta (Watch your luggage though....they left mine in the pouring rain in Atlanta....) :@