Hey, thanks for taking the time to read through this, and for any advice you may have. This is the most personal thing I've ever shared here, but I feel like I know most of you pretty well, and I've seen much more personal stuff posted here in any event.

 

So, I've always felt pretty lonely, and I haven't had any friends for around seven years. I naturally grew accustomed to this, and over time I just didn't seem to care anymore. That all changed this summer. I had the wonderful chance to tour some of Europe with people from my school (and a few from a different state entirely), and I had the time of my life. Though I was pretty far out of my comfort zone when it began, by the end I had actually made friends. Granted, I probably can't call any of them close friends, but they're friends enough that I actually have a reason to talk when I'm at school now. In fact, I'm a bit more sociable all around now (not by much, but compared to what I was before it is noticeable).

 

However, that trip gave me a taste of the kind of life I've been missing. For so long I've been pretty much trapped in my own bubble, I haven't lived very much at all. I want to change that, at least a little. I want to rid myself of the excuses I've been using for so long to avoid being social. I want to use the little time I have left in high school to actually become a person that I want to be.

 

The greatest of my excuses, the one that has, in some ways, created all the others I have, is my body. I'm fairly overweight, and a lot of my social anxiety stems from this. I'm always afraid of being judged or made fun of, and that has pretty much made me a social recluse. When simply being there has the possibility of eliciting torture and embarrassment, life just isn't fun. I know that if I can't change this aspect of myself, I will never grow as a person.

 

That is why I have come to you, my fellow members of KH13. Though I haven't been here that long, this is the place I feel closest to outside of the "real world". I know you are all kind and helpful people, and that's why I have finally mustered the courage to seek help.

 

You see, I am highly motivated right now. However, I have been through... let's call them "phases", like this before. Without fail, I always lost the motivation and ultimately never reached my goal. Though I do certainly have motivations currently, many of them are simply fantasies that may not even occur should I succeed at changing myself. So any advice you have on staying motivated (as well as finding more solid motivation) would be greatly appreciated.

 

In addition, I'm certain that some of you here have been through the same thing as me, and perhaps you actually succeeded. Or, maybe you have simply always taken good care of your health. Regardless, any tips on diet and exercise would be greatly appreciated. Particularly, exercises that excel at burning fat would be most welcome. Unfortunately, however, I do have some limitations as to what I can do. Joining an athletic team simply isn't in the cards for me right now, and all of my exercise has to be done at home. Preferably, I'd like things I could do after coming home from school. I have access to a treadmill, a private road, some weights, resistance bands, and stairs. So anything I can do with those, as well as without equipment, would be splendid. As for diet, I'm already working on reducing my portion sizes and drinking water.

 

Again, thanks so much for reading and for any help you can offer. I really want to succeed this time.

Edited September 11, 201312 yr by DragonMaster

That's great!No, really: glad your coming through it.If I can survive a literal hell, you can be fine too.Give me a pm if you ever need to, y'know, talk or anything. =)Have a nice day/night, wherever you are. =)

Night, and thank-you. I'm glad to know that I have another person to go to if I need help. I really do appreciate all that you (and the others) are doing for me. It may not seem like much to write a post on a forum, but it really means a lot to me.

Night, and thank-you. I'm glad to know that I have another person to go to if I need help. I really do appreciate all that you (and the others) are doing for me. It may not seem like much to write a post on a forum, but it really means a lot to me.

Anytime. ^_^