So my dad is having me working on staying positive. Because when you have a better mood, you'll have a better day. But this is why I feel like I'm having some sort of therapy session.

 

My dad told me when I'm feeling upset, angry, stressed, depressed. I have to stop and think about what I love most. Like for me; I love my writing skills, my family, God and Jesus, video games, the beach, etc. So I think about that. But he's also told me, since I have writing skills, to write about my favorite stuff by detail. Like if I write about the beach, write about the breeze, the smell, the sand in my toes, the warm sun. You know the wonderful things you feel when you're at the beach.

 

I don't know... I just feel like I'm in a therapy session or something. Like I'm not able to control my emotions and the only way I can is to do these things. But most the time, I can't stop and think for a few seconds, cause I'm always on my toes. Taking care of a baby, doing chores, settling arguments between my brother and sister... Just that... I don't have enough time to stop. And when I do, it's at night when my head is all fuzzy from being tired...

 

It's not bad that he's telling me to do this... It just... It's just that it feels really weird.

Sometimes doing those things is precisely how to control emotions.  It's not like emotions can be willfully turned on or off.  If it helps, I think everyone is a freak like that--some just know how to cope with it better than others.

 

You need to give yourself some time in the middle of the day to take a break from all the chaos.  Take a walk or something and meditate on the stuff you wouldn't normally have time for.  Also try to space out when doing chores.  It's usually the tedious and repetitive ones that let you space out the best.  I'm halfway comatose when I do dishes.

Sometimes doing those things is precisely how to control emotions.  It's not like emotions can be willfully turned on or off.  If it helps, I think everyone is a freak like that--some just know how to cope with it better than others.

 

You need to give yourself some time in the middle of the day to take a break from all the chaos.  Take a walk or something and meditate on the stuff you wouldn't normally have time for.  Also try to space out when doing chores.  It's usually the tedious and repetitive ones that let you space out the best.  I'm halfway comatose when I do dishes.

 

Yeah. I know I should make time for it. It just feels weird, y'know?

Your family caring for you is called "therapy" ? I don't think so .

Your family caring for you is called "therapy" ? I don't think so .

I said it felt like I was in therapy. But yeah.... I know it's not called therapy. It's just that I felt weird.