Eh... I don't typically write out my problems to the public, but I just wanted to get it out of my hair.
I have two older sisters; we're all adults. The second eldest is often kind to me, unless she's in a grumpy mood, which doesn't last very long. Then there's the eldest. She's outgoing and unafraid to speak her mind. As for me, I'm shy and somewhat introverted. And this is where the problem begins. I'm afraid to look for a job. Why? Interviews. I can't talk about myself. I like to play video games. Exciting.
Summer term of university: I decided to not take any courses since I wasn't doing too well, and I felt I needed a break. So I'm at home every day playing video games, watching YouTubers be stupid, doing my hobbies (reading, drawing, writing). The eldest sister comes back from out of country (continent, actually) and still lives at home. Finding out I'm not taking classes or doing anything "of importance", she wants me to get a job. She looks up some job offerings and suggests I send in my resume to McDonald's. I don't. Next day, she asks me if I sent my resume in.
"No, not yet. I'm adding more things to it," I lied.
She grunts, "Right."
My face becomes flustered. I'm an emotional person. She's not in the same room as me, so I can express myself quietly. How would she know I wasn't doing what I said. Even if I wasn't lying, that wouldn't change anything.
She believes she can say anything to me and I won't take it personally. That's not even close to the truth. I always tell myself that she's just trying to make herself seem important and that I should go on with my day. I still end up feeling down... My family knows she can be an annoying prick (to put it nicely), but they don't really do too much. She tends to act nice when my dad's around as he can get upset if need be.
When she was out of country, my other sister and I got along well, talking to each other. Since the eldest got back, the other sister begins to ignore me. Same thing before she left. I believe it's either the second sister is just trying to stay on the eldest's good side or only talks to me when the oldest isn't around.
I try to avoid her the best I can...
In public, when I'm not with my family, I'm more outgoing and talkative. At home, I've always been the quiet, innocent child who never swears (I don't excessively otherwise; occasionally I'll sneak one out if need be). In my mind, I'm always afraid of others judging me. I guess that's the main problem.
That's all I have to say. Ignore the shitty organization.
Eh... I don't typically write out my problems to the public, but I just wanted to get it out of my hair.
I have two older sisters; we're all adults. The second eldest is often kind to me, unless she's in a grumpy mood, which doesn't last very long. Then there's the eldest. She's outgoing and unafraid to speak her mind. As for me, I'm shy and somewhat introverted. And this is where the problem begins. I'm afraid to look for a job. Why? Interviews. I can't talk about myself. I like to play video games. Exciting.
Summer term of university: I decided to not take any courses since I wasn't doing too well, and I felt I needed a break. So I'm at home every day playing video games, watching YouTubers be stupid, doing my hobbies (reading, drawing, writing). The eldest sister comes back from out of country (continent, actually) and still lives at home. Finding out I'm not taking classes or doing anything "of importance", she wants me to get a job. She looks up some job offerings and suggests I send in my resume to McDonald's. I don't. Next day, she asks me if I sent my resume in.
"No, not yet. I'm adding more things to it," I lied.
She grunts, "Right."
My face becomes flustered. I'm an emotional person. She's not in the same room as me, so I can express myself quietly. How would she know I wasn't doing what I said. Even if I wasn't lying, that wouldn't change anything.
She believes she can say anything to me and I won't take it personally. That's not even close to the truth. I always tell myself that she's just trying to make herself seem important and that I should go on with my day. I still end up feeling down... My family knows she can be an annoying prick (to put it nicely), but they don't really do too much. She tends to act nice when my dad's around as he can get upset if need be.
When she was out of country, my other sister and I got along well, talking to each other. Since the eldest got back, the other sister begins to ignore me. Same thing before she left. I believe it's either the second sister is just trying to stay on the eldest's good side or only talks to me when the oldest isn't around.
I try to avoid her the best I can...
In public, when I'm not with my family, I'm more outgoing and talkative. At home, I've always been the quiet, innocent child who never swears (I don't excessively otherwise; occasionally I'll sneak one out if need be). In my mind, I'm always afraid of others judging me. I guess that's the main problem.
That's all I have to say. Ignore the shitty organization.
If you read this, thanks for listening.
Rinax