I don't really know where to start, but all I'm going to say is this has been going on for a long time, it was a vicious cycle, during which I lost all respect for my self, was filled with self loathe and just felt like giving up on life, I don't really want to get into why but point is this was a long time coming, over the last while I've been struggling with myself but today is going to be the beginning of the new me, I've cleaned myself up and its time to go out there and make my life better with my own two hands, fix the broken me piece by piece.

 

I'm sorry for troubling you with this but putting it in visual form was the only way I felt I could finalise it in my own head, thanks for listening.

Sometimes we have to start over.  I think a lot of people have found themselves in a similar position to yourself.  Needless to say I am very gladdened that you have decided to move forward and make a positive change.  There's a time where that's what one has to do, as living in the past can only cause more remorse, regret, and pain.  It's no trouble posting this, so please don't worry regarding that.  We're all here to help.  I wish you all the best!