I'll be officially leaving KH13. I may come back but I honestly don't want to.

 

A few people on the last thread I made have the mentality that 'If you don't care about KH, why are you on this site for?'. Which has made me feel very unwelcome,

I've had other issues too so don't think I'm just leaving because people imply I should.

 

I've had numerous problems with other people on here but I'll just end up getting banned since I keep losing my temper all the time. For the sake of my mental health, it's best if I just keep to myself. Some of the people on here are also very rude and offensive, but that's hypocritical of me, since I've also been like that. My mental health is deteriorating, I think it's best if I focus on reality rather than being absorbed into the internet.

 

I apologise for any rude remarks I've made to anyone and I wish everyone the best of luck in the future . I've  been a bit of an ass to some people,  I'm sorry for that.

 

Goodbye! Thank you to Rowbe for being awesome, as well as my best friend on here-Felixx! Flaming Lea has also been very helpful, 2 quid, Trece, Mystics Apprentice, KingdomHearts3, KingdomHearts45, Steventus and Mythril Magician have also been really awesome people. I apologise if I forgot to mention you, I also love you .

 

Oh and please don't assume I'm being overdramatic or an attention seeker. The story in the tag is why and how I joined the site last year. Be warned, it's sensitive information.

 

 

 

I joined this site last June, I was a HUGE fan of KH back then. I originally joined as a means of overcoming my introverted, pessimistic, depressed side which stemmed from me basically sitting in my room all day and just doing homework and playing games.

 

In January of 2015 I almost killed myself, the reasons for that are long but to keep it brief, my best and only true friend was diagnosed with depression and began to harm themselves. Being the antisocial fool I was, I didn't have much experience with dealing with these situations and a few times I accidentally ended up making them... harm themselves. Through all of that, they kept me by their side and we were still best friends. They said a few times it was their fault and that they shouldn't blame me, but that's besides the point.

 

I felt like sh**, they were slowly hurting themselves and I couldn't do anything about it, every time I did, I just made everything worse. I was useless, how could I call myself a man when I couldn't even help those in front of me? Eventually, I just started feeling worthless, I never went out anywhere and most of my life consisted of just doing homework or watching TV. People told me there are some things you can't control but I never liked following that idea, it just seemed selfish to watch someone else self harm whilst I just sat there. Not to mention I always felt different from others, my friends would always surpass me at everything which just made me feel useless since I already sucked at everything. I could barely kick a ball. People would never notice me unless I did something stupid.

 

So I started to ... myself and at the end of January I began to consult the school counselor after almost ending my life. She didn't do much and I basically had to fix my problems by myself. 

 

Anyhow, come the summer some stuff happened and I slipped back into that sad mode, everything went downhill... That's when I joined this site and gradually, the pain went away, I met new people and could discuss anything. Alas, I'm still an introvert but a lot more happy and carefree around my close friends. 

 

Why AM I telling you this? Because this site saved me from killing myself, that's why. A lot of you guys and gals really made me feel special, I've made some amazing friends. But I think it's best if I leave.

 

 

 

 

Peace.

Edited April 26, 20169 yr by Shinobi Palace

I'm sorry to see you go. I wish I could have gotten to know you. It'll be sad for you to leave. Anyhow, I'm sorry to see you go. I hope you'll find happiness, and maybe come back.

Oh, I'm so sorry to hear that, but like everyone has already said: just do what you think is best to get better.  I know what its like to suffer from extreme depression (and anxiety), and I can relate about the... suicide part, because I still suffer from those thoughts.  And yeah, in my senior year of high school, I also went to see my school counselor since that was when my depression was at its worst, and like yours, mine wasn't of any help.  My parents were so angry about that, that they actually went and talked to my vice principal, and he was super nice and helpful; because of him I was able to graduate in December and not in May/June like everyone else.  So good luck to you and your friend!

 

Also, I hope I wasn't one of those rude people.  I don't remember ever arguing, or really talking that much with you, but I have a pretty bad memory.  So, I apologize if I ever was; its never my intent to be nasty towards those who have different opinions from mine, but I have a hard time getting my thoughts across clearly, and I'm sure there are times when my tone sounded nasty or judgemental.

Damn...that's quite a story there, Shinobi!  I'm truly sorry that you went through such an ordeal!  I'm glad that this site saved you, though!  It just goes to show that just when you think hope is lost, something unexpected comes along the way that changes you forever, ya know?

 

Even though I may not know you much, I think it's sad that you're leaving this site, but if you truly feel like this is what you need to do, then do what you feel is right. Remember that there will always be people that will try to look down on you and insult you, but never, and I mean never take their words to heart! You gotta believe in yourself and be the best version of yourself you can be!  Defy your own expectations, overcome your demons, and push through life, doing your best to accomplish everything you can, the way you want to, ya know?  It's sad that you're leaving, but hey, this is KH13, so you'll always be welcome here!

 

So yeah, whenever you decide to come back, just know that KH13 will have its arms open for ya!  Just stay positive and don't let negative comments bring you down, ya know? But anyways, best of luck to you Shinobi, and God bless you! ^_^

I'm really, deeply sorry to see you leave, Puv. You've been a calm, relaxed sort of guy every time we chatted, and it's sad to see ya go so suddenly.

 

Just like how...some of my other friends on here ended up...

 

Listen, Shinobi, if you ever, and I mean ever, find yourself confused or panicking or whatever it is you feel when life starts getting to you in a bad way, I want you to let me talk you through it. You're my friend, too, and I never want to see my friends hurting themselves.

 

It's okay if you don't want to stay anymore, I understand. But always know that if you need someone to ask at any time, you know the Digimon to call. I also have my Google+ Account in Emergencies.

 

Goodbye, Shinobi...

 

 

Rock on!