Emi-chan

Bye bye bicycle! I love the storms but there isn't much where I live ;~; Schemer, ya gotta chiiiilll. I was looking through tumblr btw and I think I just got a spoiler on FMAB

Then we're watching a kids movie *pets head* You'll fit along

Then let it be some paranormal thingy *grins*

Looking back at the brighter things in life.... I can't wait to go to the movies with you Schemer! (If you're still online) I've planned that it'd be somewhere in early July maybe.

Hello Solar!

I meant to say chicken flavor cookies when I first said it. Oops. But you died after I said that.

He sure couldn't when I first mentioned the idea...

Hmm.... Sometimes just talking and messaging for fun really cheers me up. (And I don't have much time to sleep during the day since I'm always busy. I can't sleep at night anymore and I'm taking a break from drawing...)

Okay... I don't want to be annoying though.

I'm feeling a bit better now. My throat feels dry but I'm not nervous anymore. I feel much calmer. I've never been the kind of person who thinks about harming themselves, though. I'm a little tougher than that. I just needed to talk... Thanks Schemer and Obi...

I....I'm usually not like this.... It just been eating me for such a long time now. My grandmother had cancer too, and I was told that she had days to live just last Christmas. Then the day after Christmas she was gone. Three days afterward a large dog came and attacked my family, killing my dog. But after getting this thing off my chest, I feel calmer...

It's just... hard. I'm really good with lies. There were some times when we were talking and my life was being crushed without you knowing. There were times when we were laughing and walking home together yet you'd never guess that someone in my family was kidnapped. There were times when I made a joke through messages and we laugh yet you won't imagine that in a couple minutes I had to say the last words to someone I love then watching her die before my eyes. Sometimes I feel like it was my fault my dog died. I was being careless and didn't grab him in time before that giant pitiful killed him. Then there comes emotionally love stuff that confuses me a lot. And now I'm just making things awkward and acting selfish, like my life is horrible and nothing else matters (I don't feel that way but people would see me that way) And I've always been too afraid to tell anyone this cuz things just aren't gonna me the same!

I feel like everything is my fault. Or at least most things. Like I should have done things differently. And I feel like I've been bottling up everything and I just need to burst out with what has happened to me in my perspective.

It's.... it's just that I've realized how much things has really happened to me.... and how much I lie. I smile and laugh and make up puns and jokes in person. Sometimes, I'm just hiding how I really feel.

Sleep is not even the problem anymore. My life is the problem. I'm depressed more than I ever been! (well... not as much as last Christmas). Schemer, you're one of my only friends who knows about it and you don't even know the whole thing!

Aghhh... I feel so worried and nervous to the extreme >~< I can't sleep anymore! I've stopped sleeping!

Hm... it's a weird time to come...

I'm afraid to draw...

Yo Lea.

*rubs eye* Morning... Gah, I always end up waking up in the afternoon =p=

It was a cool dark night. I wasn't able to sleep, as always. Such a quiet apartment I lived in. But something was... off. I felt the wind blowing from the downstairs window. The problem was that I could have sworn that I closed it. I slowly got up and opened the door just slightly. I looked around, hearing the sounds of footsteps. I'm just hallucinating, I thought. I slowly crept down the hall and I saw someone dressed all in black. I froze in fear and he pulled out a hand gun then BANG! I fell on the floor while blood started spilling everywhere and my eyes slowly closed.

Hmm... I gotta go today but be back tomorrow~! Bye bye bicycle

Thanks Daniel and Solar ^~^ (ah one more question .___.ll whose next to post on the rp?)

Hm.. Okay! Do I write out my own death as well?

Hmm... I'm starting to get things here... How would I start off? Like, any other random day life for my character?