Hello mates, this is Sorage55 here to share with you something thats been a big part of my life:
Well, some of you already know this, but for about 10 years now I have been cursed....and mentally insane. I lived childhood in solitude away from others, no friends for I had no skills on how to make any. But this curse gave me a friend, I thought it was all a trick of my imagination and insanity at the time heheh BUT NO! It was a Demon! Straight from Hell to tempt me to sins as I grew through life, invading my body and constantly torturing me.
"I might as well give this guy a name, and picture what he looks like." I said to myself, I made it obvious: "Daemon" would be his name, and he would look just like me, but with pure black hair and black eyes. I was tortured for 10 years, literally my emotions were FADING AWAY! When something shocking happens in a story or a game I do not feel shocked, when a family member dies and I go to his funeral I am not sad, when I actually made friends and we were all laughing together I was not happy! All these years faking emotions and studying on when to use them! All these years of Daemon's constant taunts and tempts and tortures and beatings! Every night I twitched in pain and horror as Daemon controlled my body limbs to twist my head suddenly to the side, to twitch my hands clawed about my body and face! AND ALL I FELT WAS PAIN! No cries, no tears, nothing shocked me, everything was gray.
After a major spinal surgery the last day of 8th grade, 2 metal rods jammed up my spine, 23 metal screws jackhammered into them and me, gutted up like a dead pig's carcass! And I lied there in bed, in pain, arguing countlessly with Daemon to shut up, to be silenced, he only laughed and hurt me more.
In 9th grade, freshman year, I asked God in prayers, and found I had someone else inside me I never noticed, someone lighter, someone quieter, he never spoke. But he was surely Daemon's opposite. An angel, my angel. I named him and formed him: "Angeal" he looks like me, but with pure white hair and silver eyes. Sometimes takes the form of a white wolf while Daemon was a black wolf.
Angeal never spoke, but fought Daemon off with me, yet it still wasn't enough.
Then, a week ago being 10th grade, I met someone....someone...who helped me. S...she, had somewhat the same problem as me, but a bit differently. One night, a week ago, I told her about them, and her being the same religion as I, helped me by...excorcising Daemon out. Through an hour the fight lasted, till eventually I felt as if I had to throw up or hurl out something from inside me, after that I noticed what it was and kept on doing it, yelling him to STAY DOWN! Cast away to Hell for he shall never reach me nor the Heavens! In God's name he is gone from within me!
After that moment I felt very weak, and went to bed after thanking her. When I awoke...I felt different. A huge rush of many things came unto me! Emotions! I HAVE EMOTIONS! I went about 4 days with a blast of pure emotion! Nervousness! Shyness! Happiness! Sadness! I can laugh! I can laugh! And after 4 days or so, I forgot absolutely everything what happened in those 4 days, now I am controlling my emotions, Angeal roaming free within me, spreading light all around.
I have never felt the emotion....love, before. That girl, before she knew my curse, asked me out on a date...because of my curse I declined quickly. It was the first time anyone has ever asked me out on a date, I didn't really know what to say besides no. Now...I deeply regret that, I wish I could ask her and yet....I have no idea what people do on these "dates". It most likely requires money, and I am a poor boy. I have only my dreams, and my poetry.
Hello mates, this is Sorage55 here to share with you something thats been a big part of my life:
Well, some of you already know this, but for about 10 years now I have been cursed....and mentally insane. I lived childhood in solitude away from others, no friends for I had no skills on how to make any. But this curse gave me a friend, I thought it was all a trick of my imagination and insanity at the time heheh BUT NO! It was a Demon! Straight from Hell to tempt me to sins as I grew through life, invading my body and constantly torturing me.
"I might as well give this guy a name, and picture what he looks like." I said to myself, I made it obvious: "Daemon" would be his name, and he would look just like me, but with pure black hair and black eyes. I was tortured for 10 years, literally my emotions were FADING AWAY! When something shocking happens in a story or a game I do not feel shocked, when a family member dies and I go to his funeral I am not sad, when I actually made friends and we were all laughing together I was not happy! All these years faking emotions and studying on when to use them! All these years of Daemon's constant taunts and tempts and tortures and beatings! Every night I twitched in pain and horror as Daemon controlled my body limbs to twist my head suddenly to the side, to twitch my hands clawed about my body and face! AND ALL I FELT WAS PAIN! No cries, no tears, nothing shocked me, everything was gray.
After a major spinal surgery the last day of 8th grade, 2 metal rods jammed up my spine, 23 metal screws jackhammered into them and me, gutted up like a dead pig's carcass! And I lied there in bed, in pain, arguing countlessly with Daemon to shut up, to be silenced, he only laughed and hurt me more.
In 9th grade, freshman year, I asked God in prayers, and found I had someone else inside me I never noticed, someone lighter, someone quieter, he never spoke. But he was surely Daemon's opposite. An angel, my angel. I named him and formed him: "Angeal" he looks like me, but with pure white hair and silver eyes. Sometimes takes the form of a white wolf while Daemon was a black wolf.
Angeal never spoke, but fought Daemon off with me, yet it still wasn't enough.
Then, a week ago being 10th grade, I met someone....someone...who helped me. S...she, had somewhat the same problem as me, but a bit differently. One night, a week ago, I told her about them, and her being the same religion as I, helped me by...excorcising Daemon out. Through an hour the fight lasted, till eventually I felt as if I had to throw up or hurl out something from inside me, after that I noticed what it was and kept on doing it, yelling him to STAY DOWN! Cast away to Hell for he shall never reach me nor the Heavens! In God's name he is gone from within me!
After that moment I felt very weak, and went to bed after thanking her. When I awoke...I felt different. A huge rush of many things came unto me! Emotions! I HAVE EMOTIONS! I went about 4 days with a blast of pure emotion! Nervousness! Shyness! Happiness! Sadness! I can laugh! I can laugh! And after 4 days or so, I forgot absolutely everything what happened in those 4 days, now I am controlling my emotions, Angeal roaming free within me, spreading light all around.
I have never felt the emotion....love, before. That girl, before she knew my curse, asked me out on a date...because of my curse I declined quickly. It was the first time anyone has ever asked me out on a date, I didn't really know what to say besides no. Now...I deeply regret that, I wish I could ask her and yet....I have no idea what people do on these "dates". It most likely requires money, and I am a poor boy. I have only my dreams, and my poetry.