Life is really hard. but life always has its ups and downs but for me i only seem to be getting the downs. i think i may be the one screwing up my life but i dont know if ots the people i am actually letting into my life... i just wish everybody could disappear and i could be in my own little world.... All i wish for to come back is the love of my life(which probably doesnt even care about me anymore) my family(if my mom ever comes back) and my real life friends( if they ever come back to Mexico)) I just wish all of that could come back then i could actually be happy for once in my life. sorry if this is turning out to be a downer thread. i just rrally had to let this out and i know i could do it here cuz i know i can actually get advice from people... and btw i dont want any attention either sorry if it seems like it but alll i want right now is advice and help D:

...welcome to the club. ._.'

You know I actually feel the same way about getting all the downs in my life. I don't have a life outside the net and almost everyone who has ever known me in real life hates me(yes, even my so called blood related "family")and apparently because I'm mentally ill people also think I'm mentally awesome even though I used to be in honors classes when I was in school >.>. But, what I do is I look to the people I care about which is all my friends here. I know that one day, I'll have to move on but right now I can't and I accept that and my advice is that you do the same. I really think that you should look at all the good things you have, for example you have friends here and you said you had your bro that still cares about you, eduardo. I know that you wish the good times that you had in your past would come back because I wish the same but sadly, the fact may be that they won't come back so you shouldn't depend on it so much because if they don't come back it's going to hurt you like hell because it's happened to me. Life is going to hurt you and screw you up at some point or another so it's good to know that you're not the only whose going through this. And it's good that you're talking about your problems and wanting to get advice because it helps.

So, again my advice to you is keep the memories of the good times in your heart but don't expect them to just come back because it might not happen. You can hope for them to come back but don't lean on them too much. And you should find someone you can trust completely like eduardo or another close friend to listen to everything you have to say so that way you'll feel relieved to talk about your problems.

Life is really hard. but life always has its ups and downs but for me i only seem to be getting the downs. i think i may be the one screwing up my life but i dont know if ots the people i am actually letting into my life... i just wish everybody could disappear and i could be in my own little world.... All i wish for to come back is the love of my life(which probably doesnt even care about me anymore) my family(if my mom ever comes back) and my real life friends( if they ever come back to Mexico)) I just wish all of that could come back then i could actually be happy for once in my life. sorry if this is turning out to be a downer thread. i just rrally had to let this out and i know i could do it here cuz i know i can actually get advice from people... and btw i dont want any attention either sorry if it seems like it but alll i want right now is advice and help D:

 

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thhxx all ya my life is getting a bit better and imlanging my personality and all its going well nowall i need to o is keep it up but everything seems to be going ok but i do have OCD but ill try not to let that get too in my way to progress.