I'm just rotting on the inside right now. I'm dead to emotions, to self, to thought, everything. I doubt everything, and I don't know where to go. I'm lost to hell and life, and I'll be stuck here forever because I can't end myself because I don't have the guts. I'm dying eternally and living a life of desolation, waiting some other form of death, and then it will all be over. I will die, and then I will burn, and then I will be forgotten, unremembered. The people who I should care the most I feel the farthest from, my girlfriend, my family, my friends. Only one person has actually helped me and I can't cling to the advice I was given. I'm going down a whirlpool of despair and I can't get out, and, no one understands. I doubt my relationships, and everything else, I don't feel close to my love, and I doubt us for some reason. I don't know where to turn, and I'm stuck here.

Well first of all hang in there man and try to stay strong. I know what its like to go through hardships and feel like you have noone to turn to. Also dont think about killing yourself or hoping you will die cause that will make it worse and we dont want that to happen do we. Try thinking about all the good things you do have and not all the bads, and dont forget you have friends on here to help you when your in the rutts. So just hang in there man and if you ever need anybody to talk to Im here and II'll do my best to help you.

Wow, about half of the things you said, I feel just like that. especially the doubting part.

seriously, I guess I can't make you better either, maybe only for saying you're not the only one.