PLEASE READ ALL OF IT! A lot of it isn't neccisary but it gives a good backround of Kateline and everything leading up to my delima! BUT if you must,just read the parts where I mention Kateline! Plz read the third paragraph though its a funny story about what I did for HER! ALSO 3rd TO LAST PARAGRAPH! The one before the second to last one lol. Also tell me how long it took for you to read ALL of this IF you read all of it at all!
Alright let me first let you know... I do stay at home 24/7 except on a few occasions like when my mom to take dorothy,our dog out(but thats just in the yard and for a short time),or wants me to go with her somewhere or downstairs where my grandma lives(because I live in my grandma's garage upstairs cause it was turned into a living area at some point,and yes I has had a few previous tenates!).I go to church on Sundays,there is a Sunday School class running from about 10-11 A.M and then the actually CHURCH at ABOUT 11-12 A.M After about 5-10 minutes of about 4 songs,we separate single a more saperated class two,no wait three of I THINK 7-8( and I am 8th),9-10th,and 11-12th.Of course its rougher because people need time to get over there and have a closing prayer after the sunday school.Also need time to prepare since SOME people in the church are in classes during Sunday School.
ANYWAYS... to the ACTUALLY STORY! Alright... so there is this girl named Kateline! I do not know her last name,just her first. She has always been a grade above me I believe although due to the strange way my church arranged things for the first 5-10 minutes of the sunday school we sing about 4 songs,and she is one if the girls that sing,one being another girl,and another being her sister Bethini(who is in 10th I believe.Now let me tell you when I first fell in love (yes I have to say it like that!) with her! You see a month or two OR THREE ago there was a camp that a bunch of churches were going to.It was in the mountains and the camp was called Ponyo.Even though I had seen her before,for some reason,I want gaga over her at camp! One funny thing I remember doing is she said she was thirsty or something like that,and you see the 3 water tanks and SUPER SMALL cups were quite a distance away,about i dunno... I am bad judge of distance.About 20 yards away,or 1/16 of a mile? Yeah! So I told her I would get some water! I walked all the way there,got a couple of cups since they were so small,and CAREFULLY walked all the way back slowly,and then I finally get there with some of my friends/classmates around i forget what they were doing,and she took one cup,drank it,and she said she didn't want the other cup.She said since I brought the water there I should have it,sadly though I wasn't thirsty!
For a while... she was VERY distracting.I knew from camp she was very sweet and beautiful! For the next month or two,I couldn't concentrate fully during class! Also,from about 9:20-10 A.M people get there early to just hang out or whatever.Some like Bethini and Kateline get there early to rehearse.Also our guitarist too.ANYWAYS... one day,she is there,and she goes to get a drink of water... NOW first of all,the setup for where we listen to our music or special things we are do! Like the dimolishing strongholds film series where we stay like all the way to 10:30 there.We have a screen and its projector,a person who controls the computer for controlling which lyrics appear on the screen,and something that has to do with a PS1... Ok.Top to down,split the room in half,from the side that is South is the one you enter from in.There is the computer,the projector on the west all,and a bunch of chairs facing the west,with a door to the south where you enter in from! Now on the second half to the right you have a pool table... above the room split this second half horizontaly from left to right,you have a room or two with a few doors leading into them.Then on the south wall some high chairs with a high,thin,round table with usually some candy on it from our main teacher.A couple of those high thin round tables anyways! Ahem,THEN to the far right is a little kitchen where you can grab a root beer or another beverage or other stuff,but only I have seen beverages taken.Set up with a couple doors or doorways leading into it with a big window like... one where you pull down a metal thing to close the"shop" or whatever you get the idea.And between the higher door(again from top down view) and the window there is a Water Tank,normal one that is blue!
So me and two other guys AND Kateline all at the same time manage to walk over to the water tank at time same time! Before Kateline comes by,It seems all three of us got a hair-cut! THE TIMING! I know we had a week with quite a few days able to be seperating us but STILL! And then once they both say they got a hair cut I said as just about Kateline comes by,"What would you know I got one too!" Or something similiar.And then for some reason it was like after camp x10! or x5 you get the idea lol.So next sunday... which is last sunday as I am typing all of this... I sit down on some stairs where at first people going TO the class are walking towards you,then go to your right,turn left and over to go up some stairs,right because at the top you have to turn back to where all the doors are,and there is our main class room! So I stay on the stairs leading to other class-rooms,eventually talking to some people including Mr. Tom our teacher saying I was just enjoying the fresh air watching people come in,which I WAS enjoying the fresh air and watching ppl go in.But no I was waiting to watch Kateline go in.YES,when she finally came,idk if she saw me or not,but I enjoyed it as my heart raced.NOW,you can understand how hard this is since just by watching her walk that I get all happy like that! Ahem,so then when she walks in I walk in as well,we do our class... then go into our seperate class rooms,THREE,the same room,the 7-8th grade room,and the 9th-10th grade room.At the beggining of the movie series we got randomely picked into different rooms which for me was the 9th-10th grade one with some other classmates and her sister Bethini.Kateline got picked to be in the 7th to 8th grade room.So after class I go to see if in this secret sisters thing on the table if there is anything gift from my mom's secret sister,I go back to my mom's classroom,then go BACK,and stair across the large LARGE HUGE room to where Kateline is standing/siting! Ok I stretched that its not THAT big but like 50 people wide!Or is it 25 or 35 IDK! Na its 50 people can FIT in there! or 40 or close! Ahem,and I think(hmm I have to strike up the corage to talk to Kateline!) So without my mom knowing ANYTHING about my love life,I ask if we can stay for church service,and she says SHE cannot because our grandma isn't feeling well BUT she has one of her friends in her class watch over me so she can pick me up AFTER church is over! Then I sit down about the room length of about 20 people away,listening to an hour of service that actually went be pretty quickly!
So after its over me and my mom's friend walk a bit and wait for my mom! I then see Kateline walking and then her and her mom stop for SOMETHING idk what it was a little table with some papers on it.Then they split up idk where Kateline's mom went but I carefully watched Kateline going to the Playground to talk with her friend Zachery which i am confident is in no way interested in her! Just being friendly! Ahem,then Jerry which is his name,he says he can wait in his truck,and I can go and enjoy myself.Why he knew that I just wanted to relax instead of stand and wait? I guess he put myself in his place and thought I wouldn't just wanna STAND THERE! Ahem,so just as he starts to walk to his truck,I start to walk towards Kateline who isn't that far away!
And here is when I start to actually talk to her in a conversational WAY! I ask,"Whatcha doing?" and she says in a sweet voice,"To the playground wanna come?" I said,"Sure".Now during this whole time I was talking with her and around her I felt REALLY weird and strange,for this was a huge milestone for me rofl! So we went,her and Zachery sat on a couple of swings,and I stood leaning onto the actual Structure of the Swingset! I mostly listened and then Zachery said he had to go! Kateline followed him and I was looking for Jerry's Truck,when I saw my mom! Now my mom LOVES TO CHAT so she starts to talk to Jerry a little bit I FORGET if she did or didn't BUT at some POINT she starts to talk to Katelines mom! I then walk over to where Kateline is standing where Zachery's family is getting ready to go! So I ask what she is doing! I forget her response or if that was the first thing I said or asked or EVEN if I said that at all,but she asked,"Back to the swings?" and I answer,"Sure..." and on the way there I made weird sounds cause i felt weird being around her! She didn't seem to notice or mind the weird noises I made! So then It was just me and her! Then I sat where he was siting and it was just me listening to her talk and TALK! And I was a good listener too since guys aren't good conversationalists! ESPECIALLY ME! So I talked back telling her how I lost about my whole top front left tooth and about a quarter of my top front right tooth.Then she told me some stuff about part of one of her canine teeth came out! And how her Jaw has to be re-ajusted every 2 weeks. Then eventually she walks up and I follow her to her mom and mine! We waited and waited and they FINALLY STOPPED! Then Kateline leaves!
What is the problem you may ask? Well I have been thinking of different scenerios of me saying things to her and different ways she might respond! And I cannot stop thinking about HER! What should I DO?! Only things that keep me from doing it...YOUTUBE VIDEOS... and that is pretty much it and NO don't just say WATCH YOUTUBE VIDEOS I do that ANYWAYS all THE TIME so its not the answer! Just when I am doing WHATEVER like getting food or a drink how do I NOT think about HER!
Oh also you guys were not in the internet and irl,I would not be talking about my love life I HATE telling ANYONE about it! So feel honered! It makes me feel better cause I feel like people on the internet are not real people even though I know they are lol! Also I do plan on dating when I am older about a year since in about 2 or 3 weeks I am turning 15! But its pressuring to tell her how I feel!
PLEASE READ ALL OF IT! A lot of it isn't neccisary but it gives a good backround of Kateline and everything leading up to my delima! BUT if you must,just read the parts where I mention Kateline! Plz read the third paragraph though its a funny story about what I did for HER! ALSO 3rd TO LAST PARAGRAPH! The one before the second to last one lol. Also tell me how long it took for you to read ALL of this IF you read all of it at all!
Alright let me first let you know... I do stay at home 24/7 except on a few occasions like when my mom to take dorothy,our dog out(but thats just in the yard and for a short time),or wants me to go with her somewhere or downstairs where my grandma lives(because I live in my grandma's garage upstairs cause it was turned into a living area at some point,and yes I has had a few previous tenates!).I go to church on Sundays,there is a Sunday School class running from about 10-11 A.M and then the actually CHURCH at ABOUT 11-12 A.M After about 5-10 minutes of about 4 songs,we separate single a more saperated class two,no wait three of I THINK 7-8( and I am 8th),9-10th,and 11-12th.Of course its rougher because people need time to get over there and have a closing prayer after the sunday school.Also need time to prepare since SOME people in the church are in classes during Sunday School.
ANYWAYS... to the ACTUALLY STORY! Alright... so there is this girl named Kateline! I do not know her last name,just her first. She has always been a grade above me I believe although due to the strange way my church arranged things for the first 5-10 minutes of the sunday school we sing about 4 songs,and she is one if the girls that sing,one being another girl,and another being her sister Bethini(who is in 10th I believe.Now let me tell you when I first fell in love (yes I have to say it like that!) with her! You see a month or two OR THREE ago there was a camp that a bunch of churches were going to.It was in the mountains and the camp was called Ponyo.Even though I had seen her before,for some reason,I want gaga over her at camp! One funny thing I remember doing is she said she was thirsty or something like that,and you see the 3 water tanks and SUPER SMALL cups were quite a distance away,about i dunno... I am bad judge of distance.About 20 yards away,or 1/16 of a mile? Yeah! So I told her I would get some water! I walked all the way there,got a couple of cups since they were so small,and CAREFULLY walked all the way back slowly,and then I finally get there with some of my friends/classmates around i forget what they were doing,and she took one cup,drank it,and she said she didn't want the other cup.She said since I brought the water there I should have it,sadly though I wasn't thirsty!
For a while... she was VERY distracting.I knew from camp she was very sweet and beautiful! For the next month or two,I couldn't concentrate fully during class! Also,from about 9:20-10 A.M people get there early to just hang out or whatever.Some like Bethini and Kateline get there early to rehearse.Also our guitarist too.ANYWAYS... one day,she is there,and she goes to get a drink of water... NOW first of all,the setup for where we listen to our music or special things we are do! Like the dimolishing strongholds film series where we stay like all the way to 10:30 there.We have a screen and its projector,a person who controls the computer for controlling which lyrics appear on the screen,and something that has to do with a PS1... Ok.Top to down,split the room in half,from the side that is South is the one you enter from in.There is the computer,the projector on the west all,and a bunch of chairs facing the west,with a door to the south where you enter in from! Now on the second half to the right you have a pool table... above the room split this second half horizontaly from left to right,you have a room or two with a few doors leading into them.Then on the south wall some high chairs with a high,thin,round table with usually some candy on it from our main teacher.A couple of those high thin round tables anyways! Ahem,THEN to the far right is a little kitchen where you can grab a root beer or another beverage or other stuff,but only I have seen beverages taken.Set up with a couple doors or doorways leading into it with a big window like... one where you pull down a metal thing to close the"shop" or whatever you get the idea.And between the higher door(again from top down view) and the window there is a Water Tank,normal one that is blue!
So me and two other guys AND Kateline all at the same time manage to walk over to the water tank at time same time! Before Kateline comes by,It seems all three of us got a hair-cut! THE TIMING! I know we had a week with quite a few days able to be seperating us but STILL! And then once they both say they got a hair cut I said as just about Kateline comes by,"What would you know I got one too!" Or something similiar.And then for some reason it was like after camp x10! or x5 you get the idea lol.So next sunday... which is last sunday as I am typing all of this... I sit down on some stairs where at first people going TO the class are walking towards you,then go to your right,turn left and over to go up some stairs,right because at the top you have to turn back to where all the doors are,and there is our main class room! So I stay on the stairs leading to other class-rooms,eventually talking to some people including Mr. Tom our teacher saying I was just enjoying the fresh air watching people come in,which I WAS enjoying the fresh air and watching ppl go in.But no I was waiting to watch Kateline go in.YES,when she finally came,idk if she saw me or not,but I enjoyed it as my heart raced.NOW,you can understand how hard this is since just by watching her walk that I get all happy like that! Ahem,so then when she walks in I walk in as well,we do our class... then go into our seperate class rooms,THREE,the same room,the 7-8th grade room,and the 9th-10th grade room.At the beggining of the movie series we got randomely picked into different rooms which for me was the 9th-10th grade one with some other classmates and her sister Bethini.Kateline got picked to be in the 7th to 8th grade room.So after class I go to see if in this secret sisters thing on the table if there is anything gift from my mom's secret sister,I go back to my mom's classroom,then go BACK,and stair across the large LARGE HUGE room to where Kateline is standing/siting! Ok I stretched that its not THAT big but like 50 people wide!Or is it 25 or 35 IDK! Na its 50 people can FIT in there! or 40 or close! Ahem,and I think(hmm I have to strike up the corage to talk to Kateline!) So without my mom knowing ANYTHING about my love life,I ask if we can stay for church service,and she says SHE cannot because our grandma isn't feeling well BUT she has one of her friends in her class watch over me so she can pick me up AFTER church is over! Then I sit down about the room length of about 20 people away,listening to an hour of service that actually went be pretty quickly!
So after its over me and my mom's friend walk a bit and wait for my mom! I then see Kateline walking and then her and her mom stop for SOMETHING idk what it was a little table with some papers on it.Then they split up idk where Kateline's mom went but I carefully watched Kateline going to the Playground to talk with her friend Zachery which i am confident is in no way interested in her! Just being friendly! Ahem,then Jerry which is his name,he says he can wait in his truck,and I can go and enjoy myself.Why he knew that I just wanted to relax instead of stand and wait? I guess he put myself in his place and thought I wouldn't just wanna STAND THERE! Ahem,so just as he starts to walk to his truck,I start to walk towards Kateline who isn't that far away!
And here is when I start to actually talk to her in a conversational WAY! I ask,"Whatcha doing?" and she says in a sweet voice,"To the playground wanna come?" I said,"Sure".Now during this whole time I was talking with her and around her I felt REALLY weird and strange,for this was a huge milestone for me rofl! So we went,her and Zachery sat on a couple of swings,and I stood leaning onto the actual Structure of the Swingset! I mostly listened and then Zachery said he had to go! Kateline followed him and I was looking for Jerry's Truck,when I saw my mom! Now my mom LOVES TO CHAT so she starts to talk to Jerry a little bit I FORGET if she did or didn't BUT at some POINT she starts to talk to Katelines mom! I then walk over to where Kateline is standing where Zachery's family is getting ready to go! So I ask what she is doing! I forget her response or if that was the first thing I said or asked or EVEN if I said that at all,but she asked,"Back to the swings?" and I answer,"Sure..." and on the way there I made weird sounds cause i felt weird being around her! She didn't seem to notice or mind the weird noises I made! So then It was just me and her! Then I sat where he was siting and it was just me listening to her talk and TALK! And I was a good listener too since guys aren't good conversationalists! ESPECIALLY ME! So I talked back telling her how I lost about my whole top front left tooth and about a quarter of my top front right tooth.Then she told me some stuff about part of one of her canine teeth came out! And how her Jaw has to be re-ajusted every 2 weeks. Then eventually she walks up and I follow her to her mom and mine! We waited and waited and they FINALLY STOPPED! Then Kateline leaves!
What is the problem you may ask? Well I have been thinking of different scenerios of me saying things to her and different ways she might respond! And I cannot stop thinking about HER! What should I DO?! Only things that keep me from doing it...YOUTUBE VIDEOS... and that is pretty much it and NO don't just say WATCH YOUTUBE VIDEOS I do that ANYWAYS all THE TIME so its not the answer! Just when I am doing WHATEVER like getting food or a drink how do I NOT think about HER!
Oh also you guys were not in the internet and irl,I would not be talking about my love life I HATE telling ANYONE about it! So feel honered! It makes me feel better cause I feel like people on the internet are not real people even though I know they are lol! Also I do plan on dating when I am older about a year since in about 2 or 3 weeks I am turning 15! But its pressuring to tell her how I feel!