I wonder how people see me, do they see me as a ugly person or someone full of beauty?? I don't want to be told by others that I am pretty because then I expect to see myself as they do....Is that bad? I know I doubt my appearance more today than when I was young...and I feel bad about that. Somewhere in my head I know I'm pretty but the thought won't come out and I'm confused about how I see myself.

 

Does anybody understand how I feel?

I think I could look better if I wore makeup or spruced up my hair but I don't think I'm ugly either. Besides, if my hair is done in a way I'm not comfortable with or if I'm made up, I feel really uncomfortable with my body and I feel like clawing out of it. But when I do what I want with it, I feel comfortable and sometimes even happy. I don't seem to appeal to a lot of people around me (maybe it's because they're shallow or have Hollywood standards of beauty) but if I'm comfortable with myself, I don't care what people think, to be quite honest.

I know my face and body are really wrinkled for obvious reasons, so I dont care what people say. Would be nice if I could have a younger body though.

I care a lot about myself. I'm super confident though, which is something I'm proud of. So I consider myself attractive definitely. Ladies and gentlemen here I come.

Sometimes, I can make myself feel insecure when I compare myself with others around me and wonder what others think.

But I have learned that it only matters what the people you truly care about think of you. Not a stranger's opinion.

And more importantly, it's things like loyalty, uniqueness, and courage that shows your true beauty.

I want to look good because it makes me feel good, but other than that I don't care. I'm okay with the way I am.