I don't wanna bore anyone so I'm gonna make this to the point. I'm 13 and almost in high school, and lately I've been just craving my childhood like I miss certain memories of my childhood, my dad was still living with me and just all little things like that. Also I recently heard that me and my best friend since 3rd grade aren't going to the same schools (we haven't been since 6th grade and were hoping to go to the same high school.) so this has but me down a little. Also 3rd Marking Period is starting back up which means ill have gym (hate gym) and I have Chinese Class with this kid (we'll call him "M") "M" is kind of an asshole, he could be really great and nice and the next moment start hitting u and calling u names.. It's like he has seffere bipolar. Next up one of my best friends (well call "G") has recently been hanging out with "M" and starting to pick up his traits.. Anyway this year is starting off like shit.. But maybe it's god telling me to slow my roll, cause lately I've kind of been at the top of the social ladder and not been myself, but now I feel with my anxiety and problems that this is god telling me don't forget who you are.. idk what are your thoughts? Sorry this is long btw.

Dang. That sounds really rough. Sorry to hear that.

I think no matter what you should always be yourself though. Maybe try talking to a counselor or a friend you really trust could help a bit.

Best of luck with everything and I hope your year gets better.

Sorry to hear things aren't going well, and I hope everything gets better.

Well, if "G" is starting to hang out with "M" and doesn't care about you anyomre, maybe he wasn't your friend at the first place. If he's your friend, one of your best, than you should talk to him, tell him how you feel.

And try to be yoruself, what good is being in the top of social ladder, if your not yourself, and have friends that don't know you?

I think I know the "M" type.

 

He wants attention.

Smile, play along, and you should be fine.

 

Sorry, if I have the wrong idea.

 

Hope things get better.

Ahh, the moment when you aren't going to the same schools as your best friend :c It sucks. I can't relate to missing my childhood much as you can tell and I know what it's like to be around people like "M" a lot. Just Ignore him as much as possible when he's being an ass, don't really have much contact with him I guess if that works out. He doesn't seem deserving of a friendship honestly. Anyways, I hope things get better for you. If you need anyone to talk to I'm here for ya'.

Edited January 21, 201312 yr by Rainbow Dash

That's considerate of you to worry about you boring us, but if we respond it's because we chose to read it.

 

Life is constantly changing and the grass is always greener on the other side, some day you might miss this time period of your life. Different doesn't always mean bad though, just means different. I'm sorry you miss your father and if you care to discuss the reason for his abscence I'm all ears. Btw you shouldn't refer to anything that's important to you as a "Little thing" because how you feel matters.

 

Through Elementary, Middle school, and High School I had 3 different best friends, you sound like a popular guy so I wouldn't worry about not going to the same school. I understand why that would make you sad though.

 

I didn't care for gym either, but at the very least it will provide a conduit to release the stress you're talking about. As for Chinese class, you have to keep your eyes on the prize. If it's a required credit you might just have to tough it out, but as far as I know you don't have a disability concerning second languages right? So it could be worse. One day being being bilingual will help you alot. As for "M" he seems to have his own issues and you might just have to accept them and try to have empathy for someone with such severe moodswings. And for "G" some people believe that every 7 years you replace half your friends, and since you're maturing as a person having a friend who isn't growing as well can be detrimental to your own progress. People grow apart, and you'll find new friends who are similar to the new you soon.

 

The fact that you believe in god is a good sign, it shows you can have faith in something. And if you can have faith in something else, you can have faith in yourself no problem. Like Terra said: "Strength of heart will carry you through the hardest of trials." When 1.5 comes out you should be able to experience some of your childhood again and feel like your old self, even though being socially active is not a negative quality at all. About the anxiety, everyone has angst as a teenager as it comes with the age. If I read your post right I don't know what to think of a god who would punish you for changing as a person, but a person can only handle so much. Sometimes you might need to take a step back from the party scene and just relax.

 

Btw your post isn't even that long compared to some stories in the writing forum, so there's no reason for an apology.

Wow, sounds like you've got a lot of changes going on all the sudden.  Entering the life of a teenager and leaving childhood behind is always a very painful process.  Everyone has to go through it, and, eventually, you'll get used to it.  The same thing happens again when you're entering adulthood--it's just the cycle of life.  I think it's normal for everyone to miss their childhood.  I know I sure as heck do.

 

I think it's a great idea to remember to be yourself, but also be open-minded to change as well.  As you grow you'll likely find new things that interest you.  But, overall, just remember who you are, and be the very best person you can sensibly be.  (Meaning don't go over the top or anything.)  I'm really sorry "G" is hanging out with "M"--hopefully G'll discover who M truly is and veer away from him after a while. And, if not...well, maybe you'll make some great new friends in high school!  It's sometimes rare, but can happen.

This may not be what you want to hear, but I have to tell you that if G is starting to hangout with this guy and making bad choices, then it might be time to reconsider your friendship.  I know it's hard to let a friend go, but in this case it might be for the better.  It's not a good idea to have a friend who behaves badly.

That's considerate of you to worry about you boring us, but if we respond it's because we chose to read it. Life is constantly changing and the grass is always greener on the other side, some day you might miss this time period of your life. Different doesn't always mean bad though, just means different. I'm sorry you miss your father and if you care to discuss the reason for his abscence I'm all ears. Btw you shouldn't refer to anything that's important to you as a "Little thing" because how you feel matters. Through Elementary, Middle school, and High School I had 3 different best friends, you sound like a popular guy so I wouldn't worry about not going to the same school. I understand why that would make you sad though. I didn't care for gym either, but at the very least it will provide a conduit to release the stress you're talking about. As for Chinese class, you have to keep your eyes on the prize. If it's a required credit you might just have to tough it out, but as far as I know you don't have a disability concerning second languages right? So it could be worse. One day being being bilingual will help you alot. As for "M" he seems to have his own issues and you might just have to accept them and try to have empathy for someone with such severe moodswings. And for "G" some people believe that every 7 years you replace half your friends, and since you're maturing as a person having a friend who isn't growing as well can be detrimental to your own progress. People grow apart, and you'll find new friends who are similar to the new you soon. The fact that you believe in god is a good sign, it shows you can have faith in something. And if you can have faith in something else, you can have faith in yourself no problem. Like Terra said: "Strength of heart will carry you through the hardest of trials." When 1.5 comes out you should be able to experience some of your childhood again and feel like your old self, even though being socially active is not a negative quality at all. About the anxiety, everyone has angst as a teenager as it comes with the age. If I read your post right I don't know what to think of a god who would punish you for changing as a person, but a person can only handle so much. Sometimes you might need to take a step back from the party scene and just relax. Btw your post isn't even that long compared to some stories in the writing forum, so there's no reason for an apology.

Your words really lightened my sprit thank you so much your a good person. I can't stop smiling :,)

Your words really lightened my sprit thank you so much your a good person. I can't stop smiling :,)

I'm glad, and thank you.

Well...you can ignore M if yu don't like how he acts..also good luck on Chinese class! You really will need it haha