Hi everyone it's me Iamkingdomhearts1000 or Iam for short and you see the reason why i posted this topic was because if anyone absolutely wants to that is can i talk about my daily life problems with them maybe.

 

 

Edited February 13, 201312 yr by Think Pink

you wrote Awesome wrong

Sucks to hear that

 

Hope you feel better soon.

 

And this could be a status update, you know?

Wha?

i was talking about like when you said Trash, i said you wrote Awesome wrong

i was talking about like when you said Trash, i said you wrote Awesome wrong

 

I think i get what you mean but if so then no i am not awesome since im scum who can only revel in his own despair and go on ranting about it.

Edited February 13, 201312 yr by Iamkingdomhearts1000

Hi everyone it's me Iamkingdomhearts1000 or Iam for short and you see the reason why i posted this topic was because if anyone absolutely wants to that is can i talk about my daily life problems with them maybe.

 

Hey Buddy, I hope you're okay, but I don't understand what you mean by this. Care to elaborate?

 

Also, Lelouch harnessed his despair to conquer the world. You can achieve great things even with such negative emotion

Edited February 13, 201312 yr by Ajexmi

Hey Buddy, I hope you're okay, but I don't understand what you mean by this. Care to elaborate?

 

It's that ever since the near end of March 2012 have i been feeling low about myself and have gotten the stubborn idea of committing suicide with a knife stabbed into my chest just because of me accidentally thinking i wanted to for no reason but over time has also now included the idea of me leaving this world to be for the better since i would only further corrupt it since i believe i have done evil in the past but nothing serious like murder and/or rape for examples but still serious enough that i repent for my crimes by dying and still not be forgiven for it.

 

Yeah but Lelouch did that for a good cause and if i were in his shoes whilst sinking down into Darkness like that of Obito Uchiha's from Naruto maybe would i abuse that kind of power that Lelouch once had.

Edited February 13, 201312 yr by Iamkingdomhearts1000

It's that ever since the near end of March 2012 have i been feeling low about myself and have gotten the stubborn idea of committing suicide with a knife stabbed into my chest just because of me accidentally thinking i wanted to for no reason but over time has also now included the idea of me leaving this world to be for the better since i would only further corrupt it since i believe i have done evil in the past but nothing serious like murder and/or rape for examples but still serious enough that i repent for my crimes by dying and still not be forgiven for it.

 

I feel for you, and I wouldn't dream of saying 'I know how you feel' but I hope you'll accept me saying that I understand - because I believe I do. I went through  long process of fighting similar thoughts and feelings, and have come out a far better person and human being for it. What advice I can offer is as follows.

 

1) Don't reject/be ashamed your own emotions, but explore them. Doing this will allow you to understand the roots of your persona, and (If my experience has external validity) there's a lot of creative energy to be juiced out into a variety of outlets: Drawing, writing, music, designing, ect. Negative emotion usually comes from a lot deeper source than a base positive one does, and I don't think that should ever be completely neglected.

2) By the sounds of things, you lack direction and question your own moral compass. These are likely linked, and can easily be worked on. In the process of working on dealing with your demons and focussing your energy in a positive/creative way you are more able to establish life goals, whether they be short term or long term - both of which are equally important, but I guess it depends on your personality which you see more value in.

3) When you lack hope, or see no point in anything, there's a second side to the card: if there is no point in doing something, do you see a point in NOT doing something? It's a good chance to say to yourself 'hey, why not give that a shot' - what's really to lose? Depression / down phases are a good opportunity to add value to your life and broaden your surroundings. Sounds crazy, but I'm sure I'm not alone amongst the slightly elder side of the community in seeing truth in this.

4) Read 'The Heroin Diaries: A Year In The Life Of A Shattered Rockstar - Nikki Sixx). This book is enlightening, and proved to be my saving grace, and the things I read in that book I haven't forgotten in the years leading up to today. You can get this book pretty cheap in stores and online, and I promise it is worth your time and money - as even if it doesn't change your life, it will certainly take you on a road of self-discovery and may aid you in understanding your own thoughts and feelings better

 

If you need to chat, or want  little more advice, feel free to PM me. Keep your chin up man, this is  a tunnel, and it will come out on the other side sooner or later

I feel for you, and I wouldn't dream of saying 'I know how you feel' but I hope you'll accept me saying that I understand - because I believe I do. I went through  long process of fighting similar thoughts and feelings, and have come out a far better person and human being for it. What advice I can offer is as follows.

 

1) Don't reject/be ashamed your own emotions, but explore them. Doing this will allow you to understand the roots of your persona, and (If my experience has external validity) there's a lot of creative energy to be juiced out into a variety of outlets: Drawing, writing, music, designing, ect. Negative emotion usually comes from a lot deeper source than a base positive one does, and I don't think that should ever be completely neglected.

2) By the sounds of things, you lack direction and question your own moral compass. These are likely linked, and can easily be worked on. In the process of working on dealing with your demons and focussing your energy in a positive/creative way you are more able to establish life goals, whether they be short term or long term - both of which are equally important, but I guess it depends on your personality which you see more value in.

3) When you lack hope, or see no point in anything, there's a second side to the card: if there is no point in doing something, do you see a point in NOT doing something? It's a good chance to say to yourself 'hey, why not give that a shot' - what's really to lose? Depression / down phases are a good opportunity to add value to your life and broaden your surroundings. Sounds crazy, but I'm sure I'm not alone amongst the slightly elder side of the community in seeing truth in this.

4) Read 'The Heroin Diaries: A Year In The Life Of A Shattered Rockstar - Nikki Sixx). This book is enlightening, and proved to be my saving grace, and the things I read in that book I haven't forgotten in the years leading up to today. You can get this book pretty cheap in stores and online, and I promise it is worth your time and money - as even if it doesn't change your life, it will certainly take you on a road of self-discovery and may aid you in understanding your own thoughts and feelings better

 

If you need to chat, or want  little more advice, feel free to PM me. Keep your chin up man, this is  a tunnel, and it will come out on the other side sooner or later

 

Okay but please answer me just this then if i turn into a Real Life Obito Uchiha that wants nothing more then to kill everyone and continue on doing so in the afterlife if there is one because he feels like that nothing will change and people will go on wanting to hurt other people, kill other people and/or just like to be evil for the sake of it and that this world's beliefs of light balancing darkness, good balancing evil/bad and/or, white balancing black, yang balancing yin, positive balancing negative and so on, so forth is wrong and that all of the light, good, white, yang and positive things in this world were mearly created both to serve as kind of like slaves and humour all of the dark, bad/evil and/or, black, yin and negative things then would you not become like me with absolute certainty even though there is no such thing possibly by falling into despair over certain things and either or not other people will become like me maybe? who is turning similar into Obito after he allowed himself to become both corrupted and/or convinced by Madara Uchiha's words about the world that may very well be true not just for the world of Naruto but for the real world too since certain things demonstrated in the Naruto world like both ongoing war and/or needless fighting have been happening in the real world too and will never seem to end maybe? can you man? i know that i possibly am being both unrealistic and/or overdramatizing all this but still i have observed what can very well be compared to real life and so i wish to know your answer both very honestly and/or very truthfully man.

Edited February 13, 201312 yr by Iamkingdomhearts1000

Hi everyone it's me Iamkingdomhearts1000 or Iam for short and you see the reason why i posted this topic was because if anyone absolutely wants to that is can i talk about my daily life problems with them maybe.

Feel free to chat me any time about it.

 

 

 

It's that ever since the near end of March 2012 have i been feeling low about myself and have gotten the stubborn idea of committing suicide with a knife stabbed into my chest just because of me accidentally thinking i wanted to for no reason but over time has also now included the idea of me leaving this world to be for the better since i would only further corrupt it since i believe i have done evil in the past but nothing serious like murder and/or rape for examples but still serious enough that i repent for my crimes by dying and still not be forgiven for it.

 

Yeah but Lelouch did that for a good cause and if i were in his shoes whilst sinking down into Darkness like that of Obito Uchiha's from Naruto maybe would i abuse that kind of power that Lelouch once had.

 

Suicide is definitely not the answer. You'd be missed by many of us on kh13 and probably several more. Maybe to feel not as low try doing the things you know that make you happy and staying away from really stressful things. And I'm sure whatever serious things you did is not worth you dying

Edited February 13, 201312 yr by Keysofblades

Okay but please answer me just this then if i turn into a Real Life Obito Uchiha that wants nothing more then to kill everyone and continue on doing so in the afterlife if there is one because he feels like that nothing will change and people will go on wanting to hurt other people, kill other people and/or just like to be evil for the sake of it and that this world's beliefs of light balancing darkness, good balancing evil/bad and/or, white balancing black, yang balancing yin, positive balancing negative and so on, so forth is wrong and that all of the light, good, white, yang and positive things in this world were mearly created both to serve as kind of like slaves and humour all of the dark, bad/evil and/or, black, yin and negative things then would you not become like me with absolute certainty even though there is no such thing possibly by falling into despair over certain things and either or not other people will become like me maybe? who is turning similar into Obito after he allowed himself to become both corrupted and/or convinced by Madara Uchiha's words about the world that may very well be true not just for the world of Naruto but for the real world too since certain things demonstrated in the Naruto world like both ongoing war and/or needless fighting have been happening in the real world too and will never seem to end maybe? can you man? i know that i possibly am being both unrealistic and/or overdramatizing all this but still i have observed what can very well be compared to real life and so i wish to know your answer both very honestly and/or very truthfully man.

 

A well developed question. Although I am not familiar with Naruto, I see your point. If you want to strip away the glam of life to is raw core, then you are correct in the summtion that there is nothing of certainty. It's down to your own perception as to what you see in that void, and as a man of questionable/no faith there is nothing there but nothingness as far as I am concerned. But isn't that the very reason for the glam around life as it is? To dress up that nothingness to a fashion we so desire?

 

The reason to continue on with the acceptance of this knowledge, and at the risk of seeing humanity descend into greater darkness, is simple: Evolution. Take this answer any way you choose to, but if everyone gave up when they learned there is no fated purpose for everyone, no fantastic paradise to journey to, or no greater good then humanity would cease to exist. Whether this is a good thing or a bad thing, I can't say, and honestly I couldn't care less for the fate of humanity. However, this doesn't mean I have no reason to live. Although every human is not born with a purpose, we are all born with primal instinct - to hunt, to form communities, to seek power and establish both physical and psychological comforts. These instincts are what lead man and woman to their later actions, whether that be murder, rape and adultery or charity, companionship or financial success. The endgame is that those actions show how much will power and drive such people have to achieve and obtain their individual desires - the 'good' people are the ones that care about the means more than the ends and consider others in their actions - in other words, have a powerful instinct to be a part of a healthy community and work for 'the greater good' as well as their own. 

 

In this, there is no reason to say those you work hard to meet only their own ends must be bad or 'evil'. They have different instincts which will lead them towards their own happiness and homoeostasis. You feel because you don't benefit others that you must be bad? You are wrong. By becoming a strong and unique individual seeking success to one degree or another sets you apart as someone who others want to be, and you will likely end up helping others in ways you can't understand or even ever realise. What makes someone bad is by neglecting both themselves AND society - but that is something that can be changed, as this is due to poor attitude/psyche. Don't assume, please, that I'm telling you to be a saint or an optimist, but be a realist. Simple acceptance of the way things are and how people are allows you to absorb such as information that doesn't bog you down. YOU ARE NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR THE STATE OF THE WORLD, ONLY YOURSELF.

 

As there is light and dark, ying and yang, there is the line in between and you are in your own right as a human being to make your mark on that line, just as I have done. You will soon find your thoughts clearing as you do not question your own motives because you know which side of the line they take you, or if they stay in the middle. In short, your judgements will be easier to make and you'll waste less time in trying to figure out right and wrong and procrastinating.

 

There is my unedited, no-holds-barred answer to you. If this makes no sense at all, try re-reading it. Failing that, watch Fight Club. That's another medium I learned a lot from, although how you take it really is down to personality, I have found.

i think the name of the topic describes me personally

Edited February 13, 201312 yr by Villi1997

i think the name of the topic describes me personally

 

Your not trash man and you never will be, as far, as im concerned, your at the top of the best Villi1997 and sorry for acting like such a dick dude, im going to promise you now from here on out, im not gonna act like a pessimist anymore, count on it, so if your acting the way you are now because of me then please don't, i apologize and i won't get into the matter anymore.

Your not trash man and you never will be, as far, as im concerned, your at the top of the best Villi1997 and sorry for acting like such a dick dude, im going to promise you now from here on out, im not gonna act like a pessimist anymore, count on it, so if your acting the way you are now because of me then please don't, i apologize and i won't get into the matter anymore.

 

Don't hide from your problems man! But certainly be aware of how you impact others. Villi, the best thing you can do is be there for your friend -  being down won't help him, and I'm sure he will do the same for you. Friendship nutshelled.

Don't hide from your problems man! But certainly be aware of how you impact others. Villi, the best thing you can do is be there for your friend -  being down won't help him, and I'm sure he will do the same for you. Friendship nutshelled.

 

Your right but i didn't mean like that but rather if it upsets Villi1997 then i won't talk about the matter anymore and instead show him that i intend to change.

Your right but i didn't mean like that but rather if it upsets Villi1997 then i won't talk about the matter anymore and instead show him that i intend to change.

 

Of course, I was referring to your choice of words. Don't change or pretend for others is what I am saying, but by all means share certain information that can affect others negatively selectively and avoid upsetting others where possible. But in saying this, sometimes exposing the issue to someone can bring you both down, but then you can help each other back up!

Of course, I was referring to your choice of words. Don't change or pretend for others is what I am saying, but by all means share certain information that can affect others negatively selectively and avoid upsetting others where possible. But in saying this, sometimes exposing the issue to someone can bring you both down, but then you can help each other back up!

 

Hence the word "Friends" :].