Posted April 13, 201312 yr Here I go again, on another abstract poetic emotional rant ~ <%~Grand Delusion~%> They can never accept me for who and what I really am to them, they only see what they want to see, selective vision no matter what signs the divine bestow upon our roof The message of the angels left unheard year after year they deluded themselves with their ideals silently shaping me in the closet they called sanctuary They deny me the experience to become human The chains bound tight cut into my bleeding wings They deny me my existence and that is why I do not truly exist in their eyes to not exist is to not have a personality no heart to feel anger or sorrow or happiness Like an empty shell on the outside while the inside perished to dust But there are some who gave me light and love love that I could never find inside my prison Like a diamond glittering inside the pitch dark tunnel I learned to hope after learning your love Your love allowed me manifested my real heart I cried tears that were my own for the first time You taught me how to smile from my soul In your eyes - you saw beyond this shell and revived me inside You were the only one who ever saw me for who and what I was To them I was a failure, to you I was a miracle To them I was nothing, to you I was the world To them I was hideous, to you I was splendor You saw through me & loved me regardless of talent You caught my every tear and turned them into elixir "If I ever started wandering down a dark path what would you do" "I'd follow you to the ends of the earth and be the light to guide you" And so I started to believe in miracles The shackles on my wings started to rust The lock on my bound heart undone And slowly I learned to become what I used to be - a human I cherished that love that which I was denied I yearned for it more than anything else above all and when greed got the best of me I became drunk on the wine that was you I took it for granted and I lost it all in a gamble like the yore of the 'great light' And so I slowly yielded to the shadows around me Alone, the light began to fade away With a blunt blade key in my right hand I thought: "Maybe.......I should fade into the darkness here" Like that girl before me - her hair blue as the sky And Like her, I too will wait here by the shore with belief that one day someone will come for me I don't know if it will be you again or if its someone else but I will believe because you once taught me to Love between parent and child Love between best of friends Love between close rivals Love between lovers They are all the same and yet different Love is pain and pain is love The sweet gift given to us from heaven Love lives on in the hearts of the pure Like splintered light cradled by the warmth of fate Waiting for a chance to blossom with those you meet Always remind yourself A heart may break But Love is never too late I will believe in you So please, believe in me By: Jun ~ Catmaster0116 The story of my dysfunctional life
Here I go again, on another abstract poetic emotional rant
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<%~Grand Delusion~%>
They can never accept me for who and what I really am
to them, they only see what they want to see, selective vision
no matter what signs the divine bestow upon our roof
The message of the angels left unheard
year after year they deluded themselves with their ideals
silently shaping me in the closet they called sanctuary
They deny me the experience to become human
The chains bound tight cut into my bleeding wings
They deny me my existence
and that is why I do not truly exist in their eyes
to not exist is to not have a personality
no heart to feel anger or sorrow or happiness
Like an empty shell on the outside while the inside perished to dust
But there are some who gave me light and love
love that I could never find inside my prison
Like a diamond glittering inside the pitch dark tunnel
I learned to hope after learning your love
Your love allowed me manifested my real heart
I cried tears that were my own for the first time
You taught me how to smile from my soul
In your eyes - you saw beyond this shell and revived me inside
You were the only one who ever saw me for who and what I was
To them I was a failure, to you I was a miracle
To them I was nothing, to you I was the world
To them I was hideous, to you I was splendor
You saw through me & loved me regardless of talent
You caught my every tear and turned them into elixir
"If I ever started wandering down a dark path what would you do"
"I'd follow you to the ends of the earth and be the light to guide you"
And so I started to believe in miracles
The shackles on my wings started to rust
The lock on my bound heart undone
And slowly I learned to become what I used to be - a human
I cherished that love that which I was denied
I yearned for it more than anything else above all
and when greed got the best of me
I became drunk on the wine that was you
I took it for granted and I lost it all in a gamble
like the yore of the 'great light'
And so I slowly yielded to the shadows around me
Alone, the light began to fade away
With a blunt blade key in my right hand
I thought: "Maybe.......I should fade into the darkness here"
Like that girl before me - her hair blue as the sky
And Like her, I too will wait here by the shore
with belief that one day someone will come for me
I don't know if it will be you again or if its someone else
but I will believe because you once taught me to
Love between parent and child
Love between best of friends
Love between close rivals
Love between lovers
They are all the same and yet different
Love is pain and pain is love
The sweet gift given to us from heaven
Love lives on in the hearts of the pure
Like splintered light cradled by the warmth of fate
Waiting for a chance to blossom with those you meet
Always remind yourself
A heart may break
But Love is never too late
I will believe in you
So please, believe in me
By: Jun ~ Catmaster0116
The story of my dysfunctional life