I don't expect anybody to read this longass monstrousity but meh, I don't have a diary and this IS in the personal section so why the hell not.
This has been bothering me all night. School was fine, good normal day blah blah blah, but the second school got out it's like...I don't want to say "bombarded" because that's an exaggeration, but it felt that way. I was talking to a friend, said my goodbyes, then began leaving. Someone I've known since elementary school (to be honest I wouldn't call him a "friend" but we're not acquaintances either. We talk and we're nice to each other but we have next to nothing in common, and nothing to talk about other than the one class we share).
Anyways so he's generally a nice guy, but he's prone to doing a lot of annoying things. He himself is not annoying, but some things (poke me in class, make weird noises or otherwise weird faces like wat) just make him a real pain in the ass. So he walks up to me when school's over and asks me for a ride. I have no problem with that but of course my mother's the one driving, not me. I told him "I don't even know if she's picking me up today, I might be walking home but I'll see." After I told him that, he asked me another 3 times for a ride within 10 feet of leaving the school.
Then my other friend (whom I adore) asks if she can come over my house. I love her and I would normally have no problem with the but again, I didn't know whether or not I was getting picked up, or even if my mom would allow it for today. My mother has plans most of this week and says I can only have her over on Friday, which I told my friend earlier during the day.
So then my OTHER friend comes out...I turn my phone on to see if my mom texted me, the thing's almost dead so it's beeping like hell, I'm all confused, the guy that asked for a ride said someone was here and walked away, to be honest I said something rude (not mean, just not polite) and in that situation my brain just was not working. Have you ever had that feeling before? I can barely juggle my own mental and school life let alone a social one with so many things going on at once. Turns out I did have to walk home (which I have NO problem with, because at this point I didn't want to talk to anybody else at all) my friend ended up getting a ride from another friend.
This just has been bugging me all night, I don't handle stress, or anything negative well at all, I feel like I overreacted. But with this guy, and another male friend a few days ago, those two did the same exact thing: I said something serious, they come back with a smartass remark. Twice is fine but they just wouldn't STOP, so I end up snapping at them and now it just bugs me. I can only take so much smartassery when I just want to end the conversation. Uuugh.
Well I hope typing this out makes me feel a little better. I think when I see them in school tomorrow I'll just say things like "Good morning" and act like my normal self.
But really, lately my social skills have been depleting like crazy. At least in school everywhere else is FINE but in school I feel like I haven't exactly been saying the right "things" or doing the right "things". Oh to hell with it the year's almost over.
Yeah I feel a little guilty is the word. But when I say I wasn't thinking I mean, I'm sure you've (whoever's reading this lol) had that feeling, or that moment where you're not inside your head and your entire being just says and does things kind of instinctively, I suppose. It happens to me a lot, I'm pretty spacey. And no not Kevin Spacey.
I don't expect anybody to read this longass monstrousity but meh, I don't have a diary and this IS in the personal section so why the hell not.
This has been bothering me all night. School was fine, good normal day blah blah blah, but the second school got out it's like...I don't want to say "bombarded" because that's an exaggeration, but it felt that way. I was talking to a friend, said my goodbyes, then began leaving. Someone I've known since elementary school (to be honest I wouldn't call him a "friend" but we're not acquaintances either. We talk and we're nice to each other but we have next to nothing in common, and nothing to talk about other than the one class we share).
Anyways so he's generally a nice guy, but he's prone to doing a lot of annoying things. He himself is not annoying, but some things (poke me in class, make weird noises or otherwise weird faces like wat) just make him a real pain in the ass. So he walks up to me when school's over and asks me for a ride. I have no problem with that but of course my mother's the one driving, not me. I told him "I don't even know if she's picking me up today, I might be walking home but I'll see." After I told him that, he asked me another 3 times for a ride within 10 feet of leaving the school.
Then my other friend (whom I adore) asks if she can come over my house. I love her and I would normally have no problem with the but again, I didn't know whether or not I was getting picked up, or even if my mom would allow it for today. My mother has plans most of this week and says I can only have her over on Friday, which I told my friend earlier during the day.
So then my OTHER friend comes out...I turn my phone on to see if my mom texted me, the thing's almost dead so it's beeping like hell, I'm all confused, the guy that asked for a ride said someone was here and walked away, to be honest I said something rude (not mean, just not polite) and in that situation my brain just was not working. Have you ever had that feeling before? I can barely juggle my own mental and school life let alone a social one with so many things going on at once. Turns out I did have to walk home (which I have NO problem with, because at this point I didn't want to talk to anybody else at all) my friend ended up getting a ride from another friend.
This just has been bugging me all night, I don't handle stress, or anything negative well at all, I feel like I overreacted. But with this guy, and another male friend a few days ago, those two did the same exact thing: I said something serious, they come back with a smartass remark. Twice is fine but they just wouldn't STOP, so I end up snapping at them and now it just bugs me. I can only take so much smartassery when I just want to end the conversation. Uuugh.
Well I hope typing this out makes me feel a little better. I think when I see them in school tomorrow I'll just say things like "Good morning" and act like my normal self.
But really, lately my social skills have been depleting like crazy. At least in school everywhere else is FINE but in school I feel like I haven't exactly been saying the right "things" or doing the right "things". Oh to hell with it the year's almost over.
Yeah I feel a little guilty is the word. But when I say I wasn't thinking I mean, I'm sure you've (whoever's reading this lol) had that feeling, or that moment where you're not inside your head and your entire being just says and does things kind of instinctively, I suppose. It happens to me a lot, I'm pretty spacey. And no not Kevin Spacey.