Okay.......LIFE SUCKS! Things are not going well within my family, everyone here is in a constant turmoil, my parents are never proud of me and are always putting me and my dreams down, my boyfriend lives several states away from me and I barely get to see him but maybe 3 times out of a whole year and we've been dating for nearly 2 years and we haven't even spent 1 full month together, school is becoming harder for me because of all the **** going on in the place that I live......

 

I don't know....I sometimes wonder if it's all worth it.....

 

I have scars on my wrists and arms that say it's not.....but I have a heart that says it is.....

 

I pray to God that things will get better.....but it's not working from what I can see.....

 

My parents are trying to make me pick a side that I will fight on.....My mom's side? Or my dad's side.....Preferrably.....I'd like to stick with calming grounds......but they're making it impossible for me to do so....

 

I've also found out recently that I may have an illegitimate little brother....who I could care less for....If it is true......

 

But this is going to continue happening and I won't be able to stop it.....I can barely deal with it......

 

No one here could possibly understand in full how or what I feel......or some of the things I've done to myself to make it stop........

I'm still amazed at how many people suffer similar problems.

 

www.takethislife.com

(This site is for people who are depressed and everything related. You'll be surprised at how people have similar problems)

 

Better place

 

Things will get better - Yes an over used statement but it'll get better.

Your parents want (hopefully) for you too be the best you can be. Right now try to focus on yourself and try to get good grades in school. Your boyfriend situation if you can make it last. As you get older try to visit each other more and more.

 

Don't give up theres always someone who cares for you.

 

About your Parents making you pick sides. Try to talk to them, and get them to understand how it makes you feel siding with one or the other. If they still don't understand and you WANT to do this. Just forget about them. I mean focus on yourself and what you'll do. If you get to your " Dream" job. Then you don't have to worry about this stuff.

 

The cuts and scars well I could say that its not right and you shouldn't do it. But I had the same problem. I more than understand how you feel. Cause I for one suffer from depression. Its a serious issue. I really want you to get better. I assume you didn't want any comments cause it was a rant. But I felt I should.

 

Also if you're depressed or suffering depression. ( Not 100% sure ) Talk to a friend in real life.

I'm still amazed at how many people suffer similar problems.

 

www.takethislife.com

(This site is for people who are depressed and everything related. You'll be surprised at how people have similar problems)

 

Better place

 

Things will get better - Yes an over used statement but it'll get better.

Your parents want (hopefully) for you too be the best you can be. Right now try to focus on yourself and try to get good grades in school. Your boyfriend situation if you can make it last. As you get older try to visit each other more and more.

 

Don't give up theres always someone who cares for you.

 

About your Parents making you pick sides. Try to talk to them, and get them to understand how it makes you feel siding with one or the other. If they still don't understand and you WANT to do this. Just forget about them. I mean focus on yourself and what you'll do. If you get to your " Dream" job. Then you don't have to worry about this stuff.

 

The cuts and scars well I could say that its not right and you shouldn't do it. But I had the same problem. I more than understand how you feel. Cause I for one suffer from depression. Its a serious issue. I really want you to get better. I assume you didn't want any comments cause it was a rant. But I felt I should.

 

Also if you're depressed or suffering depression. ( Not 100% sure ) Talk to a friend in real life.

 

Comments are absolutely fine. I think that it'd maybe help some if I could talk to some of the people on this site because of where they're closer to my own age than my parents.

 

And I think that I do suffer from depression. I took a pretty accurate analysis quiz given to me by one of my professors and the result I got was that I'm at moderate risk for depression as well as I'm at a moderate risk for committing suicide.

I guess it'd be easier for you to chat with people online. Just a tip from my own experience. Some people can be rude about it.

 

And if you think you suffer from depression. Best thing to do is let it all out. Like just start from when something bothered you. Cause I used to bottle things up and that hurt me now really badly.

Well then I guess I'll be here for hours, because I'm the kind of person who blames themself for everything that goes wrong. And I'm the person who also is the one who gets blamed by others when things do go wrong.

You mean your a sensitive person? If so i'm the same way. What I have learned/done is push peoples problems aside as they would dump them on me. And for blaming yourself well I'm not sure =/

 

Maybe someone else can help out.

Yeah, I'm sensitive. I carry my heart on my sleeve. I sympathize with others all too well.

 

I sometimes become a ghost of my previous self....and sometimes I just snap and go balistic on myself.

 

I know that those of you who are reading this now are probably thinking that I'm a crazed lunatic, but harming myself is the only way that I know to deal with my problems.

 

And yes, I am also emo, but I'm not the typical emo person. I do smile, but it's a rare occasion for me to do so.

Oh my God.

I'm so sorry for all that you're going through.

I have an idea of what it feels like.

But please, don't hurt yourself.

Please don't.

I've been through that, and hurting yourself... it just makes things worse.

I don't know exactly what you're feeling but I've had some similar problems

Though we're all different and react differently.

But please... Do not throw your life away.

It's not good to hold things in, so it's good to rant.

If you can't trust anyone around you, maybe you can confide in some of us?

You dont have to. Just a suggestion.

But let your anger and sadness out in a non harmful way.

And about the cuts and scars.. Please dont do it anymore.

It terrifies me to know that one of my friends (whether be real life or online) is hurting themselves because I use to do that as well.

I still have one semi dark scar on my right arm to remind me of what I did.

And its not worth it.

Dont give up hope.

We're here for you okay?

The thing with cutting yourself is sometimes its not easy to stop. Thats why there are mental homes. Or however you want to call it. Sometimes the stress is too much for a person and they don't see any other option. What she can do is talk it out. And know that there are people here to help.

Oh my God.

I'm so sorry for all that you're going through.

I have an idea of what it feels like.

But please, don't hurt yourself.

Please don't.

I've been through that, and hurting yourself... it just makes things worse.

I don't know exactly what you're feeling but I've had some similar problems

Though we're all different and react differently.

But please... Do not throw your life away.

It's not good to hold things in, so it's good to rant.

If you can't trust anyone around you, maybe you can confide in some of us?

You dont have to. Just a suggestion.

But let your anger and sadness out in a non harmful way.

And about the cuts and scars.. Please dont do it anymore.

It terrifies me to know that one of my friends (whether be real life or online) is hurting themselves because I use to do that as well.

I still have one semi dark scar on my right arm to remind me of what I did.

And its not worth it.

Dont give up hope.

We're here for you okay?

 

Yeah, I've got a scar on my left wrist from exactly 1 year ago....

 

Me and my dad went to get my mom something for mothers day....and we got her a necklace....a 24 Karot Gold necklace from JC Penney....but when we got home and showed her the necklace.....she said "Why'd you get it....You know that I don't wear gold jewerly...."

 

It hurt.....We spent the money and the time to get her something beautiful for mothers day....and she didn't even appreciate it.....I couldn't get over it for a long time....and being mad at myself I cut my wrist with my own fingernails....I just kept digging and digging at the skin, gritting my teeth and bearing through the burning sensation that was shooting through my wrist....

 

But the one thing that stopped me from ending everything was my boyfriend who's helped me through all of this crap as best as he can. He told me, he'd never forgive me if I went through with it.....And I couldn't end my life with that knowlege weighing heavily on my shoulders like that.....

You know, suicide isn't the best option, I have some books that talk about that but they're all in portuguese and we live in different countrys. I'm not sure if we can help you, I don't have much idea of how it is to be in a case like yours but I guess I can give some tips of what I know.

As everyone said, the best thing to do is to let it all out, if you have any close friend talk to him/her, cry shout do anything that can help, and before killing yourself think of the people you're leving like you did the first time, who knows if someday life is going to a different direction and everything might end up well? I hope your life goes better, I know it's not good to live in a home where there's no peace.

It was hard for me to stop cutting. My parents found out and got rid of my blade. I cut myself with a pencil after that. But I eventually stopped, with the support of friends.

 

I'm so sorry about that. That wasnt right of her.

But just remember that you got her something great.

 

I know it must of hurt.

I feel the same way whenever my parents are too lazy to go to my choir concerts.

They always tell me "It's just a stupid concert. You should be focusing on academics." And it hurts.

 

But just keep hope. There are people who will miss you if you end your life.

I hope things will get better 8D

You know, suicide isn't the best option, I have some books that talk about that but they're all in portuguese and we live in different countrys. I'm not sure if we can help you, I don't have much idea of how it is to be in a case like yours but I guess I can give some tips of what I know.

As everyone said, the best thing to do is to let it all out, if you have any close friend talk to him/her, cry shout do anything that can help, and before killing yourself think of the people you're leving like you did the first time, who knows if someday life is going to a different direction and everything might end up well? I hope your life goes better, I know it's not good to live in a home where there's no peace.

 

I'd love to talk to a close friend....but no one who I consider as a close friend lives anywhere near me....I mean yeah I do have friends who live within walking distance from my house....but they know absolutely nothing about me and my real life....all that they ever see is the mask that covers my true face....the one that's forever smiling but never shows fear, sadness, or anger.

 

It was hard for me to stop cutting. My parents found out and got rid of my blade. I cut myself with a pencil after that. But I eventually stopped, with the support of friends.

 

I'm so sorry about that. That wasnt right of her.

But just remember that you got her something great.

 

I know it must of hurt.

I feel the same way whenever my parents are too lazy to go to my choir concerts.

They always tell me "It's just a stupid concert. You should be focusing on academics." And it hurts.

 

But just keep hope. There are people who will miss you if you end your life.

I hope things will get better 8D

 

I know that there are people who would miss me...but I can't help but to feel that that list of people is ever dwindling.

If you can't let your feelings get out talking with someone, try to write, but not like you're doing here, write something like a biography, I heard that can help as well. Try to stay out of home most of time if you don't feel well there, find courses and things like that.

If you can't let your feelings get out talking with someone, try to write, but not like you're doing here, write something like a biography, I heard that can help as well. Try to stay out of home most of time if you don't feel well there, find courses and things like that.

 

I sing to let my emotions out. I write my poems to express my feelings. I draw to relieve my stress. And I make AMVs to have fun.

 

Those are my personal theropies.

I do the same things. It works.

Creative outlets are great 8D

 

If you ever need to rant to someone, come to me. I'll listen.

I do the same things. It works.

Creative outlets are great 8D

 

If you ever need to rant to someone, come to me. I'll listen.

 

Thanks. ^_^ And the same goes to you.

Yes, us people of the internetz are great listeners. If you need to let some stress out, I'm here too...

 

I hope you recover ^^ We will be with you though your tough times.

Yes, us people of the internetz are great listeners. If you need to let some stress out, I'm here too...

 

I hope you recover ^^ We will be with you though your tough times.

 

Yeah, I've learned that people off of the internet have better listening skills than people standing right in front of you do.

 

Yes, us people of the internetz are great listeners. If you need to let some stress out, I'm here too...

 

I hope you recover ^^ We will be with you though your tough times.

 

Yeah, I've learned that people off of the internet have better listening skills than people standing right in front of you do.

 

Me too. My friends seem to nearly never listen to me... >.> Ohwell, at least when I try and be a comedian they laugh. I'd say thats a good thing.

 

 

Yes, us people of the internetz are great listeners. If you need to let some stress out, I'm here too...

 

I hope you recover ^^ We will be with you though your tough times.

 

Yeah, I've learned that people off of the internet have better listening skills than people standing right in front of you do.

 

Me too. My friends seem to nearly never listen to me... >.> Ohwell, at least when I try and be a comedian they laugh. I'd say thats a good thing.

 

-laughs- Yeah, same here. When I'm trying to be serious they could care less, but if I do a funny impression of someone, then they're all on their asses laughing their heads off.....I do a killer granny impression.

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Yes, us people of the internetz are great listeners. If you need to let some stress out, I'm here too...

 

I hope you recover ^^ We will be with you though your tough times.

 

Yeah, I've learned that people off of the internet have better listening skills than people standing right in front of you do.

 

Me too. My friends seem to nearly never listen to me... >.> Ohwell, at least when I try and be a comedian they laugh. I'd say thats a good thing.

 

-laughs- Yeah, same here. When I'm trying to be serious they could care less, but if I do a funny impression of someone, then they're all on their asses laughing their heads off.....I do a killer granny impression.

 

Yeah, I have a few good friends who I can have a serrious disscussion with and they will listen to me the whole way through, but others just sorta don't listen at all unless I'm funny, and then they stop listening when I'm not funny anymore. Some of my friends I'm the only one they can listen to since... well they don't really talk to anyone else. Ah, I blame myself for ignoring some of my friends, and I do feel guilty for that, but y' know we always end up talking alot the next day or something.

I can sound like a monster truck announcer dude.

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Yes, us people of the internetz are great listeners. If you need to let some stress out, I'm here too...

 

I hope you recover ^^ We will be with you though your tough times.

 

Yeah, I've learned that people off of the internet have better listening skills than people standing right in front of you do.

 

Me too. My friends seem to nearly never listen to me... >.> Ohwell, at least when I try and be a comedian they laugh. I'd say thats a good thing.

 

-laughs- Yeah, same here. When I'm trying to be serious they could care less, but if I do a funny impression of someone, then they're all on their asses laughing their heads off.....I do a killer granny impression.

 

Yeah, I have a few good friends who I can have a serrious disscussion with and they will listen to me the whole way through, but others just sorta don't listen at all unless I'm funny, and then they stop listening when I'm not funny anymore. Some of my friends I'm the only one they can listen to since... well they don't really talk to anyone else. Ah, I blame myself for ignoring some of my friends, and I do feel guilty for that, but y' know we always end up talking alot the next day or something.

I can sound like a monster truck announcer dude.

 

Yeah, I have my friends that I hang out with sometimes where we just go to the mall and hang out and laugh and wreak havoc in the stores.

 

And then there are people like my boyfriend and the majority of people on here that I can have a serious conversation with.

 

 

 

Yes, us people of the internetz are great listeners. If you need to let some stress out, I'm here too...

 

I hope you recover ^^ We will be with you though your tough times.

 

Yeah, I've learned that people off of the internet have better listening skills than people standing right in front of you do.

 

Me too. My friends seem to nearly never listen to me... >.> Ohwell, at least when I try and be a comedian they laugh. I'd say thats a good thing.

 

-laughs- Yeah, same here. When I'm trying to be serious they could care less, but if I do a funny impression of someone, then they're all on their asses laughing their heads off.....I do a killer granny impression.

 

Yes, Brixta does a killer impression of a granny. She had me and my brother splitting our sides just last night. She has a great talent for changing her voice. She even convinced my brother for a while that she was a three year old.

 

I love her greatly and I do my best to keep her happy. I'm going to try to visit her soon

 

Love you Brixta!

 

~ Love Repliku :heart:

 

 

 

 

Yes, us people of the internetz are great listeners. If you need to let some stress out, I'm here too...

 

I hope you recover ^^ We will be with you though your tough times.

 

Yeah, I've learned that people off of the internet have better listening skills than people standing right in front of you do.

 

Me too. My friends seem to nearly never listen to me... >.> Ohwell, at least when I try and be a comedian they laugh. I'd say thats a good thing.

 

-laughs- Yeah, same here. When I'm trying to be serious they could care less, but if I do a funny impression of someone, then they're all on their asses laughing their heads off.....I do a killer granny impression.

 

Yes, Brixta does a killer impression of a granny. She had me and my brother splitting our sides just last night. She has a great talent for changing her voice. She even convinced my brother for a while that she was a three year old.

 

I love her greatly and I do my best to keep her happy. I'm going to try to visit her soon

 

Love you Brixta!

 

~ Love Repliku :heart:

 

And don't forget I sound like Aaron Dismuke....So said you.

 

And thanks for going to come up here despite the battlefield you're liable to come across.

don't be depressed dont be sad you may get mad but you'll still have repliku. I hope your life can somehow get better thats what i wish.