I said I'd make a rant thread where I'd just get stuff off my chest when I'm feeling down.I think I'll just put all future stuff here instead of making multiple posts.You don't have to reply to anything here (technically you don't have to reply to anything on this site) I just post stuff here because it's a lot less annoying than constantly posting it in the status section.Okay I'm sad. I just feel lonely and I've kinda felt that way since I moved to another city, y'know typical moving problems. When I first came here it just felt like I was going to be in high school alone, everywhere i looked people had bestfriends, girlfriends, childhood friends and then there was me:  the nobody. I did have friends back in my old city, but now after hanging out with some new friends I've made I realized my old friends were never really my type of people. Sure we spent a good 5 years and don't get me wrong, they're like brothers to me, but you know there's a type of person that you just feel really comfortable around even if only a few months have passed.Lately I've just felt like i'm stuck in the middle of nowhere. I feel like I didn't have much in common with my old friends and my new friends don't really ask me if I wanna hang out with them that often. It's weird though, they don't seem annoyed by having me around, but it feels kinda crappy when you see them talk about how much fun they had last weekend while you were at home doing what you sort of spent the last year doing-wasting time on the internet.And then I'm supposed to graduate in the next few months and go to college (i don't wanna stay here and I do want to go to a foreign country) so that keeps bothering me. I just feel like I can't find a close friend that I have loads in common with. A best friend.And then there's relationship issues. For some reason I've always wanted something romantic or intimate in my life. I don't know why I give to much importance to it, i just do. I'm not into the idea of getting into a relationship that might not last so I'm kinda picky, like I want to know someone better before asking her if she'd go out with me. Of course then comes the issue of graduation. Like I said I don't plan on staying here and I don't really think a long distance relationship would work for me. I'm not asking for advice on this one, I've already made up my mind, but it just kinda bothers me because I had a similar situation back in my old school with a girl I had a crush on.Then there's basketball...i don't know what to do with this one. I've liked it since the first time I played, but back in my old city I could rarely find the place (or the people) to play. Now in my highschool there's a court and plenty of guys who play basketball and I've just started to love the sport....it's been a long time since i really felt passionate about something. I've tried quite a few things, but I never took any of them as seriously as basketball.I wanted to join a good team in college, but i've been royally firetrucked over by my size (i'm literally a hair above 5 feet) and my lack of experience. At first it didn't bother me that much because I just though I could be like Muggsy Bogues, but the closer I get to my college application deadline the more hopelessness I feel. I keep thinking about how literally every opponent of mine is going to be over a foot taller than me, not to mention more experienced. I'm not even asking to be 7 feet tall, if i were so much as 5'7 I'd never complain, but i don't even know if I'll come close to that considering the fact that height is that one thing most people are stuck with.Basketball's probably what I've focused on for most of the past year and I just don't think I stand a chance. I just feel like they'll laugh the minute I ask to join the team and then I don't even have the experience to really make up for it (huh typing this stuff out helps)  

Edited May 10, 201510 yr by Lord Random

Hope things get better for you. ^^ Honestly, I can relate quite a lot to what you're feeling, since lately I've been alone almost all the time... Sure there's some people at school, but I can't really call them friends... mostly just random chitchat. And all my other friends have finished school already so yeah...

 

But back to your problem. Since you already have a group that you're with at school, maybe you could ask them if they want to hang out with you after school or on weekend. Perhaps they're unsure as well if you're interested in hanging out with them and thus haven't even asked?

 

And about basketball... don't give up! You might not become the best player ever (and you probably won't), but you can still become good if you practice with determination. If you think the team you're going to join is too high compared to your own level, check out if there's any other teams you could join. After all, it's more fun to play if others are more or less as good as you are. It doesn't necessarily mean you can't join the other team later, when you've become good enough to join it.

Plus, you really don't know until you try. So at least give it a chance. : )

Don't worry about the sports thing man. I played football and baseball and basketball all my life. But I can't play any of them past the high school level. I'm not big enough. A lot of people move on and just play it for recreation. 

That's it, I give up. I don't ever want to play basketball again. I've been dwelling on this decision for a while, but now I no longer have any reason to go back.Every game I've played in the past two months has just made me feel depressed. Somehow all i end up thinking about is how much more I could have accomplished if I was so much as average in height. At the same time all the different exercises and research I had been doing on ways to grow taller is complete trash.  I realize I have wasted far too much time being depressed about basketball and my height and its time I learn to get the hell over it. I've already started learning to accept my height and leaving basketball will be the most important step. Call me a quitter. I'll never be anything in basketball so why bother mindlessly doing something that only makes me feel sad?I'm better off being a football player