If you have the time, you should watch it or play it. It's made by the same guy who made the Stanley Parable and it's quite a moving experience. 

 

I actually had to lie down for a bit after finishing it.

I already watched it, a fantastic experience.

This game opened me up like an otophsy,I feel competely destroyed.I have both the problems Davey and Sean have:I need validation so much even though I always don't take it to considuration or feel like it is unnessecerary.I need it so much yet I'm afraid of it.I also want to start a Youtube channel.I have a creative mind but I'm scared of the feedback and challenges and the people around and if anything serious like that happens, how will I be able to say that I'm a normal being,that doesn't think twice when saying anything,that pretty much hates communication and what else?In the end, it feels like I'm more about the positive validation and pleasure from positive feedback rather that pleasure from artistic expressing.This feels also a reason why I take school,knowlegde and grades seriously.Because they are the only things that made me feel valid,but even that faded away.I could go for days on end,but there's no point.I just wanted to emphy myself.I wish I wasn't so afraid from everything.

This game opened me up like an otophsy,I feel competely destroyed.I have both the problems Davey and Sean have:I need validation so much even though I always don't take it to considuration or feel like it is unnessecerary.I need it so much yet I'm afraid of it.I also want to start a Youtube channel.I have a creative mind but I'm scared of the feedback and challenges and the people around and if anything serious like that happens, how will I be able to say that I'm a normal being,that doesn't think twice when saying anything,that pretty much hates communication and what else?In the end, it feels like I'm more about the positive validation and pleasure from positive feedback rather that pleasure from artistic expressing.This feels also a reason why I take school,knowlegde and grades seriously.Because they are the only things that made me feel valid,but even that faded away.I could go for days on end,but there's no point.I just wanted to emphy myself.I wish I wasn't so afraid from everything.

Sean did make a point about everyone needing an external validation, but I believe if you really sit down and spend the time to find who you want to be, you'll be able to rely less and less on external validations and more in internal validations. Do I feel good about what I've done? Etc. I know it's going to take a lot of time and it seems very ridiculous to me to spout this cliche improvement bullshit that everyone's already probably told you, but this cliche improvement stuff isn't so bad wasn't you get passed the hump. How you get that far is something you'll have to find out for yourself. 

 

Now, I can sit here and probably lecture you for a while, but I know it won't work. Words can be strong, but unless it clicks in your mind, nothing will change. For years now, I've been trying to improve myself- I've been repeating all the cliches to myself and it wasn't working, but one thing really resonated with me. Whenever I did go through these phases and fell down, I stopped. Then a few months later, I'd start up again and fail. Each time I was resetting. If I had continued, even if it were weeks in between my failures, I'm pretty sure I would have succeeded much faster. I'm still currently improving myself- and always will be honestly -and I do fall down quite a bit, but what I've found is I've been more and more ready to get back up.

 

Being strong isn't about being at your top form all the time, but being able to deal with the hardest of struggles and being able to get back up from it. Well, it's not really strength, it's resilience.

 

So if you want to do YouTube. Do it as genuine as you can. Now I don't mean if you think the world is stupid, dark, and cynical, that you should show yourself as a scumbag, because I don't believe anyone is really like that. By being genuine, be your ideal- who you want to become- and it may seem fake to you, but if you keep going, it will be you. "Fake it 'til you make it" or something.I think I'm just rambling now... I truly hope this helps.

I didn't feel moved at all. Something might be wrong with me....