A scattered dream that's like a far off memory....
In less than 15 hours, everyone will be able to have access to the magnum opus of our continued existence on places such as these; I am of course talking about Kingdom Hearts III.
I have a confession to make. Today especially, but in previous days too, I've been feeling kinda wistful and nostalgic. So much so in fact, that once or twice the thought has passed through my head, the thought 'Do I really want this game to come out?'
The answer? Of course I do! I've been in pain over the past few days seeing everyone else on my continent play and not me. No, that's not the reason for my blasphemous ruminations.
I've been having these weird thoughts lately....
I've come to realise that for five and a half years, I've been in this waiting position. And I've grown used to it and I find comfort in it, because it's my normal. It's my normal to live in a world where KH3 doesn't exist. And in that world, being a part of the rumblings and mumblings of KH13 became my bread and butter. My childhood, and more pertinently, my teenage years, have been shaped by this site.
This place was it's own little microcosm of the huge, crazy, loud world we live in, and overall, I can say that I loved it, and I'd do it all over again, even the bad parts.
There were groups of friends on this site who probably never even interacted with the other, there were people on here that you probably only knew in passing, there were those users who seemed like you could make a connection with them but then they went afk indefinitely, there were users whose personalities shone through even the bright glare of the internet and became a cult onto themselves and then there were the bigwigs of this place.
2015 was when I joined, but of course, I had been lurking for much longer than that. To the users of that era who are no longer here, for whatever reason, I hope you get to enjoy this communal swansong.
I had some of the best times on here, and I'll hold them with me for years to come. I won't forget this place, and everyone I ever interacted with, I'll never forget you too.
Five and a half years ago, I was sitting in a corner of my parents room where there was a beanbag, it was the day before E3 2013, and I was on KHUltimania looking up news.
Tonight, five and a half years later, I'm sitting in the same corner, except, it's my room now, that I share with my two sisters, and sometimes my cousin, and there's no beanbag, I'm sitting on my sisters bed, and it's not the night before E3 2013 where I'm hoping for news of a Dreamcast 2 and maybe (just maybe?) Kingdom Hearts 3, it's the night before the release of Kingdom Hearts III. A game, without me having played it, has brought so much emotion and colour to my life, and so many friends, who without, I would be a much lesser person.
A stand before you no longer a 14 year old that lurks on Web pages trying to find news, but someone who's going to be 20 in not-so-long, and is happy to call herself someone who grew up here.
It feels like this game, will really be the end of my childhood, however, I hope its the beginning of someone else's, and I hope this place is still around for that kid to grow up on, and make mistakes and learn, and enjoy, and I hope it becomes the beginning of their journey, like it has been for mine.