Autophobia

i'm getting to the point where i just feel..numb. i'm sad and lonely even though i'm constantly surrounded by the few friends i have and want to just crawl under a rock, cry, and stay there for fifty years. i want these horrible feelings to end. they're eating at my heart and i don't know if i even have one anymore.. it doesn't feel like i do. i'm exhausted. not just physically - but mentally and emotionally as well. the past two weeks i've been staying up til three am because my mind is constantly running on hypermode. my terrible insomnia isn't helping any either. i want to be happy. i haven't felt true happiness in..i don't even know how long. too long, that's for sure. i'm so done.

so, i want to start a kh rp with someone/multiple people but it wouldn't exactly have a plot..we would just kind of wing it, i guess. it would take place during kh ii/358/2 days. would anyone be interested? i would more than likely be Roxas. hopefully you'll be able to put up with my angsty, angry blonde baby.

why thank you ;w;

true, true. xDI just have no self esteem whatsoever, which is part of my problem..

Ooh. This is cool.

i used to really dislike him. mainly because he just seemed so goofy and such in a few of the earlier games from what i've heard , and, well..he's not Roxas (358/2 days was the first kh game i've ever played and is my favorite other than kh ii, but i have yet to play it) - but now since i've started to play com and started to play recoded again after ages of not doing so, he's started to grow on me.

I'll post a thing when I'm able to connect my laptop to the internet. I doubt you'd wanna see my face anyways.

Does that include me? ;w;

thank you. i'm a tad better now, and i'm slowly getting over it..just gotta look at the positives, right..? thank you, that means a lot..I find it kind of ironic, though, that my brother has nearly done the same thing. luckily, he's been in rehab for a while now. thank you so much. it is nice to know that even though i just joined this site, i already have a lot of support here..

i don't know why i'm making a topic about this, but i am. i just learned earlier today that my friend od'd and died on monday. he was a heroin addict and i have known him since i was little..he was a few month younger than my brother - he was 27.

mwhaha! ..does this mean i win?

you're welcome

no problem c:

okay, so..i'm new here. i've lurked around here for a while, and i finally decided to make an account here. random facts about me - 1. i am a huge kh nerd. 2. i am also a huge final fantasy nerd. 3. i am very sensitive. 4. i am 4'10. 5. i have been rping for about ten years. so, yeah. i would love to get to know all of you! feel free to message me or whatever