Facebook just hates me.

 

So looking at my dad's wall on Facebook, I'm not finding some good things on there.

 

For one, he called my mom a witch. That's nice. Makes me feel like a bastard, even though I technically am one.

 

Then he says he wants to get a bottle of wine, but has no one to share it with....

 

So at this point, if I thought I was sick to my stomach about my mom having a boyfriend and lying and denying about it, then I think I'm just about to throw up.

 

I assume that now my dad is cheating on my mom for revenge and whatnot. That explains why he either doesn't come home or comes home really REALLY late. I would tell you guys some more posts, but frankly I feel like killing myself. Out of all people, why did my dad have to do this. To think having fun watching The Green Hornet at the movies was great at spending time with him...I kind of regret it.

 

If my parents really cared about me, why didn't they stop fighting when the divorce papers came in? Why put me through this. Some things I just don't get.

 

So I give up. I can't do this anymore. This is just ridculous. Normally I don't feel anything (which is better than feeling), but right now I'm feeling, and it's painful. Gah. I hate parents, and I hate myself.

 

On the brightside, I've been packing to live in a new apartment with my mom. Even though I hate the idea of living with any of these parents, it's better to get to a new home. My home is a dump anyway. My mom told me we'll start new lifes here. Yeah, not really. Thank god I chose the apartment across my friend's house. Now I can walk there and hang with friends and not hang out with my dreadful family. It's even close to Gamestop. Hooray.

 

But today I have my Italian and English exams. Haven't studied. Haven't slept. Awesome. I know I'm going to bomb my Italian exam, and then next week the teacher will bitch at us for like 10 minutes for how poor we did, and perhaps bitch at me. English...meh I'll do ok. Can't really study anything, except key terms like characterization and plot (any story writers know this stuff), but I'm going to have an issue with the essays, as I don't write fast and procastinate, plus they give you the real shitty stories that make little sense (last year I had to answer two questions in essays abou a story with a random kid moving, couldn't make any friends, beat somebody to be their friend, that same guy got his friends to beat him up, the two becomes friends, the dude asks him to meet him on a buliding, ask the kid to hang on a pole that is held up by two bulidings, he does it, they leave, the kid struggles to get on a buliding or die, he makes it, he goes home, the end. Seriously, WTF?). Then I'll have Geomtry and Modern American History. Ugh, no thank you. I've been getting really lucky with these snow days and delays (try 5 days out, 2 delays and 2 early dismissal....and that's in one month....o_O) . I wonder if I can lucky again and get another snow day/delay to not make me take the exams. Probably not but whatever. But those 5 snow days....man that's gonna ruin my April vacation. Damn it.

 

So pretty much. I'm more sad than a sad panda, and more angry than an angry bird. I wish I never existed in the first place. I wish that imaginary twin of mine did, rather than me. My parents are firetrucking me over and I'm continuing to degrade myself. I offically give up. Goodnight.

Regarding the issues with your family, obviously you're feeling bad and such because it's not going well. However, instead of working to fix the problem, like I'm guessing you're doing (maybe not working to fix it, but at least still worrying about it), you should instead aim to not be bothered by it, and to be indifferent to these issues between your parents. I know it may seem very important to you now, but you're better off in the long run if you can realise that the problems they have between each other doesn't have to make your life miserable. Just a suggestion, not looking to argue so idc, take it or leave it.

Regarding the issues with your family, obviously you're feeling bad and such because it's not going well. However, instead of working to fix the problem, like I'm guessing you're doing (maybe not working to fix it, but at least still worrying about it), you should instead aim to not be bothered by it, and to be indifferent to these issues between your parents. I know it may seem very important to you now, but you're better off in the long run if you can realise that the problems they have between each other doesn't have to make your life miserable. Just a suggestion, not looking to argue so idc, take it or leave it.

 

Agreed ._.

Just continue with your lives and let them continue on like this, until one day when they finally woke up and realized what stupid things they did, its better if you let them just go on like this.

 

Regarding the issues with your family, obviously you're feeling bad and such because it's not going well. However, instead of working to fix the problem, like I'm guessing you're doing (maybe not working to fix it, but at least still worrying about it), you should instead aim to not be bothered by it, and to be indifferent to these issues between your parents. I know it may seem very important to you now, but you're better off in the long run if you can realize that the problems they have between each other doesn't have to make your life miserable. Just a suggestion, not looking to argue so idc, take it or leave it.

 

Agreed ._.

Just continue with your lives and let them continue on like this, until one day when they finally woke up and realized what stupid things they did, its better if you let them just go on like this.

 

Double agreed. Its interesting how much your life is going through, and I'm sorry for it. I would just let the bad things go, and look at the bright side. You said yourself, you could hang more with your friend until the problems with your family are solved, but staying only out of it won't solve anything either. When your parents are in a good mood, I'd go talk to them about how you're feeling, and maybe they'll work it out. I wouldn't talk to your dad about you thinking about him cheating on your mom, tough. that might start more fights.

 

BTW: I think it's awesome to live across gamestop. I'd love that

 

As DC said, I don't want any arguments, so if you see a problem with my suggestions, I'd reply nicely, even tough I understand you have stress problems and are frustrated by these things that have been happening with your family.