If you could have the control over control one thing, what would it be?

 

Is it your weight?

Your School?

War?

Love?

Your Future?

Friends?

Whatever it may be.

 

Remember to explain your choice & feel free to discuss. <3

 

What I would want to have control over:

Last November, part of my life was shattered in two. I had always been a part of my school's soccer team. The week of Thanksgiving, that chapter came to a close. Soccer is a very, very precious thing in my life. I'm aware that it's a part of my life that will eventually come to a close, but I had not expected part of it to end so abruptly. I had never pictured myself a day where I wasn't a part of my school's soccer team. When fate struck me, it struck me hard. Soccer is something I considered a part of me, without it I felt like I had lost part of my identity. I was lost; just another plain student in a sea of faces. I felt like no matter how hard I worked to stay on the team, no matter how much I worked to improve myself none of it had mattered in the end. It was hard to get up the next day and realize that I'm not part of that team anymore.

 

I was never told what I did wrong and I was never told I could come back. I was just told I wasn't part of something I cherished.

 

I wish I was able to control that day that ended that chapter of my life, so I could have kept doing something that I held so dearly.

My future. It's the one thing you can't control because you have so many harde decisions in life to make, your life can either become really hard or really easy.

I wish I had control over my location. I wish I could move back to California and be with all of my family. But alas i'm in florida. I've gotten used to it but it stinks. I really miss all my family and friends. Moving is really hard and we have moved a lot but last time I was living in Cali my life was basically perfect.

My emotions.

I am a constant worry and I regret things that have happened over which I have had no control over. I am angry often and very stubborn. Whereas stubborness gives me the will to live it also sets my mind on descions over which I will NOT change my MIND for anything. If I could handle my emotions better, I'd be a happier person and I'd be able to handle the nature of devastations better which, in turn, will make my future a brighter one.

This will sound crazy but if I could have control over one thing it would be........... should I really say it?..............

Death

If anybody wants to know, there is only one fear that really posses my soul, and it is control over that fear that I desire the most, but I will most probably never achieve it. And now I conclude, Gizele here must be paranoid.

I wish I had control over my friends and that they'd see the real me and realize that I was not the one in the wrong. I've lost so many friends over stupid reasons that were not entirely my fault or from friends moving to other places, but I wish I had control over them (not in a bad way) and make them realize that they were being rash and jumping to assumptions and conclusions before they knew the true story or the real me.

Only one? This is a hard...

 

My past, I guess.

Most people are terrified of me cause of crap that I did in the past, and I always feel bad about it so even people that just met me know that there's something...weird about me. Basicaly, the crap of the past kinda wrecked my future, so I wish I could go back to change all the things I did wrong. >.< (And maybe stop my little "accident" from ever happening so I wouldn't have a big ugly scare and a fake tooth )

I would want to control money. Sooooo many things set you back when you don't have $. I'd also want control over people, so they'd hire me. I'm desperate.

Love. Love is all I wanted. I wanted to be loved, to love, and not only romance, but in friendship as well.

I want my life to be a surprize. If I could control my factors, then it wouldn't be living. Although, I guess the factors that wouldn't seem to mater much is to be able to control my weight, but in a way you can already do that, so I guess wanting to control much of anything now is kinda useless.

My friends' decision to leave me for their band director and a different highschool.

We had all planned to go to the same highschool, seeing as my city has around 5 or 6, all having a special program, like Technology and Medicine or Fine Arts. We all basically wanted to do something in the medical field, so naturally we wanted to go to the highschool that had that program, and not just because of that, but because it was the best high school in the district overall.

And then they started building the new highschool, and none of us really cared for it or acknowledge it. And then we kept getting pep rallies followed by speeches of the to be principal of the new highschool and how great it would be and how we would be the first true graduating class from that school.

I still didn't want to go, but once my friends (all band fanatics) heard their band director was going to that school, they didn't hesitate to change their mind and go to that school.

I was hurt, and they tried to tell me it was because they didn't want to have to apply to their original choice and then not get in (because to be in the program you have to apply and be accepted, and keep your grades up or they'll kick you out) but I knew that was bullshit.

They told me I was abandoning them but I wasn't the one who changed my mind. I understand their love for band, but they seriously just left me with hesitating, without a real goodbye, and with a promise broken from the start that we'd keep in touch.

I wish I could've controlled their decision to basically leave me feeling a little abandoned and seemingly not caring.

I really wish we'd all had stuck together.

I want control over Time.

Why? The answer is simple:

Because I wasted it too much

I guess I wish I had more over the things I say and do. Even though I have some control over these things, my judgement is sometimes clouded by other things, and I end up saying the wrong thing to someone, or saying or doing something hurtful.

Well, beides from love, as stated before, I'd like to control time and fix every shit I did. Just that. fixing my mistakes.

Agree to someone in page one, I want me to be nicely surprised about it, I may wish things but control? No. Not really. Beside if what you mean is humanely possible control, I want to do (and been doing) all of them, of course