... I'm not too sad that my uncle died today?

 

It's kind of hard to believe he's gone. I was expecting my uncle who had to move in with my parents because his health isn't so good to go first. I guess I can't be too surprised though; he was addicted to pain killers for years, though he was off of them for two weeks before he passed.

 

I wasn't really close to the guy though. He hardly ever called, unless it was when he was drunk and/or high and it was the middle of the night, and only visited us once or twice. He was at nearly every family gathering though.

 

I was crying when my parents called me with the news, but now... it almost feels like it didn't really happen. It does matter to me; he was family. But... I'm just not sad about it now. I don't really understand why.

 

What really worries me is how my dad is taking it. It's the second person he's lost in a year. First his mom, then his brother. And he's got another that could be on his way out. I just hope his sanity can hold up, with how bad his depression can get...

 

It's an awkward situation, and I don't really know how to handle it or anything. Maybe this is just a part of how I'm grieving? Maybe I don't really care about it? I just don't know...

I think that's pretty normal. When news like that comes your way, usually the reaction to this is crying. As to deal with the shock and mixture of emotions going on. Also, how you said he was sort of distant..I think that has to do with why you seem to not feel so sad about it anymore. Still, it sounds like it's just a part of a grieving process the mind does. So, hey, feel better and don't worry too much about it. & I hope this actually made any sense at all, ha.

im sorry for you.

if my grandma dies i wouldnt never survive from it...

When my uncle passed away, I never knew until my mom told me.

I felt really sad but I can't seem to cry. The same with my Grandmother (Father side) and Grandfather (Mother's side).

So I guess its normal...?

Thanks you guys. I really appreciate it. =)

 

I guess it is normal. It does happen eventually. It just happened really quick for me.

I know what you're talking about. I cried when my sister told me my grandfather died, but (it sounds weird) I didn't really feel anything about it until his funeral. It was almost like it wasn't real until they played Taps...