Well, there's this boy I like. In case you guys still don't know, yes, I'm gay.
Now, I've been dealing with being obsessed with him for at least 4 months now.
Last year, towards the end of classes, I told my father I was gay. However, he refused to believe so, stating that I was too young and setting a set AGE for when to assume this. His set age was 20 year old. And I'm not going to wait that long, because I know who I am and what gender I am attracted to. Sexuality is fluid, yes, but I don't see why he's putting such a limit.
Anyway, I told him about this boy I likes. That's how I told him I was gay, actually.
This boy... well he's a perv. I think most people already read the threads I posted previously and should know what I mean...
And he did some jokes which can be considered inadequate.
The thing is, I liked it when he did those "jokes", "teases", whatever they were. And I let him. Because he's goofy and likes joking around as much as any boy.
My father told me not to let this boy do those anymore near me. I ways follow my parents' orders, without even trying to argue back. So that's what I did.
I was so confused at the moment, that when he did those teases again, I asked him to stop. He didn't even care, really. I had to punch him to make him stop, causing us to get in a fight and having me needing to inform my parents about what happened(or else the school would).
My dad told me not to ever stay near that boy again and simply marked him as "evil". But I'm the one who started the fight, because of HIS orders. My dad thinks he's the one who confused me into "thinking I was gay". He never put it out like that but I can tell that's what he's thinking. He's trying to "heal" me, for god's sake.
I couldn't stand ignoring him though... For all the last days of school, the final week to be exact, he came to me everyday apologizing, and asking me to be buddies with him again. I told my dad and he told me that "When someone did these things to me, you know when I forgave them? Aaaaallll the way through. It's not a thing you can forget over a week and forget and just be buddies again".
Truth is, this boy I like is complicated. He has his bad sides but you should know you don't choose who you like. He's "bullied" me once before, but he didn't really mean it. I hated him at the time, but suddenly I started growing closer to him and we both became more friendly to each other, in fact, he became a more friendly person.
Anyway, school's back. I haven't had ONE full conversation with him, because I was waiting for him to come over to me and try to talk to me. Turns out he didn't.
I started only looking at him by distance, etc.
One day, I walked into the library, was gonna play some Mario Kart, and him and two other boys from our grade were sitting on the same table. They told me I could sit down on that table. Why not, right?
I sat down. Started playing Mario Kart. One guy asked to play a race. So did the other one, and then him.
When it was his time to play, I sat next to him o watch him. I think I grabbed my 3ds to play after him, and turned the 3D on. He was like "I wanna see, too!" and squished his face next to mine. I felt his cheeks. His face. I was loving that moment. I think I blushed at the moment, hope no one noticed. He went back to his normal position and said "cool".
When I was going away, I couldn't stop thinking about that... his face...
I felt it. Next to mine.
I just... loved the moment, y'know? I don't know if many members know what it's like to love/like
Now... I just wanna bond him again... to the point in which I can one day tell him how I feel about him.
But then I remembered my promise to my parents... No, their order.
So... I'm asking for advice from you guys. Should I try to get closer to him again, or follow my parents' orders?
TL;DR Should I disobey my parents and try to befriend the guy I like again?
Well, there's this boy I like. In case you guys still don't know, yes, I'm gay.
Now, I've been dealing with being obsessed with him for at least 4 months now.
Last year, towards the end of classes, I told my father I was gay. However, he refused to believe so, stating that I was too young and setting a set AGE for when to assume this. His set age was 20 year old. And I'm not going to wait that long, because I know who I am and what gender I am attracted to. Sexuality is fluid, yes, but I don't see why he's putting such a limit.
Anyway, I told him about this boy I likes. That's how I told him I was gay, actually.
This boy... well he's a perv. I think most people already read the threads I posted previously and should know what I mean...
And he did some jokes which can be considered inadequate.
The thing is, I liked it when he did those "jokes", "teases", whatever they were. And I let him. Because he's goofy and likes joking around as much as any boy.
My father told me not to let this boy do those anymore near me. I ways follow my parents' orders, without even trying to argue back. So that's what I did.
I was so confused at the moment, that when he did those teases again, I asked him to stop. He didn't even care, really. I had to punch him to make him stop, causing us to get in a fight and having me needing to inform my parents about what happened(or else the school would).
My dad told me not to ever stay near that boy again and simply marked him as "evil". But I'm the one who started the fight, because of HIS orders. My dad thinks he's the one who confused me into "thinking I was gay". He never put it out like that but I can tell that's what he's thinking. He's trying to "heal" me, for god's sake.
I couldn't stand ignoring him though... For all the last days of school, the final week to be exact, he came to me everyday apologizing, and asking me to be buddies with him again. I told my dad and he told me that "When someone did these things to me, you know when I forgave them? Aaaaallll the way through. It's not a thing you can forget over a week and forget and just be buddies again".
Truth is, this boy I like is complicated. He has his bad sides but you should know you don't choose who you like. He's "bullied" me once before, but he didn't really mean it. I hated him at the time, but suddenly I started growing closer to him and we both became more friendly to each other, in fact, he became a more friendly person.
Anyway, school's back. I haven't had ONE full conversation with him, because I was waiting for him to come over to me and try to talk to me. Turns out he didn't.
I started only looking at him by distance, etc.
One day, I walked into the library, was gonna play some Mario Kart, and him and two other boys from our grade were sitting on the same table. They told me I could sit down on that table. Why not, right?
I sat down. Started playing Mario Kart. One guy asked to play a race. So did the other one, and then him.
When it was his time to play, I sat next to him o watch him. I think I grabbed my 3ds to play after him, and turned the 3D on. He was like "I wanna see, too!" and squished his face next to mine. I felt his cheeks. His face. I was loving that moment. I think I blushed at the moment, hope no one noticed. He went back to his normal position and said "cool".
When I was going away, I couldn't stop thinking about that... his face...
I felt it. Next to mine.
I just... loved the moment, y'know? I don't know if many members know what it's like to love/like
Now... I just wanna bond him again... to the point in which I can one day tell him how I feel about him.
But then I remembered my promise to my parents... No, their order.
So... I'm asking for advice from you guys. Should I try to get closer to him again, or follow my parents' orders?
TL;DR Should I disobey my parents and try to befriend the guy I like again?