you know what really pisses me off, life, and when i say life i don't mean what happens in life and how people are getting screwed over and how difficult it is, i mean literally the time from when you're born to when you die
i was watching a video on consciousness earlier and i just began to think about how small i am in the world and that when i die the chances are it will go basically unnoticed. Because i mean life is a huge thing, a single life should seem basically impossible. I'm gonna come straight out and say it, i'm atheist, and i believe in evolution and all that but it's just like even the simplest bacteria shouldn't exist, time shouldn't exist, basically nothing should exist, the chances of anything ever happening even the universe being created seems to me like zero.
Anyway back to where i was, when i die, most likely nothing will change, the only people it will really effect long term is my family. Because i mean, say i die tomorrow, after a week my friends will still be distraught, then after a month they will only think of me every now and then, after a year I'm hardly ever in their minds anymore and god knows how often they'll think about me in a few years. They have other friends, other people around them who can fill that hole where I was, but with my family there will always be my room upstairs, they're probably the only people who won't forget me. And this actually really pisses me off, an impossibility disappears and almost no-one cares. I mean even if you think about famous people, when was the last time you thought about Micheal Jackson or Whitney Houston, and hell Whitney hasn't even been gone that long.
And then that got me to thinking, all lives are cursed, humans animals, everything. no matter how great or simple you are in life, in death we are all the same, in a box 10ft under, the flesh rotting, and even the mind, something so amazing will just degrade into dirt. Even me and even you. The greatest thing you could hope to do in death is to donate your body to science and prolong the life of the living. And that's all you can do, you will die, there's no avoiding it, surviving diseases and coming out against innumerable are almost pointless, all you're doing is prolonging your life, and to be honest, i think the idea of it is stupid, i want to die when i am still fairly young and able to do what i want, i hope i never have to live to live in an old peoples home and i certainly don't want to be a burden on my children.
Then i started to think that bringing a child in to the world can actually be seen as quite a cruel thing to do, most people will spend most of their life needing something, whether these are just small annoyances or huge life saving things. If you've been on a long trip or something, you will be spending more time being bored and tired on the trip than you will being glad that you're home. If you're hungry then you will probably end up spending more time and effort looking for food than you get to spend eating it and feeling full.To have children is to bring them into the world we already know too well, they will feel similar pains to you and when they are old, they will just see all the people around them such as their friends die.
And it's things like this that are the reason that I am not religious, if there was a god then why would they make it so that we have needs, a parent would always want their child to be happy so why would god not be the same. And even if he decided to still give us needs then why would he give us emotion, you get attached to your friends and family and in the end it will either be that you end up dying before them, causing their sadness or you will be walking around with their sadness when they die. Looking at it like this just makes god seem like a kid with a magnifying glass, watching them burn and letting them have a painful death
you know what really pisses me off, life, and when i say life i don't mean what happens in life and how people are getting screwed over and how difficult it is, i mean literally the time from when you're born to when you die
i was watching a video on consciousness earlier and i just began to think about how small i am in the world and that when i die the chances are it will go basically unnoticed. Because i mean life is a huge thing, a single life should seem basically impossible. I'm gonna come straight out and say it, i'm atheist, and i believe in evolution and all that but it's just like even the simplest bacteria shouldn't exist, time shouldn't exist, basically nothing should exist, the chances of anything ever happening even the universe being created seems to me like zero.
Anyway back to where i was, when i die, most likely nothing will change, the only people it will really effect long term is my family. Because i mean, say i die tomorrow, after a week my friends will still be distraught, then after a month they will only think of me every now and then, after a year I'm hardly ever in their minds anymore and god knows how often they'll think about me in a few years. They have other friends, other people around them who can fill that hole where I was, but with my family there will always be my room upstairs, they're probably the only people who won't forget me. And this actually really pisses me off, an impossibility disappears and almost no-one cares. I mean even if you think about famous people, when was the last time you thought about Micheal Jackson or Whitney Houston, and hell Whitney hasn't even been gone that long.
And then that got me to thinking, all lives are cursed, humans animals, everything. no matter how great or simple you are in life, in death we are all the same, in a box 10ft under, the flesh rotting, and even the mind, something so amazing will just degrade into dirt. Even me and even you. The greatest thing you could hope to do in death is to donate your body to science and prolong the life of the living. And that's all you can do, you will die, there's no avoiding it, surviving diseases and coming out against innumerable are almost pointless, all you're doing is prolonging your life, and to be honest, i think the idea of it is stupid, i want to die when i am still fairly young and able to do what i want, i hope i never have to live to live in an old peoples home and i certainly don't want to be a burden on my children.
Then i started to think that bringing a child in to the world can actually be seen as quite a cruel thing to do, most people will spend most of their life needing something, whether these are just small annoyances or huge life saving things. If you've been on a long trip or something, you will be spending more time being bored and tired on the trip than you will being glad that you're home. If you're hungry then you will probably end up spending more time and effort looking for food than you get to spend eating it and feeling full.To have children is to bring them into the world we already know too well, they will feel similar pains to you and when they are old, they will just see all the people around them such as their friends die.
And it's things like this that are the reason that I am not religious, if there was a god then why would they make it so that we have needs, a parent would always want their child to be happy so why would god not be the same. And even if he decided to still give us needs then why would he give us emotion, you get attached to your friends and family and in the end it will either be that you end up dying before them, causing their sadness or you will be walking around with their sadness when they die. Looking at it like this just makes god seem like a kid with a magnifying glass, watching them burn and letting them have a painful death