Since there's no other place to put this, I may as well put it here.
Well. I need somewhere to you know, get this out. Somewhere to just let it out, besides writing out my problems kinda makes me feel better.
The thing is I`m about to start high-school next year, but somehow I feel like I`m already doing high-school. I`ve never really been the popular kid at school, actually I am one of the really unpopular ones. I really don't like school for the most of it because I have to put up with all the stupid guys and bitchy girls. (Seriously, those girls are just so, so..mean.) Neither I have ever been that pretty, so I have always had trouble fitting in.
In maths class today I felt invisible. Literally. One of my best friends one sitting in front of me talking to the guy opposite of me who in my opinion is a completely jerk. She says she is helping him and when I try and ask for help they both ignore me. I could literally say anything and they wouldn't hear me. I was trying to the get their attention but nothing would work. I was starting to become under a lot of distress and wasn't sure how to do the math that I was trying to do. To make things worse I was back-chatting the teacher who was actually trying to be light hear ted. But personally I think he's a complete idiot.
My best friend can sometimes be a real pain. She's become one of those typical high school girls. Who have low self-esteem and keeping getting their hearts broken by a new boy every other week. Today she was telling me that her ex-boyfriend who she met on a cruise and had only known for two weeks before going out with, and lived in Melbourne which is a few hour plane ride from where she is, has cancer. I was thinking did he tell you that over facebook or something? She had already gone back out with him once, even after he cheated on her. What's really annoying is, even after that many relationships she still hasn't got any common sense.
My other best friend hasn't been to school in awhile and she sorta makes my week a little more bearable. She my sunshine always there to cheer me up.
My parents think I`m an ungrateful little brat, smuck, twat. Whatever. Which is not the kinda of daughter I wanna be. I want them to see me differently and somehow I feel like I`ve made such a big mess of things that I`m not even sure where to start putting it back together.
I have that many voices in my head it's hard to pick which one is mine. I want to go to University when I leave highschool but a part of me feels as though I`m not going to make it.
My head is full of voices. I can't even think straight and since this boring me so much I can't do my homework.
I know that there are people out there who have far worse situations then mine but I feel like mine at the moment is pretty bad.
I just want someone to listen to my story and give me some advice at what should or shouldn't do next.
I`m that confused about everything I`m finding it hard to find the right words.
Since there's no other place to put this, I may as well put it here.
Well. I need somewhere to you know, get this out. Somewhere to just let it out, besides writing out my problems kinda makes me feel better.
The thing is I`m about to start high-school next year, but somehow I feel like I`m already doing high-school. I`ve never really been the popular kid at school, actually I am one of the really unpopular ones. I really don't like school for the most of it because I have to put up with all the stupid guys and bitchy girls. (Seriously, those girls are just so, so..mean.) Neither I have ever been that pretty, so I have always had trouble fitting in.
In maths class today I felt invisible. Literally. One of my best friends one sitting in front of me talking to the guy opposite of me who in my opinion is a completely jerk. She says she is helping him and when I try and ask for help they both ignore me. I could literally say anything and they wouldn't hear me. I was trying to the get their attention but nothing would work. I was starting to become under a lot of distress and wasn't sure how to do the math that I was trying to do. To make things worse I was back-chatting the teacher who was actually trying to be light hear ted. But personally I think he's a complete idiot.
My best friend can sometimes be a real pain. She's become one of those typical high school girls. Who have low self-esteem and keeping getting their hearts broken by a new boy every other week. Today she was telling me that her ex-boyfriend who she met on a cruise and had only known for two weeks before going out with, and lived in Melbourne which is a few hour plane ride from where she is, has cancer. I was thinking did he tell you that over facebook or something? She had already gone back out with him once, even after he cheated on her. What's really annoying is, even after that many relationships she still hasn't got any common sense.
My other best friend hasn't been to school in awhile and she sorta makes my week a little more bearable. She my sunshine always there to cheer me up.
My parents think I`m an ungrateful little brat, smuck, twat. Whatever. Which is not the kinda of daughter I wanna be. I want them to see me differently and somehow I feel like I`ve made such a big mess of things that I`m not even sure where to start putting it back together.
I have that many voices in my head it's hard to pick which one is mine. I want to go to University when I leave highschool but a part of me feels as though I`m not going to make it.
My head is full of voices. I can't even think straight and since this boring me so much I can't do my homework.
I know that there are people out there who have far worse situations then mine but I feel like mine at the moment is pretty bad.
I just want someone to listen to my story and give me some advice at what should or shouldn't do next.
I`m that confused about everything I`m finding it hard to find the right words.
Someone, anyone, please, help.
- Yours Sincerely,
Needy Teen