I don't know what it is, but remembering things makes me sad. I think its because I remember always being happy as a kid. I remember doing all these great things, I remember being loved by my sisters and parents, I remember everything. All these memories are happy, but they make me sad, and sometimes even depressed. I'll go days without talking or sleeping because of my happy memories. They make me wish... several things. I wish I could relive my childhood, I wish I was a Time Lord, I wish I could just VISIT my memories without touching anything, having everything exactly how it was. I don't even know whats going on right now, I'm just sad. I miss my childhood, and I hate the fact that I had to grow up. I hate the fact that I have to continue to grow up. I hate the fact that the only thing I can do is accept it. I can't change it. I can't have the happy life I remember. And its tearing me apart. I don't want to grow up anymore. This sounds really immature, but its true. I just want to stop. I don't want to do this. I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. What am I doing anyways? Wasting my life away doing things that I think make me happy, but really don't. I feel like breaking out and just lying on the bed all month. This isn't life. And if it is, I don't like it. I hate it. Why does God make us live through this? If the purpose of Life is to be depressed all the time, then why keep... Nevermind. I believe in God, but sometimes I just can't... I don't know. I can't accept how he could let people die all the time. Innocent Children who hadn't even gotten a chance to live yet. WHY WOULD GOD KILL THEM? I'm just... I don't even know. I don't know what to say beyond this. I'm on the verge of breaking down and there is no one who can help me. I need you guys. Please help me. I don't know whats wrong with me, why I'm depressed all the time. Sometimes I feel like God just hates me.

I'd love to invite you to N.E.O.

I know a similar feeling my Brether, life has been spiraling out of control and people have lost what it truly means to live. I have designated my life to change that, and I hope those suffering today can find peace in the new existence order.

Something that I believe is the case is that trying to cheer somebody up has an inverse effect and makes them feel more saddened, so it would probably be better if I did not say anything here.

STOP THINKING ABOUT HAVING FUN AND JUST HAVE FUN

Reserved. I'll post my viewpoint on this later. For now, I'll say this: I know how you feel, and I'm pretty certain it's why I break down once every month [it's been getting more frequent as of late].

 

We're all children at heart, expected to act as adults because society dictates us to. But this could be a good thing, allowing you to truly enjoy things without some older person saying "stop doing that." 

 

I'll give a full briefing later when I'm not brain dead...

Edited October 9, 201312 yr by Javelin434

STOP THINKING ABOUT HAVING FUN AND JUST HAVE FUN

How, exactly?We don't have money, so we never have gas, so I can't leave the neighborhood, I refuse to leave the house because our neighborhood is nothing but druggies and sex offenders, My best friends are online, I don't know what else I could do!

I was happy during my chilhood, though doesn't mean I had a good one.

How, exactly?We don't have money, so we never have gas, so I can't leave the neighborhood, I refuse to leave the house because our neighborhood is nothing but druggies and sex offenders, My best friends are online, I don't know what else I could do!

I find it entertaining to write stories: fairy tales, sci-fi, adventure, ect. One of the best parts of being a child is being imaginative, I suggest you try writing your own story, creating your own world you might have fun, you might be able to recapture some of that child-like wonder.

How, exactly?

We don't have money, so we never have gas, so I can't leave the neighborhood, I refuse to leave the house because our neighborhood is nothing but druggies and sex offenders, My best friends are online, I don't know what else I could do!

you don't need money to have fun, just an

but seriously, try something challenging that'll take up a lot of your free time and you'll enjoy doing, try something like get 100% on a videogame, or try to kill sephiroth in kh1 (trust me it's time consuming), and when your done, you'll have something to be proud about, and you can start a new adventure. You can try to learn something new, or whatever you want, but don't let others hold you back, start your own adventure, and just have fun. Your life is in your hands, SO GET OUT THERE AND LIVE LIKE LARRY

I find it entertaining to write stories: fairy tales, sci-fi, adventure, ect. One of the best parts of being a child is being imaginative, I suggest you try writing your own story, creating your own world you might have fun, you might be able to recapture some of that child-like wonder.

I could try.Sorry If I've been a jerk to anyone, I always get that way when I'm sad.

I could try.Sorry If I've been a jerk to anyone, I always get that way when I'm sad.

don't worry, we're here to help eachother, this is our safe haven

I miss when I was only in elementary.

I guess I know exactly how you feel (at least I think so lol). My childhood was very nice, I was happy, did all kinds of stuff like running around outside the whole day in spring and summer or even atumn, enjoying the snow in winter, going here going there. I had friends (sort of) and well I had simply alot of fun all the time, getting all dirty and saving random animals or pulling this or that prank, annoying neighbours haha. And now? I'm basically a shut in, I'm sensitive to heat and cold and my stamina is so down it says hello to the core of our lovely planet. Not to mention I have depression and similar stuff. Nonetheless, I'm a positive thinker and I guess that's why I'm still alive and well, I'm still a child anyways, despite turning 21 soon. I have my ups and downs, but most of the time I hang out in the very middle.

 

What I'm trying to say is, what you feel now, may be just a phase that will last some time, then it will disappear, but maybe it will come back. Though as long as you have something to cling to, whatever it may be, everything will be alright and another up-phase will come faster than you expect. 

 

You could try to call Young Xehanort though, maybe he can help you with that "travelling to your childhood days" thingy.

I know how you feel sometimes I wish I could just take the girl I love and just LIVE and only have good memories......All I can recommend is what I do which is Play Games,Talk with friends, or just lay down (Listening to music is optional) and create amazing worlds in your daydreams just like your kid self would or maybe try and dive back into childhood things that make you happy like how I did with Pokémon when I went a anti-social type mode when I was at home

I recommend trying to write some stories (like what Supdudes said) and let your imagination go wild. Maybe some roleplaying or creative writing. Though I develop my imagination thru video games at first but I began to turn towards anime and manga.

 

I also expression at times depression and sadness because I have strict parents but I don't know if I'm able to have the same feelings like you do.

 

Personally, I daydream a lot to escape from reality and then I fall asleep because it makes me sleepy. Usually the daydreams come from the derivation of all sorts of anime or manga. It makes me feel a little happy and better on the inside. Plus I have this imaginary world in a way filled with all the anime I watch so I can get lose from reality or use for roleplaying with my friends. I do recommend watching more uplifting anime if you decide to turn towards that direction.  

 

Sorry I'm not much of a help but I hate watching someone feel depress and suffer. 

I don't know what it is, but remembering things makes me sad. I think its because I remember always being happy as a kid. I remember doing all these great things, I remember being loved by my sisters and parents, I remember everything. All these memories are happy, but they make me sad, and sometimes even depressed. I'll go days without talking or sleeping because of my happy memories. They make me wish... several things. I wish I could relive my childhood, I wish I was a Time Lord, I wish I could just VISIT my memories without touching anything, having everything exactly how it was. I don't even know whats going on right now, I'm just sad. I miss my childhood, and I hate the fact that I had to grow up. I hate the fact that I have to continue to grow up. I hate the fact that the only thing I can do is accept it. I can't change it. I can't have the happy life I remember. And its tearing me apart. I don't want to grow up anymore. This sounds really immature, but its true. I just want to stop. I don't want to do this. I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. What am I doing anyways? Wasting my life away doing things that I think make me happy, but really don't. I feel like breaking out and just lying on the bed all month. This isn't life. And if it is, I don't like it. I hate it. Why does God make us live through this? If the purpose of Life is to be depressed all the time, then why keep... Nevermind. I believe in God, but sometimes I just can't... I don't know. I can't accept how he could let people die all the time. Innocent Children who hadn't even gotten a chance to live yet. WHY WOULD GOD KILL THEM? I'm just... I don't even know. I don't know what to say beyond this. I'm on the verge of breaking down and there is no one who can help me. I need you guys. Please help me. I don't know whats wrong with me, why I'm depressed all the time. Sometimes I feel like God just hates me.

My head hurts trying to interpret all this.

 

Growing up... It's not a concept many of us are fond of. For many of us, childhood memories are some of the most precious that we carry in our hearts and in our minds until our timely demise, natural or otherwise. It is a time of youthful innocence, a time of easy responsibilities, a time where you can laugh and share a smile, forming everlasting impressions and bonds with individuals who may impact you at some fundamental level. But at the core of this... is innocence... lost as we all grow up.

 

It's natural to feel this way, since when this hits you finally appreciate all the little things that make up those precious memories. To realize the nostalgia as time passes by, stopping for no one and expecting you to continue marching to the beat of life. To see the little details that remind you of a youthful innocence, of simpler times. I know that feeling, wanting to go back and share a smile with my good old friends from elementary school or relive a memorable childhood experience. I don't wanna grow as well but it's a reality we gotta face. I suppose the only way to cope would be playing videogames or talking to friends in school. There are other ways to cope [Me obsessing over... well you know.] 

 

However, as we grow up, new opportunities can arise. The newfound freedom can help you create more everlasting memories, and some may even coincide with your childhood ones.

 

But really, I think the heart of the problem here is similar to mine: There's something bugging you, something that you feel is unfinished from the past that you just haven't been able to let go of. For example, I know mine whenever I cry over my childhood: I never got a chance to formally say goodbye to all 4 of my friends or my elementary teachers. I never got to really tell them how thankful I am, how they have made an impact on my life, stuff like that. Maybe there's some unfinished business that you're holding against yourself, whether you know it or not. If this is the case, the best way to fix this is to go back to your childhood places, and really, wholly, utterly, and completely make yourself at peace with and come to terms with it. Say goodbye for example, or go visit that shop you would always go to (if that was creepy, I swear it's just an example), relive your memory one last time and this time around, make peace with it and give it closure. That was the word I was looking for.... Write the ending for that particular chapter of your life, metaphorically speaking. Conclude it, and once you're finally at peace you can begin a new chapter, with new memories.

 

In a way, clinging on to these cherished memories is why I'm so madly in love with Kairi (Highly doubt anyone would want to hear the details, so I'll keep my mouth shut.)

 

Whatever the case, I hope this helps...

http://web.archive.org/web/20040826093339/http://www.kawaiimon04.tk/

A lot of memories re-lived from seeing this archive ALONE.

 

I loved that site 8)