A array of events have occurred during the past few months, and I've noticed a lot of stuff..

• I am more mean than I've ever been
• I'm not funny anymore

• My creativity is gone.

I've been trolling on here more than I've ever trolled on my life. It's like I feel that I have to put people down to make myself happy. This isn't me at all.

 

I may not be the most hilarious guy on here, but at least I had funny things to say. Now all of my posts contain cliche or unfunny material, and it seems that everytime I try to be funny on threads now, the threads die ._.

 

 

My creativity has diminished. I used to be able to whip up a good story plot in no time, but now I have to rack my brains just to think of a simple plot that turns out to contain elements of my other stories. I could draw 40 page comics with enjoyment, but now its a pain just to draw one page of material.

 

I don't know if all of this is the cause of schooling getting ready to start, or something else that has happened. I just want to know if any of you have seen a change in me these past few months.

(Well, school IS a pretty depressing thought...)

I think it's just growing up. (: I'm an annoyingly, wierdly happy person, but at the start of the year I was mad all the time and I had these crying spells, and I'd just randomly break down crying over absolutely nothing. My parents got worried about me, and took me to the doctor. She just laughed and said it was part of growing up.

The thing is, I've already went through the whole "growing up" stage, as far as I believe. I'm a Junior in high school, I'm about to get ready for college applications and such. I hope I'm not going through another growing up stage. Maybe the stage never finished, and it is trying to finish right now, idk. I'm just noticing that I'm not acting like my normal self, and I've been having weird dreams every night. I think these two things are connected.

I guess we all change. I fell into a huge depression in 5th grade, durring the middle of 6th grade I was climbing back up, and now Its starting to come back. I change alot though. Everyone changes alot, we just hope its for the better.

 

Eventually we all have a change in our feelings. I've been becoming more rebelious for example. I can't explain it. Its just a part of, as iloveventus said. I just hope you can become more creative, more happy, and just hope for the better.

 

I sorta look forwards to school. Maybe its just because I can talk to my friends more and I enjoy math class, or maybe its because I actually have something to do for half of my day.

 

I just hope you get better.

owo I've grown some more respect for you now. I don't know why but this thread just made it grow a bit more than from before.

 

Everyone in creativity goes through their slumps. I'm having a slump/block right now and it's hard to do any of my hobbies be it editing a video, creating mmd models, drawing, signature editing, etc. I just can't seem to get past this block and I've started giving up on it all. D8 It pains me because the things I love doing are making me frustrated. ;;

 

As for the behavior changes, it might be for many reasons. Some of the events I've experienced here and offline/elsewhere have been really stressful and has caused me to get more sad, or angry than I've ever been in ages. Maybe the stress from issues on this site or in real life are getting to you, causing your mood to get more bitter. Junior year starts next week for me and it is also causing me stress, maybe it is to you as well? D8 --

 

Sometimes it's good not to let the anger stay inside, but sometimes it's not good to let it out either. Maybe you could direct your venting towards your creativity, and instead of "trolling" or arguing with other people, you can focus your emotions onto your writing or whatever hobby you do. Maybe it could help your mood lighten up, and your creativity to grow again.

 

I personally felt that you've just had your bad days, and your good days like we all have from time to time. I don't really think you've changed much. But we all do change from time to time.

 

Also as for the whole funny thing... that tends to happen to a lot of us.

 

But just hope for the better days! D8 --- They'll come soon. <3

 

 

Thus there goes another one of the Kaiso essays coded and hinako always nags at me about. /shotshotshot

Maybe it is Junior year stressing me out somewhat. And a lot of things on this site get me angry, but I get angered easily by anything, so idk. The main reason I've been an ass to a lot of people on here is because they've done something I don't particularly like, which isn't a reason to constantly be an ass. I apologize for this.

 

I'm not really a skilled artist or designer, so when I do try to vent my anger into my creations, they just come out "meh". But I am watching GIMP and AMV tutorials on YouTube, so hopefully my creativity level boosts up.

 

Thank you all for caring and posting your advice, it means a lot to me.

I'm feeling for you dude. I'm going through the exact same things. In the past few days, I've lost my personality of being happy, and happy go lucky, blah blah blah, and instead they have been filled with more sadness, depression, anger ect. Perhaps its just that your becoming a lot closer to becoming a adult.

Thanks man, hopefully this phase of life gets better for the next generation.

We all go through weak moments like that.

 

Sometimes your interest may be changing. Try something new, a sport, a game, a hobby, anything that looks like it could be interesting you should try out, who knows, it may become one of your favorite things to do.

 

Trolling for the lulz can be a pretty drastic way to enjoy yourself. I do it for the lulz and to get people to realize what they are doing or saying is wrong. I'm not one to go out and constantly seek targets who haven't done anything wrong. When I troll I look for those who deserve it. But if your just doing it for fun then that's pretty messed up as your causing grief just to enjoy yourself.

 

Creativity is also hard to get back, you should try looking at things you normally wouldn't look at to get inspiration or something. Trying another way to tell a story can be a great way too get your creativity back as well. While you may be loosing interest in comics you could become interested in video making, stop motion, whatever.

 

It could be that feeling that we all get when we go back to school again. The feeling of losing freedom you briefly enjoyed and got addicted too is crushing. However what lies ahead may fix your problems.

 

you could be upset at something. Sometimes you can let your anger out little by little in small ways until your ok. Or you can unleash one explosion of anger. Whatever the case be sure to control yourself if you do this and do not let your anger harm others emotionally or physically. If funds permit, buy a punching bag and beat the crap out of it. Or you could by an airsoft or paintball gun and shoot at some water bottles or something. Just wear eye protection ok? Having paint get in your eye is not a pleasant experience and those BBs tend to bounce back 0_0.

 

I never considered myself funny so I can't help you there lol.

I've broken stuff to try to suppress my anger before.....didn't work too well. But I think I am getting better at not getting angry. And I've been feeling more creative lately.

 

My funniness will never come back ._.

Dude, you are still one of the funniest guys I know

Our conversations sometimes knock me out my chair with their sheer hilarity

It does me good to hear that I crack at least one person up. Thanks.

Happiness is, I suppose, a childish emotion. We all must grow. Or is it just me?

^ How is happiness a childish emotion?

 

Things'll look up soon. ^^ There's an equal balance of good and bad, right? It's bad now, so soon things will get better for you.