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School and things I realized....

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Well school's next week, September 2nd (I am supposed to start before September begins....strange but that gives me more vacation time). Since everyone has to post 50 million threads saying they are in school or going to start school when we can just post in one thread, I might as well post mine.

 

But this isn't the soul purpose of this thread. It's to tell you some things I truly realized 2 days ago about my school life.

 

Alright...here we go:

 

Elementry/Grade school starts first, of course. Now while my 6 years of it with crappy illogical teachers, I noticed a trend. I was always placed in this program where they would usually do something with me and a bunch of kids that involved reading and writing. Every year, until the 6th Grade. To tell you the truth, I never knew why. I was always the smartest (perhaps brightest, no?) person there, succeeding better than expected. For example, in the 4th Grade, I had to write paragraphs about articles, and we were scored 0-6. Everyone there had a 3 or less, no higher. I had 4s and even to the point of getting a 5. Got lucky but not lucky enough to get a 6, that was extremely difficult to do. There was 2 people who tried to be compete with me, see if they can get a 4 and higher. Let me tell you, they failed miserbly.

 

But was I low in reading/writing skills? Perhaps, but testing me in elementary for that is kind of fail. It's like they expect a 10 year old to write like a high schooler. Pfft. Obiviously you can see how well I am good at it since I write stories and get people's attention (The Dark Era of Sora is really popular. Go check it out if you get the chance to). It saddens me that it made me look like I was part of the Special Ed. Feeling awesome doesn't bring any positive feeling to me.

 

It was until the 6th Grade that I actually completed one of them. It was on the computer to do reading/writing. Once again, I succeeded with the hightest rank there, as the program of the computer tells me how well I was doing and once again having someone compete against and getting second highest (typical Ronnie...if only you realize that I wasn't trying to compete with you and by doing that, you strive to be better than me and...you failed again but try again next time 8D). But it all changed when they called me up and changed my classes, just to put me in another program. I was very upset and mother fixed that, and got me put of this program streak. Thank god for moms who care!

 

After 6th, 7th Grade came along and hell rained down on me. For some odd reason, I lost interest in caring for anything, including my grades. Once that happened, my grades dropped and became a trouble maker. My parents were losing trust in me. But I managed to pull it off and reach 8th Grade and lost my trouble maker status. But I still didn't care for anything and became very silent within the classes. I think I may have grown depression there, but this was real depression, not I feel depressed like some of the people who post here >.<

 

9th Grade came in, depressed, tired (people thought I was smoking because I was always tired and looked high), silent (teachers now crack down on you if you're not participating in class), still didn't care, and I was lazy in my classes now (lazy got me in math foundation this year. Yay :D)

 

So here I am, going into the 10th Grade next week.

 

But...2 days ago I also began to stress (if you can consider that) about the upcoming years and etc.

 

2 days ago, I was up at 4 in the morning, being bored and tired, I decided to grab leftover folders that I can use for this year, because when I said lazy, I also mean messy (but I've messy for years, I just think now I can't be messy anymore). Then I stumbled across 5th Grade stuff lying around. I went though them and began to become sad. I realized that after this year, I'll have 2 more years of high school and I'm done....it just....went too quickly. I don't have a career in mind at all (Dad likes to complain about this. Sorry if I don't know what I want to grow up to be, jackass). I'll be driving in one year. I can haz a job in my year. Adulthood is coming too soon. I just want to push it away. It's been upsetting me lately.

 

Well I guess thats my school life in a nutshell, I guess. But I want to mention more things.

 

Through out my years, I have been labled 2 things: nerd and goth/emo. I don't know how I am a nerd if I don't intend to get good grades. Hell, I don't study. I just get my grades and move on. I guess I get good grades because I have a really good memory, jeez. Either that or I'm a genious. Must be since the people who call me a nerd are dumbasses, who only use 2 insults to argue with: you're gay or your mom, which ARE so clever and orginal /sarcasm

 

Goth and emo are very strange. Goth, I do not wear black (listening to metal does not count *sniff*), and emo, I do not cut myself. So I need to understand why I'm being call that and/or see if I am understanding what goth or emo is (I remember one person calling me emo because I like and watch anime. Still doesn't make any sense, why would Japanese cartoons want to make me cut myself? Lolwhat?)

 

It seems that while I was low on writing/reading skills, I was a math expert. Math (and Science) is a piece of cake. They asked me to be on the math team in Elementary (I guess that's why people call me a nerd, because I am superior in math skills than most people. Sounds like a lot of hooplah). But I got lazy in Algebra last year. Now I'm stuck in a class I shouldn't be in.

 

I should remention career again. As you can see, I have no plans for a future career, and don't say they will come to you or whatever. They won't.

 

And I guess that's it. Well then, I'm actually going to sign off and go to bed. Nigh, I'll respond to stuff tommorow when I wake up at 3 for staying up all night lol

 

BTW, the purpous of this thread was to tell about what I realized happened to me in school through out the years that upset me now. And I'm also upset because of I have this year and 2 more years of high school, which is going too fast for me.

 

And I'm not posting a TL;DR post, so either read the entire thing or don't.

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I should remention career again. As you can see, I have no plans for a future career, and don't say they will come to you or whatever. They won't.

 

How do you know they won't come to you, lol? You're only 15, you will work it out eventually once you learn more about which pathways are available.

I was pretty much, if not half-way like you mate. I am a smart person/nerd/geek/Intellectual Badass but due to my extremely horrible memory grades are drowned. But because of that, I decide to not study, for i'd simply forget the lot. Being bullied and picked on was just another addition to pain, which I had physically and mentally endured already so I was fine. And....you probably know the rest. But yeah, Welcome to Grade 10 mate, we have been awaiting your arrival.

Wow, this is pretty deep stuff man. I know how you feel tho. I started 10th grade a week and a day ago. It really seems that everything is closing in on me (picking a career, school, etc.). Had the same problem with school, i was good at alot of things and people looked up to me and wanted my opinion about stuff. But when i hit 8th grade i started to stop caring about school as much as i had. that really came back to bite me in the butt in 9th grade when i did terrible in Algebra II, even though i had previously had extremely high marks on the PSAT in math. i did manage to kick a** in my science courses tho. in 9th grade i was definitely labeled a nerd/goth/emo even though i never wore black anything and i never cut myself, it made me depressed for a time but i pushed through it and now am not really bothered by it, probably made me a better person but watevs. Lol at the looking high thing b/c i had really weird hours so i often came in tired and was often asked if i was high [same thing with the whole being silent thing, i'm just not one to talk alot in class(bit of an introvert)]

 

A bit long really just gonna put a TL;DR part down here for the lazy people: I am pretty much going through the exact same thing

Welcome to my world. I don't wanna let my high life as a teen slip through my fingers...I used to think growing up is the best thing in the world. Once it happens, you want it to stop. I don't have a career choice either and my parents are presssuring me to find one. A GOOD ONE that lives up to my brother's choice as a brain surgeon. I don't really care about my grades. I do what I can and what happens, happens. I've always been in the shadow of my older brother because he's 'Mister Perfect'. Straight A student, #1 student in his school, scholarship to Prinston, stuff like that. Then there's me. A B- average student, no life plan, and no interest in college. Sometimes, the pressure becomes too much and I can't take it. Just sit in the bathroom and cry to yourself. But, again, there's not many choices in life when you're 15.

I think you should just calm down and relax. I've had friends who don't know what the heck their going to do with their lives when their IN College. Just be yourself. Think about what "You" love to do. What hobbies? You're a great writer. Maybe someday you'll be come a famous Author. Who knows. Just like DC. How do you know it won't come to you?

 

I hope though that you'll have a good year, and that you'll figure out what you want to do with your career.

Praying for you, even if you don't want me to. I will. (:

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