I feel safe inside a spoiler tag

 

 

 

So tomorrow I'm going back to school (my summer holiday is over) and it's going to be really different. There will only be 10 people in my year group, which is a change from the 25 throughout the past 2 years. People I've known since I was 5, 6 and 7 years of age will be gone from my life for a long time. I'm not used to saying goodbyes, I've been in the same school throughout my life so it's mainly me saying goodbye to people   Most of my close friends have moved to new schools and gone to college now. I'm grief stricken   I've grown up very sheltered but over the past 12 months I've noticed that my friends are exactly like me. I have not the slightest clue as to what goes on inside their minds on daily basis. However, I've learnt that every action has a reasoning behind it and every word you utter is said for a purpose. Nothing you do or say is because you just 'feel like it'. Everyone has gone through something that has hurt them and changed how they percieve reality, just like myself. Other people are similar to I and I am similar to them. We may share different interests, but we convey the same emotions as one another. I have to move on in life, things change and you can't do anything about it. They may feel the same way as I do and haven't conveyed it, because I haven't conveyed how I feel in a proper sense.

 

Saying goodbye is a beautiful thing, everyone will go off to pursue their own goal and follow their own dreams! They'll forge their own path in life, I want my friends to do that. So I'm happier than I've ever been, but sadder than I've ever been.

 

Here's something soppy, I'm not making this up now. I was at school about 4 months ago and it was the last day of the term or semester as some call it. At the bottom of the driveway there's this wall where you can sit until your ride home comes yeah? So me and my friends are waiting down there and one by one they all walk off in completely different directions whilst I'm still sitting on the wall waiting to get picked up. It was a coinicidence huh? They all go off in different directions whilst I'm stuck in the same place.

 

Obligatory Bleach photo because it relates to what I'm talking about and I'm a weeaboo

 

 

With respect to everything I've just said, why does everything we love have to leave us?

Edited September 4, 20169 yr by Barry Bacon Allen

With respect to everything I've just said, why does everything we love have to leave us?

Puv man...

 

It's sad in that way isn't it? you've got me thinking about my own group of friends, and how this time last year we were as tight knit as your nan's homemade scarf.

 

It's bittersweet isn't it?

I can definitely relate to how you feel.  It's tough saying goodbye, especially since one is so close to a group of friends for many years!  It's not just a friendship, but a family one forms, ya know?  And when that family starts to go off in different directions, we feel a certain emptiness inside!  I've always said that my High School years were the best years of my life, and I'll always say that, ya know? I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm enjoying my life very much, but when I think back on a few years back, I really miss hanging out with my friends, ya know?  Thankfully, I still keep close contact and hang out with my closest friends, my family, practically, but a lot of other friends that I had made are off in different paths, ya know?  When you take a look, you realize life has a funny way of changing things up with time, ya know?

 

So in the end, even though it's a farewell, there's always the chance for a fated reunion, ya know?  Endings become beginnings, and life takes unpredictable turns! Just keep going your course, and you'll hopefully reunite with those you love again, ya know?

 

Stay strong, Shinobi!  Because you'll always be Shinobi to me!