I'm not doing this to be all edgy and cool and show off how 'mature' I am now.

 

Just, one of those types of days. You wake up starving, the alarm is buzzing and you've got to go to school or to work, and you just lack the motivation to do anything? Every day is just another day to tick off of the list.

 

You get up, you get to school and everything is just melancholy?  You're on your way to a class and that one person smiles at you as they walk past but you don't have your glasses on so you can't see them smiling so you just carry on walking and then you feel like a rude asshole? Maybe your eyesight was so bad that they weren't even smiling at you and you just imagined it. Does that make me arrogant for assuming that they smiled at me?

 

School life is one big bowl of melancholiness. I lack the passion that I used to have for success. When I was 13 I wanted to own fancy cars and be super rich. I felt like I had something to prove to everyone and that everyone would think so highly of me. But now that I'm older I feel like that isn't all there is to life, there's more to life than making people jealous of my success.

 

 

The thing in this spoiler is about porn (It's not dirty or immature don't worry)

 

 

As 12 and 13 year olds we'd all think that porn was completely normal and awesome and the most amazing thing ever created. But now it just sickens me.....

 

 

 

I just came home from school and have just sat here, thinking about my entire life and how things have changed. Some people I know aren't really the same anymore, they've changed too, I've seen different sides to them I'd never knew existed.

 

I look back on my younger years in school and think 'firetruck, those were the best days of my life. I really didn't have to worry about anything.'

 

I wonder if all my friends are going through this same phase, or have they already experienced it? I'm generally a happy guy but it's just one of those rainy days.

 

Now look at me, I'm almost 17 but I still feel like a 12 year old boy. I act like a child most of the time anyway, that's just who I am at heart. This post is an insight into the mind of someone who is growing up. In 2 summers I'll be at university and I'm already on my path to trying to get accepted in. In 4 months I'll be able to drive, in 14 months I'll be able to buy alcohol. I just ask one question

 

Where the hell did the time go? I know I'm still only a child in some people's eyes, but I feel as if my entire childhood has gone. I've lost my passion for discussing Kingdom Hearts lore, I feel like playing videogames has become a chore more than a hobby nowadays. I just don't care about fights or drama in reality anymore, two people were arguing over politics in school and all I felt like doing was telling them to shut up. I just don't give a shit about things like I used to.

Edited October 20, 20169 yr by Barry Bacon Allen

I kinda know how you feel. I've got an immense study load and I could end up studying for like 9 hours a day. There are some days that come where I just lack the motivation or even the brain power to study. Some days I'm just tired. Tired of studying. It's just too much these days.

 

All I could say is don't give up. Those who give up are true failures. Sure, you fail to reach your goals during your attempts, but that's okay. Take that fail and learn from it. It's how you succeed. If you feel unmotivated or just not bothered, rest for a day and try hard again the next. That's what I do.

I know exactly where you're coming from. I've had 'one of those days' quite too often within my life span to be honest. Through middle school and days in high school i'd sometimes find myself exactly back there. Hell even now. My childhood wasn't necessarily that great, hell I even despise quite a bit of it, but at the same time I feel very melancholy about those 'old days'. I often find myself thinking "What is the true meaning of all of this? Why do we have to do this? Why do we have to do that? This is all adulthood is cooked up to be?" It's like our childhood dreams and wonders were a complete falsehood of misinformation on what being an adult is actually like as well. Hell even High School or Middle School don't teach you everything you need to know, instead squandering you to learn some useless mathematics, unimportant histories of world religions, what the insides of a poor animal look like. All stuff you don't really need to know. I mean sure for some it's nice to know, but.... ehh it's all stuff not actually needed.

Getting older just kind of sucks. You look back and realize how many friends you've lost, how many people you know have changed, how your own life has changed, and even how you've changed. We're so young, but we feel so old. We look back and remember things, some things we can't even remember. Our whole childhood innocence and dreams lost to time, and it's gotten us to....well here. We just go with the flow of society, how things are supposed to 'actually' be. Our ambitions lost, our hopes scattered. Now we take everything much too serious, having so much responsibility, making sure we do what we're supposed to. Perhaps time has slowly withdrawn our true selves.

Such a small thing makes us think so deeply doesn't it? I can only imagine what things will be like in five years, let alone one year. So much can change in such a small amount of time if you think about it. 

But, do we keep moving forward? Absolutely. And perhaps we shouldn't let this get to the best of us. Look at some of the people that way outstretch our years and they're fine with life. There are happy people with families, careers, and might even still have friends from school. Perhaps at our age they thought the exact same as us, and maybe sometimes they still do. But they still keep moving on, just as we do. So perhaps we're being melodramatic. Maybe things aren't that bad, and we are as we're supposed to be? Or maybe we're still shaping to be who we're supposed to be. I feel like the small thing called 'time' will only tell. Who knows when, but I do believe I mean it when I say that we will be fine. We shouldn't take things too seriously anyways. Immaturity, and our humor, is a great thing. Why would you want to live through life being completely serious all the time anyways? But perhaps don't hold on to the past too tightly. Things are always bound to change, no matter how steep. That's just life.

Keep being you, Barry Bacon Allen.

2 Quid's siggy reminded me of this so I thought i'd add this to my post. Always manages to cheer me up.  

 

Edited October 20, 20169 yr by Geralt

I'm not doing this to be all edgy and cool and show off how 'mature' I am now.

 

Just, one of those types of days. You wake up starving, the alarm is buzzing and you've got to go to school or to work, and you just lack the motivation to do anything? Every day is just another day to tick off of the list.

 

You get up, you get to school and everything is just melancholy?  You're on your way to a class and that one person smiles at you as they walk past but you don't have your glasses on so you can't see them smiling so you just carry on walking and then you feel like a rude asshole? Maybe your eyesight was so bad that they weren't even smiling at you and you just imagined it. Does that make me arrogant for assuming that they smiled at me?

 

School life is one big bowl of melancholiness. I lack the passion that I used to have for success. When I was 13 I wanted to own fancy cars and be super rich. I felt like I had something to prove to everyone and that everyone would think so highly of me. But now that I'm older I feel like that isn't all there is to life, there's more to life than making people jealous of my success.

 

 

The thing in this spoiler is about porn (It's not dirty or immature don't worry)

 

 

As 12 and 13 year olds we'd all think that porn was completely normal and awesome and the most amazing thing ever created. But now it just sickens me.....

 

 

 

I just came home from school and have just sat here, thinking about my entire life and how things have changed. Some people I know aren't really the same anymore, they've changed too, I've seen different sides to them I'd never knew existed.

 

I look back on my younger years in school and think 'firetruck, those were the best days of my life. I really didn't have to worry about anything.'

 

I wonder if all my friends are going through this same phase, or have they already experienced it? I'm generally a happy guy but it's just one of those rainy days.

 

Now look at me, I'm almost 17 but I still feel like a 12 year old boy. I act like a child most of the time anyway, that's just who I am at heart. This post is an insight into the mind of someone who is growing up. In 2 summers I'll be at university and I'm already on my path to trying to get accepted in. In 4 months I'll be able to drive, in 14 months I'll be able to buy alcohol. I just ask one question

 

Where the hell did the time go? I know I'm still only a child in some people's eyes, but I feel as if my entire childhood has gone. I've lost my passion for discussing Kingdom Hearts lore, I feel like playing videogames has become a chore more than a hobby nowadays. I just don't care about fights or drama in reality anymore, two people were arguing over politics in school and all I felt like doing was telling them to shut up. I just don't give a shit about things like I used to.

 

Put some glasses on m8

 

I think that's a stage of your life. I went through it too, thinking that there's not much of a point doing what you're doing, and just thinking how good things were before school/work/whatever became such a pain.

 

 

I no longer think that way though, don't know why. Maybe I just changed.

 

 

Just think more about how good things will turn out in the future rather than thinking how good things were back in the day. If you start thinking about the future being shit, just stop thinking, it'll lead you nowhere

Now look at me, I'm almost 17 but I still feel like a 12 year old boy.

If it helps mate, I'm the same way.

 

I wish I was as open as you. I spent a good few months last year feeling like this (probably why I failed tbh), but I never said anything, because I didn't want to be seen as whinging or being 'edgy'. So I'm glad you posted this and that everyone else that's replied seems to have gone through the same thing!

 

I get it, especially the melancholy feeling, because, despite it all, school really was a great time. I had three really good friends, and only last week we all met up for a night out. But between now and leaving school it was difficult for all of us, but we never said anything to each other, we just seemed to be hell bent on ruining our relationships.

 

And I saw a side of my best friend that I hadn't seen before. Tl;dr she wanted to go shopping and my cousin was in a serious condition in hospital. I snapped, and so did she.

 

It was a watershed moment I think, for all of us. It took us a while and literally everything you wrote is what I was going through, word for word. But it all got better.

 

I failed my A levels, and I honestly think that it must be one of the best things that happened to me.

 

When it came to the success bit, I felt exactly what you're feeling.

 

And I think that these feelings will run their course, you'll fall in and out of friends, you may fail a few (theory) tests, almost crash the instructor's car and probably, after all these experiences, these feelings will just be a memory.

 

I reckon Trece summed up my post basically, and I dunno if any of this helps you or pisses you off, but I got your back kid. a year is a long time fam

 

Just don't dwell on it too long

You know Barry, like you, I'm a cheerful person, but I do admit that I have those rare instances in which I just wake up and am left pondering my life and everything that's happened till now, ya know?

 

I think that all of us, even for just a little bit, have these kinds of moments!  We're at a point in our lives where even though we're young, we feel like we've been here on this earth for ages, ya know?  We've gone through many things, both good and bad, and we've learned things along the way! Things change.  Friends come and go, passions rise and subside, things are always in constant motion, ya know?

 

But after I have those little instances where I question to myself what is life and what happens to us after we pass on, I remind myself that I have a great life! I have a family and amazing friends that love me for who I am, I have a stable job, I'm independent, I enjoy my hobbies, and well, I have God to thank for all that! For every instance I've been down, He's always kept me up on my feet, ya know? So I thank Him for always being there, Amen!

Oh yes, I get those feelings a lot, and this was even before Monday happened.  Although, I don't really miss my grade school years, cause I hated school with a passion, and there were some very hard times for my family as well.  I do miss how I seemed to have less worries though.  But I think its all due to my depression, which is hereditary in my family, so...

 

Ah, sorry about that.  But I do hope you will feel better.  If you can, seeing a psychologist might help.

I get you bro, I've had days like that too where I just stopped caring about things and really didn't feel like doing anything cause I didn't see the point in trying anymore. I'd say to just relax and do what you want to do, not what you feel you should do. Don't worry, after the rain finishes, the sun will always rise again   sorry lol