That I wish i was dead? That i have suicidal thoughts? And I cant confront my mom or anyone else but the interwebz? is it? well, here I go:

My grandpa was diagnosed with Alztimers. Part one, then I find this out BY ACCIDENT! b/c they didnt want me to know. I still found out, my family think that ima dumass girl who knows nothing and cant add things up.

Today in skool, i ALMOST CRIED WEN OUR FEUTRAL ARTCILE WAS ABOUT ALTIMERS

then in gym a dum ass kid threw their bad wich hit my wrist and i bruced a blood vessel,

i cont do anything in something that i love b/c of someone

my bros treat me like shit and i cry a lot now

I witness stuff that no-one my age shud...

I have suicidal thoughts and here is my quote on myself "No one would miss me if I die." <--- yes the hyper energetic joyful larxy says and KNOWS that

I think about running away

Im not scared of death

my mom just thinks its hormones and wont understand

only 3 ppl understand wat i mean

i wanna fuk up this bitch who talks shit bout me who barley KNOWS me

if i tell my mom she'll think im crazy

last time i told my mom how i felt she got mad at me

im paranoid

there are my reason, what shud i do?! DX

 

[EDIT]

OKAY PPL STOP SAYING DUN KILL YOURSELF, I AM NOT GOING TOO, ITS THE COWARD'S WAY OUT AND WELL, I THINK ABOUT IT! I NEVER ACTUALLY PLAN ANYTHING! I ONLY PLAN OF RUNNING AWAY OR TAKING OUT THE WORLD~!

First things first...

YOU NEED TO CALM DOWN...

Kay?

Your brothers, IGNORE THEM... whatever they say, their just dicks... the more you react to them, the more they'll do to you

Your mom is kind of a jerk, you need to make her sit down with you,take things slow, and explain your problem

No one should be scared of death.. I know I'm not

Those 3 pppl who understand? Tlk to them more often... since they listen to you, and know how you feel... confide in them...

Like I said, all those mean people at school? Forget them... ever heard he net saying: "Dont feed the trolls?"... same priciple...

Larxy, quit overreacting. we're your friends... you can confide with us, I can help... we can all help...

Please, quit with these horrible notions, there is hope yet

We have all had our sad and horrible moments in life, some that might have scarred us emotionally, mentally...physically. Myself for example:

 

1- In grade school I was walking home from school with my best friend, as we were walking across the street a crazy lady driving a truck rammed right into us! We jumped out of the way in opposite directions, but the car hit my left leg and my friend's leg.

 

How this affected me: My leg never felt the same again, and my friend had to move away.

 

2- My nephew, at the age of 4 died in a car fire along with his father. I loved him like a little brother, at his funeral I did not cry.

 

How this affected me: I got closer to my religion, my voice never sounding as emotional anymore and I have moments of sudden sadness.

 

3- Last summer I had to undergo surgery for 75% Scoliosis. It was one of my most painful moments in life, 7 hours of surgery, 2 metal rods, 23 metal screws into my spine. I spent 6 days in the hospital bed healing, having to learn how to walk and write again. It felt like 2 pounds were added to my back, my insanity grew evermore in those long nights staring into space.

 

How this affected me: I have a huge scar down the middle of my back now, I am weaker, my walking never seems the same and my back is numb to the touch temporarily, but it hurts when anything touches it still.

 

They say laughter is the best medicine, so find the great things in life, if you have a religion get close to it, you have friends get close to them. We all have our suicidal thoughts including me, but its against my religion I say, and I try my best to ignore the urge until it goes away. Like my family's moral: "None is truley great, but he that is truely good." And of course what my mother always says: "Have a cookie I don't give a damn." If you laugh even once today, I will have known my work is setting.

See Larxy? You're the not the only one with problems...

Just see that therre is some good still there,

it'll be okay, we promise...

=)

Don't leave on us, Got it?

"Don't you go off and die on me now."

 

Axel- KH Re: CoM First Battle

 

Just had to say that.

Yo srry for double posting but to help with your problem, which is not all that strange since everyone as a teen is somewhat sucidal, i've made an AMV to help:

 

(Warning: Contains a few small BBS cutscenes)

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Hmm seems like I'm not the only one.

About a couple of months ago, my parents saw the scars on my arms. I had been cutting for several months already and having suicidal thoughts.

Why?

Because my closest cousin ran away from home with her boyfriend, my friends were all turning against me, I found out that my dad had another daughter and never freaking told me about, my uncle was sent to jail and I accidently found out why, my parents hide things from, everyone hide things from me and I just hated the world.

I had turned to cutting, something I had sworn never to do, and stupid me I did.

I have depression but I am slowly beating it.

I have to go to a psychiatrist every monday and I'm slowly getting better.

Bad things can happen to anyone, but people react differently.

I am trying to look on the brightside of everything and trying to be as happy as I can, so I don't worry my parents and I don't worry the friends who actually care about me.

I really hated my life. I wished I could die. As a seven year old I already hateed my life because of kids that picked on me.

And for so many years I had these quotes in my head.

"Sometimes people run away to see who cares enough to follow" I believe no one would follow

"I build walls to see who cares enough to get over them, not to keep you out" I thought no one would ever even try

"Depression is another word to say you're dying inside."

But you know what saved my life? My amazing friends. Art saved my life. And music saved it too. I know it sounds cheesy but they did.

So just know Larxy, that I am here for you because I know that when I was going through hard times, all I wanted is for someone to be there for me, when I felt the world was against me.

You'll be alright. You're strong. Stronger than me at least. I know you'll be okay.

<333

aww thanks hinako~! and i never cut myself, and i was FORCED to eat 2day i hav lost of appitite DX

no problem. I'm glad you've never cut yourself (proof that you're stronger than me) and I don't eat much either anymore (because when I was depressed I ate ALOT)

Yeah Larx. We've all gone through tough times. I lost so much in my life: family, my childhood, hopes and dreams. But as long as you stay strong and never give up, you will be happy. Just don't be like me. Never give up. I a made that mistake aand I can't find myself anymore. If anyone, I am the one who should die.

aww thanks hinako~! and i never cut myself, and i was FORCED to eat 2day i hav lost of appitite DX

 

i threw up when my mum forced me to eat peas... i hate them that much...

 

yeah... i guess the others got here first, go with what they say