This has kinda been eating me for a while.So in 6th grade i started to take an interest in basketball after watching and anime called Slam Dunk, but back then i could hardly find a place to play. That changed when i started high school last year and came to a school with a good basketball court and several people who share my love for the sport. Now I seem to have a really hard time resisting any chance to play basketball and will even play it if i have some sort of injury. I think about improving in basketball more often than about improving in any other hobby I've had. I think about it when I'm going to school, when I'm walking around in my room and even when I'm trying to sleep.But lately i've just been coming home angry and depressed after playing basketball because of my height (5'1). I just hate the fact that I probably have the potential to be a good basketball player, but my height is always going to take that away from me. I thought of something recently, what if my entire love for basketball was really just some desperate attempt to feel better about my size?I know I like performing well and then getting praise when i do a good job during a game (maybe that's just something people like in general?), but what if it's only because I feel better about my height every time i perform wellSo what do you guys think?
This has kinda been eating me for a while.So in 6th grade i started to take an interest in basketball after watching and anime called Slam Dunk, but back then i could hardly find a place to play. That changed when i started high school last year and came to a school with a good basketball court and several people who share my love for the sport. Now I seem to have a really hard time resisting any chance to play basketball and will even play it if i have some sort of injury. I think about improving in basketball more often than about improving in any other hobby I've had. I think about it when I'm going to school, when I'm walking around in my room and even when I'm trying to sleep.But lately i've just been coming home angry and depressed after playing basketball because of my height (5'1). I just hate the fact that I probably have the potential to be a good basketball player, but my height is always going to take that away from me. I thought of something recently, what if my entire love for basketball was really just some desperate attempt to feel better about my size?I know I like performing well and then getting praise when i do a good job during a game (maybe that's just something people like in general?), but what if it's only because I feel better about my height every time i perform wellSo what do you guys think?