A lot of the time when i talk to somebody, whether i am online or in person i feel like people are looking at me and judging me for some reason. (finding me annoying)

 

Also, I'm worried when i meet a person i like. He or she might literally or mentally spit on my face.

 

And i sometimes think to myself whether my friends won't care if i didn't show up at school, and where we usually hang out.

 

Anyone else feel like this?

 

 

Sound's like Anxiety to me, and yeah it can suck very very hard. If you're still feeling like it, it may seem like pretty generic advice but just talking to someone about it really does help. Incorporating a positive thought cycle can help too, instead of thinking of the bad that can happen try and weigh out all the possibilities, good can come out of situations too, not just bad stuff. The world isn't against you.

 

I'm not good with advice but it's all I can offer right now, it affected me a lot when I first started University so I know the feeling. 

Yeah, I feel ya

I always worry about my friends actually not caring about me even though they tell me otherwise D;

That's pretty normal for people to think that way.

 

If it becomes a social hindrance, then it's crossing the line into a disorder.

Edited December 31, 201410 yr by Javelin434

1. You are definitely being judged, just as you will make judgments on me and those around you. Multiple things affect this, as you surely know. Spelling, the content of the threads, the nature of the response. How you act, dress, talk. The sincerity of your conversation, the honesty of your laugh. This is not a bad thing, it is how people get to know each other. We constantly judge others and form opinions based on the most incomplete of data. The trick is to make others want to gather more of that data.

 

2. Yes, you are right, the possibility does exist. So too does the possibility that they will fall head over heels in lust just from the look in your eyes and the sound of your voice. One is about is likely to happen as the other. That said, if a first encounter is enough to make someone spit on your face, at least you made a strong first impression, and that's better than being forgettable.

 

3. I don't know you or your friends, and this one is too specific to your individual circumstances for anyone to offer any opinion. Maybe they would, maybe they wouldn't. Only you really know. You already call them your friends, that should be all the answer you need.

 

 

You make a lot of these threads and the common trend seems to be a lack of trust. You desire support and positivity from your circle of friends (online and offline) but do not seem to believe any positive reinforcement you are given. I went down that route, you really do end up alone. Literally alone.

i firetrucking love you villi