I don't know what's goin' on, but I'm kinda losing interest in everything I loved.

 

For nearly nine years my dream career was to become a movie producer. That dream has kinda been dying lately and I have no idea what's my future going to be...

 

I've also lost interest in video games. When playing one, I don't actually play it... just stare or look around. Maybe that's because I've realized that I won't be able to play anything now... My PC isn't for games and I'll never own a PS4, which means my interest for Kingdom Hearts is also decreasing.

 

Family. Well, I don't really care for anyone of my family anymore but the dogs... They're just so distant and my parents have always been a pain in the butt.

 

Friends. They're also distant and kinda avoid me...

 

Editing. I barely edit anything. I've been working on a movie, but I'm not sure it's going to be finished. I hope sure it does. I just want to leave my Youtube channel. I miss my gold times back at 2011-2012, when I had my Inbox full all day. When I had fun making videos. I just don't anymore. I just work too hard to get little apreciation and views... it just kills me... It's so unfair.

 

Youtube. I used to spedn lots of time on Youtube, now I barely do... especially my channel.

 

I'm also losing interest in MLP and Lara Croft...

 

I used to be an avid roleplayer. Played lots of roleplaying games and even go to roleplaying sites. I always loved to be a different character and live its story. Now it just bores me.

 

Writing. I was writing a book, and simply stopped after the first volume was done...

 

Dunno what's with me.

Edited July 9, 201510 yr by Marcomax

Well I really can't help you out there. Try not to lose your hope, apparently you're a really creative guy.

You've just got to find your passion again, but it takes alot of determination, and it's never ever easy.

 

 

 

Best of luck my friend, if you ever need any kind of attention, chat with me or leave me a PM.

Sounds like depression. That is one of the symptoms

Sounds like depression. That is one of the symptoms

But out nowhere? Just like that?...

But out nowhere? Just like that?...

I have it and I've taken counselling and stuff. I'm now on medication. 

 

You said you have problems with your friends and family, that is probably what is causing it. 

I agree with Yuno, it does sound like depression. I've had depression on and off this year and I get into moods like that quite a bit.

I agree with Yuno, it does sound like depression. I've had depression on and off this year and I get into moods like that quite a bit.

 

I don't want to get in medication.. I'm staying away from that.

It sounds like you're having a big "what am I even doing"-moment. First off, try to vent. Find someone who's willing to listen, either in your area or on this site. Don't keep it bottled up or you'll end up like me a couple years back (slumped against a wall crying, telling a friend I was broken over and over - not a pretty sight).

Then when the first things are done, put the whole "finding a passion" thing on the backburner for a bit. Try seeking some kind of counselling (works for some). After that, I dunno, I haven't gotten there yet myself

I hope this helps; you can always talk to me when I'm online here.

You need direction creativity wise. I know how you feel, as I am a content creator myself and I go through spells like this. It's a tough thing, finding the source. Though I believe you may be in a depression with what I've heard. Please do PM me, and I will go into greater detail. Always here to help.

Sounds like a crisis in terms of what you want to do with your future with depression from friends and family thrown int there as a side dish. I have to admit, I went through that similar crisis with finding out about my future. Wanted to become a video game designer, but lost interest after dealing with a painful ACL tear in the knee and wrong doctor operation as well as the school dropping game and simulation classes. I had Mass Media (TV Productions) set up as back up for just in case and graduated with that, but lost interest after learning about the grunt work and the creative process. Then finally confirmed my path working in Audio Production, and haven't lost sight on that. Heck, give that a shot. You work behind the scenes to help improve audio for artists and others.

 

Also for your depression issue, I would find someone that you trust that can listen to you and support you. If I remember correctly, you always complained about your family and friends not being there for you most times. You can try venting with them, but if that doesn't work, seek counseling. I was nearly ready to seek counseling without anyone knowing because I want to talk to an outside source rather than my friends and family even though they are there for me.

 

I'm not sure if you have the ability to drive legally or over 18, but if you do and/or over 18, start searching for jobs and save up money. Why I say this? If the environment you are living in does not benefit you, then you need to remove yourself from that environment. To do so, you need a stable job, so you can remove yourself from the environment and go to a new environment for a fresh start.

 

What you are going through is temporary. It may not go away instantly. But in time, it will pass. Occupy yourself, and don't look for easy ways out (suicide, drugs, etc). I've seen it happen to others and I don't want that happen to anyone on KH13. 

I feel exactly what you feel but just for friendships . Maybe you should take a walk and think about everything . It works for me .

I don't want to get in medication.. I'm staying away from that.

You may not have to. I've never been on medication for it because it hasn't gotten real bad.

It sounds like a combination of two things: both a matter of growing up and also, quite unfortunately, depression.  This is one of the earliest symptoms of depression.  Even if I don't feel "sad" for a period of a few months, nothing I once was interested in calls out to me. Suddenly I don't feel like playing video games, movies don't interest me even if they're in a category I like, and I find that I want to have fun but don't know how because nothing "sounds" fun.  It's a tough place to be in, but I believe it can sort of get better.  I still have yet to conquer this myself (it has been years), but I know others have.  I have had clinical depression and OCD for almost seven years and it has been such a pain in the butt.  I've gone for therapy a few times but can never stick to it, partly because of funds and also because I tend to disagree with the therapists' viewpoints.  I have never done medication for fear of it as well, much like yourself, and perhaps it is because I'm avoiding the medication that I cannot fully get better.

 

Overall, I think this will improve for you, even if depression is the source of losing interest in things you once enjoyed.  It doesn't sound like it's very severe, if so, and can get better if you try to make changes to improve your life.  What helped me most was developing relationships.  A relationship with God, family, friends, and, really, my spouse.  Being around people every day that made me smile and laugh truly helped more than anything, as well as having people around that I could express my feelings to.  It may sound crazy but it works.  Also, keeping busy really helps as well, whether it be with school, work, or chores.  Not having the time to mope and think really did wonders, which might be an option to you as well.  I wish you all the best, as that is no fun place to be in.  Take care, and write me if you ever need anything. : )