It seems bizarre but over the last few years a lot of people around my age have perished for various reasons. We were all in my first ever made movie together and were such gr8 friends. First one died of a heart attack while on exchange in Europe, another got raped  and murdered by her boyfriend, and another just plain committed suicide because she could not cope with the work. 

 

And now I have just heard that one has died of anorexia from being over in the UK where she and her family now live. It all seems crazy that this is all happening and I do not know why I am even writing all of this out here, but I feel like writing it out helps me make sense of it. Some people I know say that they can still see them around, but I know for a fact that they are all dead. Its also sad when you consider that I had said some rude things to miss anorexia and got stood up for by the other two girls. 

 

Being a KH fan I know that they will always be in my heart no matter what and that if I stay true to who I am and be a better person from what they taught me, not succumbing to the darkness than all will be right  

Good that you're taking this all so well, because holy shit that's a lot to take in. 

I guess you did say this happened over the past few years, but still...

Please don't just repress these events, because this seems like some serious trauma (or if you're just fine, ignore this )

Good that you're taking this all so well, because holy shit that's a lot to take in. 

I guess you did say this happened over the past few years, but still...

Please don't just repress these events, because this seems like some serious trauma (or if you're just fine, ignore this )

Oh no i have not repressed them. I have accepted it and it actually does not bother me that much any way. But I guess that it helps explain why I am so anxious about my posting and for that I apologize, because I am just so afraid of losing my favourite movies like I lost my friends. Nonetheless I should have not abused you guys either with my spamming because you guys are by extension friends or at least acquaintances and like all deserve respect 

 

Although it is said we actually were not even friends for a little while before they died. It helped to ease the pain. Like I said it seems so unbelievable that even some people say that they saw them and that they said hi to me and for a while I believed them, but I know deep down that they are dead. People do strange things to cope with their loss, but all I can do is just be honest with myself and do what I know is right, regardless of what the majority says or thinks 

Life is surprising, isn't it

A lot of people I know have died too. Most were above 40, but that's still no age to go. I still find myself almost seeing them when I'm somewhere that they often spent time. It's hard, no two ways about it, but it's something we all have to get used to. Sometimes it just seems so unfair and you hate it, but it's life, and you're living, so the best thing you can do is to make sure you're not spending your days pining away, do them proud.

 

I've been guilty of suppressing my emotions, and it's definitely not the way to go because you WILL explode.

 

Looking back, that didn't make much sense, but then again these things never do.

A lot of people I know have died too. Most were above 40, but that's still no age to go. I still find myself almost seeing them when I'm somewhere that they often spent time. It's hard, no two ways about it, but it's something we all have to get used to. Sometimes it just seems so unfair and you hate it, but it's life, and you're living, so the best thing you can do is to make sure you're not spending your days pining away, do them proud.I've been guilty of suppressing my emotions, and it's definitely not the way to go because you WILL explode.Looking back, that didn't make much sense, but then again these things never do.

Let me tell you, my family and friends get mad whenever I do not "see" the people that they see. I do not know why they do it, but as if they can see through the glamour/mist and I cannot, they SAY that someone is talking to me but they are not there. Maybe they have imaginary friends or something but I dunno….. its weird. I can of course see most people that I know but those that have died and others who I have NEVER spoken to in my life are invisible to me (not all the time for the latter). I apologize if this is confusing for you to read/understand, but again thats why I write these things out because I am trying to make sense of them