Going to spill my guts here.

 

When I first moved to Myrtle Beach 7 months ago, I couldn't be happier. I live by the beach, I was out everyday seeing new things, tasting new food.. everything was perfect. I even got a job and started college. I was so happy. Then more happy things came. I got a new truck and a new boyfriend...

 

Then things started taking a turn for the worst. I lost my job, I had to change my major in school because it was way too hard for me, I can't pay for my bills or medicine (my medicine alone is over $200), I can't go out and do fun things.

 

Everyone else around me and back home is doing great. My boyfriend took a huge step into pursuing his career and flew up to New York to take his NYPD test today. He past with a 95. He'll most likely get a job there because he has incredible luck. His whole family is successful as cops or in the military and hold very prestigious places and have lots of medals and awards. They also have a lot of money and live in a mansion type house. My Dad is unemployed and has had interviews with no luck, so now he's in school to change his career at 49 years old, my mom doesn't even want to work anymore, I was supposed to have a new job at a hair salon this past Wednesday (I even bought all new equipment and got my license transferred) and I haven't heard back from them all week and Ive called twice so Im pretty sure I lost that job before it started, my family is poor, none of us have any money so we have to rely on unemployment (I can't even get it, but my parents do) to survive because no one will hire us here, we live in a trailer.. Nothing is going right.

 

All of my friends are engaged, planning weddings, having kids, graduating college, buying houses or moving into apartments… and Im no where. I have absolutely NOTHING to show for my life. Now my boyfriend, who is 2 years younger than me, is going to have a perfect life before me.

 

Ive been so depressed all I do is sleep. I lost so much weight (Im 100 pounds, sometimes less) because my stomach always hurts from stress, I can't sleep at night so I sleep all day.. My whole body hurts from this depression. Apart of me wants to break up with my boyfriend because he deserves so much better than me. Then just kind of do whatever. Whatever I have to do to get by on my own.

 

I feel like an absolute failure and loser. Plain and simple.

 

I didn't know where else to vent. Definitely not Facebook, my parents don't want to hear it, don't want to tell my boyfriend.. so I came here. Sorry if this bugs anyone. Just needed to let it out.

If you need to vent, then vent. It's much better than keeping it confined to yourself, that would make it far worse.

 

Keep working hard, and I'm sure that something will turn up. If not, then at least you still have a family and boyfriend.

unfortunately, shit happens. it's hard to give advice, because i don't know you. but, the best thing you can do, is just to keep trying your best and don't let life get you down. it sounds like you're still young, you have plenty of time to turn things around!

This is a great place to vent and just vent, never hold it in. But yeah I don't really know how you feel but I can't help but think it will happen to me as well but just keep thinking it will work out in the end and you have family and friends and a boyfriend who all care about you and if you want you can talk to them as well on how you feel and you are not a failure and a loser you so much more than that. I guess just try to find something posative and keep at it and try to make the best out of the situation, I learned that I'm not that good at giving advice but if you just want someone to listen I can do that, just to know that someone will listen sometimes help as well, so don't think that you are a failure and a loser becuase thats when things start to go bad.

We'll listen to what you have to say. If you need to talk, then talk.

 

I'm sorry I can't give you any help, but I hope things turn out better for you in the future.

Don't be hard on yourself. Dont focus on what others are doing. Take some time to yourself and just breathe. Appreciate what you have and the experiences you've been through. The only way to be successful is to be a failure. Don't give up ever, even when things get tough. If you do give up, then you are a failure. So dont give up!

Going to spill my guts here.

 

When I first moved to Myrtle Beach 7 months ago, I couldn't be happier. I live by the beach, I was out everyday seeing new things, tasting new food.. everything was perfect. I even got a job and started college. I was so happy. Then more happy things came. I got a new truck and a new boyfriend...

 

Then things started taking a turn for the worst. I lost my job, I had to change my major in school because it was way too hard for me, I can't pay for my bills or medicine (my medicine alone is over $200), I can't go out and do fun things.

 

Everyone else around me and back home is doing great. My boyfriend took a huge step into pursuing his career and flew up to New York to take his NYPD test today. He past with a 95. He'll most likely get a job there because he has incredible luck. His whole family is successful as cops or in the military and hold very prestigious places and have lots of medals and awards. They also have a lot of money and live in a mansion type house. My Dad is unemployed and has had interviews with no luck, so now he's in school to change his career at 49 years old, my mom doesn't even want to work anymore, I was supposed to have a new job at a hair salon this past Wednesday (I even bought all new equipment and got my license transferred) and I haven't heard back from them all week and Ive called twice so Im pretty sure I lost that job before it started, my family is poor, none of us have any money so we have to rely on unemployment (I can't even get it, but my parents do) to survive because no one will hire us here, we live in a trailer.. Nothing is going right.

 

All of my friends are engaged, planning weddings, having kids, graduating college, buying houses or moving into apartments… and Im no where. I have absolutely NOTHING to show for my life. Now my boyfriend, who is 2 years younger than me, is going to have a perfect life before me.

 

Ive been so depressed all I do is sleep. I lost so much weight (Im 100 pounds, sometimes less) because my stomach always hurts from stress, I can't sleep at night so I sleep all day.. My whole body hurts from this depression. Apart of me wants to break up with my boyfriend because he deserves so much better than me. Then just kind of do whatever. Whatever I have to do to get by on my own.

 

I feel like an absolute failure and loser. Plain and simple.

 

I didn't know where else to vent. Definitely not Facebook, my parents don't want to hear it, don't want to tell my boyfriend.. so I came here. Sorry if this bugs anyone. Just needed to let it out.

 

Wow. Didn't think anyone else live in South Carolina. And so close, too. Anyways, things have to get better. They always do. Just be happy, and don't give up.

If there's one thing I've learned in life, it's never let your background pull you down.

 

Which is hard. My heart aches for you, it really does-- depression isn't easy to deal with and a lot of the time, it's so much easier to sleep than to deal with reality. It's insane, to think about how little changes in life can really affect everything else, but I'm rooting for you, I really am.

 

I'm sure there's far more worth to you than you realize. In fact, I'm pretty positive of that. It's okay to feel down, okay to be hard on yourself. But now's the time when you need to sit up in that bed and say "okay, that didn't go to plan. So what are we gonna do next?"

 

Even if next is just a simple walk, take that time to clear your head, and feel better.

Don't do something as stupid as breaking up with your boyfriend over a silly idea as that, you see personally for me i don't believe there is anything such as perfection, however what im trying to say here is that you say that your boyfriend has a perfect life right? well you are part of that life of his too you know and if you break up with him well then that's one less thing that's perfect that he has got in his life and also sure things may look bad now and heck they may never even get better too but this is what i believe and that is that you keep trying and at least try not to give up and hopefully find something that may help turn things around for you in a positive way i mean think about it if things got good for you once before then they can do so once more again as long as you try hard at what it is you want in life and at least trying not to give up while doing what it is you want to achieve.

Thank you everyone. I really, truly mean it. The support is appreciated and is making me feel a lot better.

 

Since nothing else is going right, I'll change my direction and go left

I don't really know how to help, but I'd try not to compare yourself to your friends, it'd just make you feel worse and you're a completely different person to them. I'm sure you'll have achievements in your life at some point that they won't do, not to mention that things in your life should happen at your own pace, you shouldn't need to have things happen just because your friends have. (: Probably best not to split up with your boyfriend either, you don't know what you have until it's gone, and he obviously doesn't WANT better than you or he would've done something about it by now; so he's clearly happy being with you. (:

Things will probably take a turn for the better soon, just give it time and effort (which I'm sure you're already doing by the sounds of it). And don't worry about venting, everyone does it from time to time, I'm incredibly guilty of doing so on Facebook over depression, but for... different reasons.

Maybe looking at all the good things in your life will make you feel a bit better than just focusing on the negatives? I'm sure you have some things you're grateful for or proud of.

Hope things improve for you soon.

Thank you everyone. I really, truly mean it. The support is appreciated and is making me feel a lot better.

 

Since nothing else is going right, I'll change my direction and go left

 

That's the spirit! Just remember; it's all uphill. But just because it is doesn't mean you won't lose your footing, now and again. Step by step, that's all it takes. http://kh13.com/forum/public/style_emoticons/default/happy.png

I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through all this. Even though I don't know you personally, I know that here on the forum you're such a sweet and likable person, and it truly pains me to find out that things are going so wrong for you, and even worse, that you feel like a failure as a result. Most of us on KH13 don't know each other personally, but I've come to see how friendly everyone is toward each other here--remember that you have our support! Don't feel bad about venting here, because a lot of us truly care about what's going on in each other's lives, and we want to help, even if that help can only be given in the form of a typed post with a word of encouragement. I hope that your life makes a turn for the better soon, and that you're able to get back on track and pursue the education and job you want, and, most of all, that you can be happy again. And I really mean that. Don't give up, girl!

I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through all this. Even though I don't know you personally, I know that here on the forum you're such a sweet and likable person, and it truly pains me to find out that things are going so wrong for you, and even worse, that you feel like a failure as a result. Most of us on KH13 don't know each other personally, but I've come to see how friendly everyone is toward each other here--remember that you have our support! Don't feel bad about venting here, because a lot of us truly care about what's going on in each other's lives, and we want to help, even if that help can only be given in the form of a typed post with a word of encouragement. I hope that your life makes a turn for the better soon, and that you're able to get back on track and pursue the education and job you want, and, most of all, that you can be happy again. And I really mean that. Don't give up, girl!

 

Thank you so much! The support here has made me feel so much better. Your advice, along with everyone else's, has made me happier and actually smile

 

And another happy note, my boyfriend said if he gets the police job in New York, he wants me to go with him. That definitely made me feel better too

Thank you so much! The support here has made me feel so much better. Your advice, along with everyone else's, has made me happier and actually smile

 

And another happy note, my boyfriend said if he gets the police job in New York, he wants me to go with him. That definitely made me feel better too

 

That's so awesome! Who knows? You may find some great opportunities in New York that had never even crossed your mind before!

Thank you everyone. I really, truly mean it. The support is appreciated and is making me feel a lot better.

 

Since nothing else is going right, I'll change my direction and go left

 

when nothing goes right go left lol

Don't worry. Hopefully everything will turn out good in the end. There is nothing to feel bad about. From what I see, your doing nothing wrong. As long as you keep up good and charitable behavior, things will turn out all right. A similar thing happened to me a little bit ago. Being depressed sucks. The only way to get through it is to just move along. Do your best to get a job and pay off your bills and do good in school.