-Cries for real-

Um...yesturday i went with my family to go see my nana(on my dad's side) at the nursing home she at...and they said she is geting really close to dieing....-Cries again-

We stayed with her the whole day.(and i didnt have to do school)

She wont eat or drink anything...She can't even speak!(and just so u know...im real crying as i type this.) we are going back to see her today but i dont wanna be there if she dies...

*huggles JesusFreak* I know how you feel. Really.

My only grandfather passed away in May from diabetes.

It was terrible. It was like I was a freakin fountain.

I didn't stop crying until like 3 days staright.

It was terrible and I saw him...when he was dead.

Dammit Imma crying Dx.

Sorry, sorry, it's just that I really do miss him and it's still fresh on my mind.

It happened so fast, and what hurts me the most is that we had the chance to see him alive but we were too late because of my damn dad.

Agh, sorry guys, I'm whining now, LMAO.

-comforts jesusfreak-i know how you feel..my grandma died from cancer a week ago.

*hugs JK* man, i really don't know what to say that would be any help. I'm really sorry. I really don't know what it feels like to lose a family member that's close to me..and when i think about it happening...I can't bare it... Just be strong

Thanks Kaiso, Jeny, Blazer and Kushi!...She is breathing a little bit better...but not much. - Huggles everyone back-

-huggles jesusfreak-

.. I've been thinking about this all day!!! Dx

 

(you should get msn D8<)

-huggles jesusfreak-

.. I've been thinking about this all day!!! Dx

 

(you should get msn D8<)

 

-Huggles back- Thanks Luzze...

 

(I know but my mom WOULD kill me if i got msn...>.< )

.. eat some more chocolate dammit!! D8<

 

(but but .. why? ._.)

(cause my mom doesnt like those kind of things...)

.... -Cries- she died friday.. at 5 pm....and what made it worse...i had to go to my impact choir at 7...and it would take us an hour to get there...it was really hard to be there....i was really quiet the whole day friday. on saturday half way through the day i started smiling and talking to ppl....friday night i was crying in my sleeping bag... trying to make sure no one heard me crying....then we sang on sunday morning at a church....WE DID REBIRTHING by skillet!!!Lol i love that song.

...... off topic: .. do your mom's forbidding you to talk to your friends!? D8<

 

on topic:

 

.. oh .. god ... I'm so sorry Jk ... I really am ..

off topic: she doesnt even know im on here...and if she did....i would be dead.... -_- maybe if i asked her about geting it...but she would proberly wonder who are u...and i dont wanna tell her i've been on here with out her permisson..let... i'll tell her..but at the right time

 

 

on topic: thanks... i would have been on here friday to tell u guys..but i had to go to impact...

off topic: you could say .... she's a girl/ friend from my school or something O.o

 

 

.. I've already said this .. but I'll say it again ... hope you'll get better soon

I'm really sorry about you're grandmother JK. I've been praying for you guys. I hope everything gets better :]

I'm so sorry JK *hugs* I hope you feel better soon. I know how you felt cause my grandfather (mother's side) died 2 years ago from heart attack (Shocking!!! It's so sudden!!!) and I saw my grandmother (Father's side) die (with my own eyes!!!). It still hurts now x__x Sometimes I have dreams about them so it doesn't hurt that much (just a little better) now.

thanks guys... tonight im going to the place where they show the dead body before they put her in the casket..... this whole week i've been fine but tonight im gonna cry

OMG! I am so soryy!

If my greandma was like that... I dunno

But, I won't pity you! I dunno if ur like me, but I hate being pitied on....

ANYWAY

I hope you will feel happy soon!

They show the dead body before they put it in the casket? We only get to see the dead body's face for the last time before they close and hammer the casket so that it won't open. But everytime I see their faces last time I try not to cry~

My great Grandma died like... 3 years ago. I don't usually cry but I did when she died.

(this is very depressing)