I need....tell it out to someone, and whenever I say it to anyone, they think of it as a stupid joke. Ever since I was about...10 years old, I had discovered that I had been...talking to myself. Of course I thought nothing of it and that everyone was doing it, but then it got worse, as time progressed I began arguing with myself as if there was actually someone in my mind, someone evil. It seems I had personified my insanity to the point of someone in my head who looks exactly like me, only with black hair and black eyes. That person would tempt me to sin and would make all the usual taunts and comments and bad attitudes. I get headaches more now, I get more angry now then when I have no reason to be. Sometimes my personified insanity would shapeshift into the forms of others to use in his taunts and arguments and comments, to promote his sin. I don't know what to do, is this a bad thing to have? Before in my past years I had fallen greatly into his temptations of the seven deadly sins, and sometimes even planned hem ahead. But then I had thought not to anymore, for it was a bad thing to do and against my religion, So about 5 months ago I began to detest this sinning cold-turkey. And that was rough as hell, my surgery last summer diddn't help much either, just think, I was lying in the hospital bed for 6 days straight staring up at the ceiling, arguing wth myself in my head. My mother next to me forcing me later to finally eat something. Hospital food's horrible T_T, anyways as I finally learned how to walk and write again and I returned home my will was strong as ever and even now i've been keeping away my sin, yelling at him in my head to either get out or shut the hell up. Then, as I now have entered my freshman year in highschool, my insanity has pressured me on the pretty girls walking by, the tests that are ahead, what people might think of me, how ugly I am, stupid, gluttionous, awesome! GAAAH! But that all happens in my head, I never dare to speak to myself while around others, only when i'm by myself can I speak to myself verbally. They think i'm smart, they think i'm fine, they think all about me is happy and divine. But this is not be, I am not me, this is merely my insanity. As if he is all that embodies the darkness in me, as if he were a demon from Hell sent to ruin another child. It is easy to fall into temptation, but I must keep reminding myself "I am dead to sin, and alive to holy." And advice for the insane, or do you not belive me? Like everyone else doesn't either belive or not know.

............ Im gonna pray for you.

I need....tell it out to someone, and whenever I say it to anyone, they think of it as a stupid joke. Ever since I was about...10 years old, I had discovered that I had been...talking to myself. Of course I thought nothing of it and that everyone was doing it, but then it got worse, as time progressed I began arguing with myself as if there was actually someone in my mind, someone evil. It seems I had personified my insanity to the point of someone in my head who looks exactly like me, only with black hair and black eyes. That person would tempt me to sin and would make all the usual taunts and comments and bad attitudes. I get headaches more now, I get more angry now then when I have no reason to be. Sometimes my personified insanity would shapeshift into the forms of others to use in his taunts and arguments and comments, to promote his sin. I don't know what to do, is this a bad thing to have? Before in my past years I had fallen greatly into his temptations of the seven deadly sins, and sometimes even planned hem ahead. But then I had thought not to anymore, for it was a bad thing to do and against my religion, So about 5 months ago I began to detest this sinning cold-turkey. And that was rough as hell, my surgery last summer diddn't help much either, just think, I was lying in the hospital bed for 6 days straight staring up at the ceiling, arguing wth myself in my head. My mother next to me forcing me later to finally eat something. Hospital food's horrible T_T, anyways as I finally learned how to walk and write again and I returned home my will was strong as ever and even now i've been keeping away my sin, yelling at him in my head to either get out or shut the hell up. Then, as I now have entered my freshman year in highschool, my insanity has pressured me on the pretty girls walking by, the tests that are ahead, what people might think of me, how ugly I am, stupid, gluttionous, awesome! GAAAH! But that all happens in my head, I never dare to speak to myself while around others, only when i'm by myself can I speak to myself verbally. They think i'm smart, they think i'm fine, they think all about me is happy and divine. But this is not be, I am not me, this is merely my insanity. As if he is all that embodies the darkness in me, as if he were a demon from Hell sent to ruin another child. It is easy to fall into temptation, but I must keep reminding myself "I am dead to sin, and alive to holy." And advice for the insane, or do you not belive me? Like everyone else doesn't either belive or not know.

 

............. Keep fighting......

Don't know what to say, you should, don't know, try a psycologhist? Maybe.But as far as I know that doesn't help either. Sorry, don't have any advice.

Thank you all, finally, finally someone belives me.

I dont. (just kiddin)

-_-' right...

you'll be fine, just keep hoping.

I'll pray for you too

i got this from Alice in Wonderland.Some of the smartest people are insane.

That was a good movie.

Keep fighting friend. I'll pray for you as aid too.

I'll need more than prayer to get this evil out of my brain. He taunts me everlong. And I fight from sun till dawn.

Me too talks to someone in my mind, that person (genderless, maybe) is like a more stable and rational of me. So whenever I'm confused about things I shouldn't be confused, that person tell me I shouldn't. But that person's not a separate self, I know that person uses my mind--by any means uses my body and mind as that person's base of thinking, I can come up with what that person says too if I'm not confused, so not other person possesses me, more like my inner angel or someone like that, always within me and never tries to do anything bad to me since I was born. I guess.

 

Oh yeah, yours a bad guy, I got one too, but so far completely under control, thanks to my inner angel too. No big deal I guess, every human is part angel part demon, it's just a matter of what's dominant.

 

It's not that you're insane, everyone got that, they just don't realize, only smart people like you can realize it. Just ignore if yours says stupid things, a rational explaination of why you shouldn't helps a lot. Try awaken your inner good one, that really helps a whole lot. Great luck for you!

I'll need more than prayer to get this evil out of my brain. He taunts me everlong. And I fight from sun till dawn.

 

How about I split your existence in half and you two can fight to the death?

 

I have schizophrenia so my inner self will completely take over my body and does things contradicting to my true behavior (my voice becomes slightly deeper and I laugh like Vanitas when my schizo form takes over and I talk like I'm emo. Plus, I'm extremely violent when this happens).

^What?! Man, that inner self takes more victims than I expected...

 

There's a simple trick from my personal experience to it I hope it can help : DO WHAT RIKU HAS DONE: walk using blindfold (or simply closing eyes) for simple objectives. Like "my eyes feels dry I need eyedropper" reach it with eyes closed (you can take a glimpse cheat if don't remember where it is) without smashing anything. And just like Riku said, it improves your own vision to your objectives, thus controls evil inner self. Technically it improves concentration a lot, and philosophically there's a lot more to it.

 

That's all I can do for you guys... I'm sorry if I'm wrong.

I pray for you...Keep fighting man.

None of you are insane.

Crazy people have no reason to doubt their own sanity.

 

Everyone has that little voice, an inner critic, that tell you that you're no good or one that tempts you to do something you know is wrong. Mine tells me to steal things.

I do not doubt my insanity...I embrace it(and then conversate with it)

None of you are insane.

Crazy people have no reason to doubt their own sanity.

 

Everyone has that little voice, an inner critic, that tell you that you're no good or one that tempts you to do something you know is wrong. Mine tells me to steal things.

 

There is this voice in my head that tells me not to do this and then it tells me to do my homework(WHAT?!).(He isn't evil. I just listen and talk with him(No seriously I do.))..................

I need....tell it out to someone, and whenever I say it to anyone, they think of it as a stupid joke. Ever since I was about...10 years old, I had discovered that I had been...talking to myself. Of course I thought nothing of it and that everyone was doing it, but then it got worse, as time progressed I began arguing with myself as if there was actually someone in my mind, someone evil. It seems I had personified my insanity to the point of someone in my head who looks exactly like me, only with black hair and black eyes. That person would tempt me to sin and would make all the usual taunts and comments and bad attitudes. I get headaches more now, I get more angry now then when I have no reason to be. Sometimes my personified insanity would shapeshift into the forms of others to use in his taunts and arguments and comments, to promote his sin. I don't know what to do, is this a bad thing to have? Before in my past years I had fallen greatly into his temptations of the seven deadly sins, and sometimes even planned hem ahead. But then I had thought not to anymore, for it was a bad thing to do and against my religion, So about 5 months ago I began to detest this sinning cold-turkey. And that was rough as hell, my surgery last summer diddn't help much either, just think, I was lying in the hospital bed for 6 days straight staring up at the ceiling, arguing wth myself in my head. My mother next to me forcing me later to finally eat something. Hospital food's horrible T_T, anyways as I finally learned how to walk and write again and I returned home my will was strong as ever and even now i've been keeping away my sin, yelling at him in my head to either get out or shut the hell up. Then, as I now have entered my freshman year in highschool, my insanity has pressured me on the pretty girls walking by, the tests that are ahead, what people might think of me, how ugly I am, stupid, gluttionous, awesome! GAAAH! But that all happens in my head, I never dare to speak to myself while around others, only when i'm by myself can I speak to myself verbally. They think i'm smart, they think i'm fine, they think all about me is happy and divine. But this is not be, I am not me, this is merely my insanity. As if he is all that embodies the darkness in me, as if he were a demon from Hell sent to ruin another child. It is easy to fall into temptation, but I must keep reminding myself "I am dead to sin, and alive to holy." And advice for the insane, or do you not belive me? Like everyone else doesn't either belive or not know.

 

look kevin u will be alright and ill pray for u

My insanity is basically evil, like 99.99% of evil, but sometimes, like VERY RARELY he would conversate with me like a good friend, for he is usually my closest friend, knowing everything about me. Years ago, in my early developent of my insanity, I would picture him in my mind of course, but also someone else. My insanity looks exactly like me, only with black hair. But the other guy had white hair. My inner demon and my inner angel I guess....only.....my inner angel aint in me anymore. I've never seen him for a few years now. Its just me against my demon now, but i'm fighting and winning now.

So keep fighting, I'm sure you won't miss a chance.

I fight all day long against him, but at night when i'm sleeping, my unconcious comes out and i'm at my weakest state. He ingulfs my dreams, putting deadly sin after deadly sin:

 

Lust

Greed

Pride

Gluttinoy

Anger

Sloth

Envy

 

It all ambushes me at night, I have three dream catchers, and perhaps they are too filled with dark nightmares now. Have they been held up to the sunlight lately? I do not know, but as usual....I show no emotion.

.....Holy $h!t dude! Keep fighting so you can kick his demonc @$$!!! I'll pray for you if I have to,but you need some serious willpower to take THAT sucker down.I believe in you,so don't give up hope! Give HIM hell from me!

I kinda have a problem like this, but not to this high of an extreme.

 

My diagnosis? You are mad, completely bonkers, but all the best people are.

that's a lot of profanity Princess.

 

Kevin will defeat the demon within him. He'll just need to fight as hard as he can and resist the demon's calls with all of his willpower. We all believe in him.