It's hard to keep getting back up, knowing you'll get pushed back down.

I know I sound all depressing and bitchy, but I need to let it out.

I hate my dad.

When he calls me 'that girl' when he scolds my sister because she's becoming just like me, when he bitches at my mom because I want to drop out of choir, when he pressures me to get good grades so he won't have to pay for college, when he yells at me everyday for a stupid reason, when he and my mom get in an argument over me and then my mom starts crying and says how her day was just ruined.

I don't understand why she won't say her life was ruined.

Oh and you know who my dad will blame? Me.

 

I wish I was stronger

I wish I wouldn't hurt

I wish I could take all of this but I just can't

I wish I was a better person

I wish a better friend

I wish I could help

I wish for it just to end

 

I think I'm a horrible person. I feel like a horrible friend. I mean, thats what my dad says I am, so it must be true. I mean he does say he's always right.

Yeah, right.

Oh, Hinako

I'mma so sorry

Don't listen to him--he sounds mean. At least when you're eighteen you won't have to hear the crap anymore. He's such a liar

We don't think so <3

Hinako...

Like butterfly said.Don't listen to him.Just try to do your best for now and try to not talk to him that much.

It's hard to ignore him when he yells and I can practically hear him throughout the house

But thank you.

I just really... I'm tired of that man living in my house.

Don't get to thinking like that, your an awesome person I've never though different about you but look at the bright side of things when the times right you can finnaly move out

I'm sorry hear about that Hinako. Don't listen to your dad when he says mean stuff like that. He's just trying to hurt you. I've been there with my family too and it sucked so just ignore your dad the best you can possible do. Don't let him get to you, if you do you'll feel like this till your eighteen. I hope it everything will be better for you.

The level of negative emotions rage on within your father's personality it seems. Through such electricity within the anger and nuisance levels of the emotional personality complex it seems he was undefined in ways during a previous count of day or hour that shows and or expresses a flash of ruin upon his dismay. Through such conflicts within interaction upon other organisms leads to an unstable array that deflects upon your father's Negative Emotional Personality, (NEP) levels outputting into such as an argument or lash out of pure raw emotional chains. The closets thing within his mind at the time would most likely be the subject of such lash-outs in NEP levels, which may be you, or your sister, Hinako_U.

 

The result? Pure Emotional Rampage (PER).

Your Dad, if he's as bad as you say... is the biggest jerk of the world. And you need to say, to his face, that he doesnt treat you like he should.

Talk to him... don't take his shit.

I know what you mean Pao, I have an older sister and my father treats her just like your father treats you. But our sister doesn't live with us anymore, I hate when somebody says bad things about a person I know. And your father isn't fair, just putting everything over your shoulders like that and using you as a way to put out his rage. That's not fair, but I know how it is to confront your own father, he'll always win. At least that's what happens when I argue with my father, i'm forced to agree and stay quiet.

D8 sometimes my dad treats me the same way, but hey, you need to do something that makes you happy... If you want to quit choir, then quit choir. Maybe you can find another class or activity that interests you at school and replace choir with it. Don't let your dad force you to make good grades, MAKE good grades for yourself, make those grades so that you will be a strong person and can get the heck outta there when the time comes. You're not a horrible person at all and you are not ruining anyone's life... You're just going through a horrible time because you are growing up and your independence is becoming stronger. Maybe they don't know how to react? I hope everything improves Paolette, and you are not horrible at all..

be lucky that you have a father...I never HAD one. no ones perfect,and yeah he's human,youur human,everyone is HUMAN! you can be bitchy at time,but your mosty a very sweet,and kind person who always tries to do trhe right thing. besides you got us. your friends. were always gonna be here for you Hin! Even if you don't want any of us. well sorry but your stuck with us. through thick and thin. were your firends and we would love to help you out. besides become an A student, get scollierships and before you know it with these hardships that 'god' outs out for you. you'll become a sucessful young woman and would move FAR FAR FAR Away. of course confronting oens demons is said to help. but i'm no therapiset.