Col.Random

Thanks for the offer, but i'm not quite sure what to talk about here. So far I can't figure out what could be stressing me out because i don't really feel stressed out and am in a pretty good mood most of the time. Ironically the only thing that might be stressing me out would be how much i hate being tired all the time

I wish life had a "drop" button like KH3D did

I've been having broken sleep for nearly a month now and it's seriously messing with my ability to think and even speak normally @-@ It's supposed to be due to stress but for the life of me i can't figure out what's stressing me out

This picture is the most amazing thing I've ever seen

It's hard living on them too

Going to a psychologist and just simply getting a few things of your chest can do wonders for your mood ^^

Surfing the web for cats because I won't die completely alone if I'm a crazy cat man

So I have a huge problem @_@ I'm probably being completely crazy, but hey love is the kind of bullshit that drives everyone crazy. So recently I started to really like this girl....well i actually started liking her two months ago but now i've actually had more chances to talk to her and I'm closer to her friends than I was back then and to be honest I'm starting to really like this girl and I had this whole plan laid out where I would get to know her better and ask her out some time this week on my very first date. Now here's where things get shitty...a few days ago I started to suspect one of my best friends might be starting to get attracted to me, but my sister told me I was probably just misinterpreting things cause I really haven't been very good at reading women in the past. But of course I know that I'm actually quite better and reading people's emotions now so let's assume my suspicions are true. Now lately a friend of mine had gone and squealed to the friends of the girl i like and they all basically know I like and plan to ask her out now so for the past few days I have been trying to talk more to that girl and it's become quite obvious to all my friends that I really like her. Last night some friends and I went out for dinner and this best friend who likes me seemed really depressed and at one point mentioned that no guy would date her because of her looks and she went home after a while, depressed and boy did i feel like a complete moron for not being more careful about her feelings before. I was a dumbass, so openly talking about this beautiful and kind girl that I was starting to really like. Take note folks, learning to keep one's mouth shut is a valuable ability. So now we get to the complicated part. On one hand there is this beautiful girl I like who literally everyone describes as one of the genuinely kindest and most caring people you could know and well I'm a sucker for good people so naturally I'd end up being really attracted to her and I've also gotten the feeling that she might be attracted to me. If things work out my first girlfriend could be this amazing person and we might even be really happy together. On the other hand, my best friend has survived cancer twice and she still has to regularly go and get chemo and meds. In addition to that she has self-esteem issues when it comes to her looks and now the guy she may have wanted to be with is attracted to someone else. That's just way to much bullshit happening to a person at one time and now i'm trying to figure out what to do. I've arrived at three possible ways and note that they all HAVE to involve attempting to ask out the girl I like in some way because at this point too many people know I like her and are expecting me to so it would look really odd if I abruptly chickened out and be like "whoops changed my mind! Them hormones am i right?" Possibility 1: I proceed with trying to find love at the risk of breaking my best friend's heart and I really do not want to make her feel that way Possibility 2: I attempt to sabotage my first date: This has two ways: 1) I find out if there's a guy who likes the same girl as me and figure out a way to talk him into asking her out then if he does I can just be like "oh well I wasn't fast enough" 2) I go on this date and I deliberately become a really boring and awkward date and then she won't be interested in a relationship. Possibility 3: I go on my first date and I try my best to make it a good one, but at the end of it, regardless of whether she's interested in a relationship I just come clean about everything and tell her I can't be with her even if i wanted to. She's a kind person, I'm sure she'd understand. If I go with 2 and 3, then I can wait a few weeks and ask my best friend out. To be honest I don't have romantic feelings for her, but we have a ton of things in common and well attraction is something I've heard can grow. But then that also seems like a terrible idea cause women are smart and they can tell if you're not really into them. It just seems like my friend's getting hurt somehow in every scenario I've thought of So I've been thinking this over and over and I keep struggling to figure out the right solution so I decided the only thing I can do is ask people for their opinion on this. How do you guys think I should go about this

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this one's kinda mushy and gross and super personal

pm one person who won't cause drama with it, talk it out and then you can say it to who you really want to after they help you word it better

It's a really tough one but if i had to pick it would be the depths of darkness especially because of the part where you finally begin to see the light at the end. It's such a beautiful moment and it's so amazing to watch that gentle light touch down on the rocks around you while contrasting the really dark areas behind you

Why is it that the things we want the most are as far from our reach as possible?

i'm expecting one of those fancy armours from BBS

buck-awk

Kinda wish 0.2 was a bit longer. The worlds in it are so beautiful

Thanks guys. And i probably might get to see her again since she's staying in the same area as me which means we could end up on the same bus again later ^^ but until then i need to figure out what i'll actually talk about

I managed to talk to this really cute girl and she seemed interested-ish ( i can never really tell). Why did i chicken out and stop talking after saying like 5 or 6 things damnit?

Remember when we thought this would finally be the year for Kingdom Hearts 3? Ha ha

Someone has apparently managed to get into my Youtube and has been watching some really weird stuff. I have a feeling it's my sister, but how the hell did she get into my Youtube?

2 seems appropriate. People often forget that there's plenty of people out there who struggle to make the money and the time needed to play something they really wanted to play and it must really suck to have it all spoiled for them

The last thing that 2016 shall kill is itself

then write about the Harambe assassination

Code Grease: Lelouch Of The Oil Company

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