Sigh.. I don’t usually need help but I need help and comfort this time.. =/.. I need hugs.. =/.. I just hate firetrucking love..
This story does get intense..
This is the base story;
It started last year, I met a nice and pretty girl, lets call her “Molly” (fake name of course). Well, I found her attractive and stuff, and I actually had a crush on her. She took note, and we became friends. As time moved along we became closer and closer friends, my feelings got stronger and stronger, etc, etc, etc.. She was always there for me, she helped me when I need helped and I helped her when she needed help. My feelings for her were higher and higher..
One day she was crying, she was upset because she felt that no man would ever want her. We spent the whole night that night talking, and I told her how I felt, that I really liked her, actually “more then like”. She listened, she told me she likes me more, and that she actually wants to be with me.. (ha firetrucking bitch)..
We never dated, and it was a month later, of us talking of us and other talks and actions, that I was convinced I was in love with this girl.
It was later in time that I found out she liked my best friend “Carl” (ofc fake name). They started dating. Jealousy and hurt started taking over my life as I watched them.. Each kiss was like a bullet. Though, this is where I started realizing (not really, I was head over heels in love with her) what she truly was.. We still talked, by then I had told her I was in love with her. THOUGH, she told me she loved me back, she still wanted to be with me.
Another guy “John” was her ex boy-friend, he was back, she was always hitting on him. So lets get this straight. She was hitting on me, hitting on John, and dating Carl. OK then..
She ended up cheating with Carl with me and John, she kissed us/held hands/told us she wanted to be with us/etc.. She told me she loved us. She wanted to be with us. Etc. I was blinded, I was heads over heals in love with her..
She told Carl she was cheating on him with me and John. It destroyed my best friends relationship.. He was my main man.. I feel like the worst friend ever, I am the worst friend ever..
This whole ordeal continued for almost a year… Playing cheating etc etc..
My love for her became hate, by the begging of the school year I figured what she was; a no good, cheating lying ass bitch.. (shouldn’t be so nice).. I hate her, we don’t talk anymore. I loved that girl though and she romantically scarred me, props forever.
Present: (again in short)
John was dating this one girl, cheated on her twice, and went back to molly about 4 months ago.. I really liked the girl he was dating “Rose”
Rose is well, very flirtsy (sexually and not) and we flirted blah blah.. She told me she wanted a real man who leave her/cheat on her.. Someone she would be happy with and also have fun with.. We Recently we started dating.. But; There was a misunderstanding.
She was flirting with all these guys since we were dating.. Um? Okay? You usually don’t do that when your dating someone, correct? (This was pretty hardcore stuff.. I was getting upset…)
She said we were “casual dating” 2 days ago. Meaning that she’s just trying to find “Who fits her best”… She says shes not tied down to anyone..
....
I really like this girl.. And this just tore at my still weak heart.. She told me she doesn’t want anything serious, but I want serious.. She doesn't know what she wants.. She might not want me.. But I want her.. She says we are dating; “going on dates” not in a relationship..
Sigh…
She says if we go on more dates, maybe something will happen.. but no promises… She will go on other dates with other guys to see what there like..
I never have heard of such a thing.. Never.. Im hurting, lost and confused… I don’t know if my heart can wait for her.. Because all I feel like is that im going to get hurt again..
Sigh.. I don’t usually need help but I need help and comfort this time.. =/.. I need hugs.. =/.. I just hate firetrucking love..
This story does get intense..
This is the base story;
It started last year, I met a nice and pretty girl, lets call her “Molly” (fake name of course). Well, I found her attractive and stuff, and I actually had a crush on her. She took note, and we became friends. As time moved along we became closer and closer friends, my feelings got stronger and stronger, etc, etc, etc.. She was always there for me, she helped me when I need helped and I helped her when she needed help. My feelings for her were higher and higher..
One day she was crying, she was upset because she felt that no man would ever want her. We spent the whole night that night talking, and I told her how I felt, that I really liked her, actually “more then like”. She listened, she told me she likes me more, and that she actually wants to be with me.. (ha firetrucking bitch)..
We never dated, and it was a month later, of us talking of us and other talks and actions, that I was convinced I was in love with this girl.
It was later in time that I found out she liked my best friend “Carl” (ofc fake name). They started dating. Jealousy and hurt started taking over my life as I watched them.. Each kiss was like a bullet. Though, this is where I started realizing (not really, I was head over heels in love with her) what she truly was.. We still talked, by then I had told her I was in love with her. THOUGH, she told me she loved me back, she still wanted to be with me.
Another guy “John” was her ex boy-friend, he was back, she was always hitting on him. So lets get this straight. She was hitting on me, hitting on John, and dating Carl. OK then..
She ended up cheating with Carl with me and John, she kissed us/held hands/told us she wanted to be with us/etc.. She told me she loved us. She wanted to be with us. Etc. I was blinded, I was heads over heals in love with her..
She told Carl she was cheating on him with me and John. It destroyed my best friends relationship.. He was my main man.. I feel like the worst friend ever, I am the worst friend ever..
This whole ordeal continued for almost a year… Playing cheating etc etc..
My love for her became hate, by the begging of the school year I figured what she was; a no good, cheating lying ass bitch.. (shouldn’t be so nice).. I hate her, we don’t talk anymore. I loved that girl though and she romantically scarred me, props forever.
Present: (again in short)
John was dating this one girl, cheated on her twice, and went back to molly about 4 months ago.. I really liked the girl he was dating “Rose”
Rose is well, very flirtsy (sexually and not) and we flirted blah blah.. She told me she wanted a real man who leave her/cheat on her.. Someone she would be happy with and also have fun with.. We Recently we started dating.. But; There was a misunderstanding.
She was flirting with all these guys since we were dating.. Um? Okay? You usually don’t do that when your dating someone, correct? (This was pretty hardcore stuff.. I was getting upset…)
She said we were “casual dating” 2 days ago. Meaning that she’s just trying to find “Who fits her best”… She says shes not tied down to anyone..
....
I really like this girl.. And this just tore at my still weak heart.. She told me she doesn’t want anything serious, but I want serious.. She doesn't know what she wants.. She might not want me.. But I want her.. She says we are dating; “going on dates” not in a relationship..
Sigh…
She says if we go on more dates, maybe something will happen.. but no promises… She will go on other dates with other guys to see what there like..
I never have heard of such a thing.. Never.. Im hurting, lost and confused… I don’t know if my heart can wait for her.. Because all I feel like is that im going to get hurt again..
I feel this is a repeat of last year with Molly..
What do I do :’[
Why are Women so firetrucking difficult..?!
Why do the nice and real men finish last…?...
Sigh :’c Give me hugs.. T_T