I left this site years ago (2014 maybe??) so I don't know how many people will remember me or if the right people will see this thread, but I will make an attempt anyway. I occasionally think of this site/drama that went down with people here, but these past few months it has really weighed on me. Now that I'm nearing my graduation from college (I think I was last on this site as a high schooler?), it's time for me to start thinking about a career. And I don't know what kind of job I want, but I do know the kind of person I would like to be when I get there. I want to be better than I am. So recently I've been reflecting on my past mistakes and behavior and how I can avoid repeating history again as I go forward. One thing I am truly regretful for is the way I treated some people on this site.
I'll keep it brief: I was a transphobic, abusive "friend" who argued with people and whipped up unnecessary drama. I even created a Tumblr just to perpetuate these unkindnesses. Much of what I put on this site was a lie. I liked creating an escape here and pretending to be someone else. I liked being able to construct an identity out of nothing and make friends without ever feeling embarrassed about who I am (though, obviously, I was not a good friend in return). Basically, I was a liar and worse, a bully towards the end of my time on this site. And this is behavior that is disgusting and I am so ashamed of on its own. But as someone who was bullied (offline) myself, it is even more revolting to me now that I would bully others, even knowing damn well how much pain that inflicts.
So here is what I came back to say. Anyone I ever hurt or offended or was just plain rude to: I'm sorry. There was no excuse for my behavior and I hope you see this apology. I would've reached out to you privately instead of making a spectacle here, but I can't remember those usernames or Tumblr URLs anymore. I know this drama is all years past, but it just felt wrong to me not to ever apologize for the awful way I treated others on this site (and off of it on Skype and Tumblr ) and I hope I didn't ruin this website or any other for you with my behavior. I'm sorry for everything and I sincerely hope you're all doing well.
I know that apologizing does not absolve me of any blame or make things right. I just wanted to put it out there for anyone that I hurt that I know what I did was wrong, I own and acknowledge it, I will never be that kind of person again, and I wish you the absolute best. I appreciate the friendship and kindnesses you all showed me, even when I was being cruel in return. You're better and stronger people than I.
EDIT: I would ideally like to have this account deleted, but I know that's not something they're willing to do. So I'm going to ask for it to be permabanned instead. I wish everyone old and new the best of luck
Hey there everyone,
I left this site years ago (2014 maybe??) so I don't know how many people will remember me or if the right people will see this thread, but I will make an attempt anyway. I occasionally think of this site/drama that went down with people here, but these past few months it has really weighed on me. Now that I'm nearing my graduation from college (I think I was last on this site as a high schooler?), it's time for me to start thinking about a career. And I don't know what kind of job I want, but I do know the kind of person I would like to be when I get there. I want to be better than I am. So recently I've been reflecting on my past mistakes and behavior and how I can avoid repeating history again as I go forward. One thing I am truly regretful for is the way I treated some people on this site.
I'll keep it brief: I was a transphobic, abusive "friend" who argued with people and whipped up unnecessary drama. I even created a Tumblr just to perpetuate these unkindnesses. Much of what I put on this site was a lie. I liked creating an escape here and pretending to be someone else. I liked being able to construct an identity out of nothing and make friends without ever feeling embarrassed about who I am (though, obviously, I was not a good friend in return). Basically, I was a liar and worse, a bully towards the end of my time on this site. And this is behavior that is disgusting and I am so ashamed of on its own. But as someone who was bullied (offline) myself, it is even more revolting to me now that I would bully others, even knowing damn well how much pain that inflicts.
So here is what I came back to say. Anyone I ever hurt or offended or was just plain rude to: I'm sorry. There was no excuse for my behavior and I hope you see this apology. I would've reached out to you privately instead of making a spectacle here, but I can't remember those usernames or Tumblr URLs anymore. I know this drama is all years past, but it just felt wrong to me not to ever apologize for the awful way I treated others on this site (and off of it on Skype and Tumblr ) and I hope I didn't ruin this website or any other for you with my behavior. I'm sorry for everything and I sincerely hope you're all doing well.
I know that apologizing does not absolve me of any blame or make things right. I just wanted to put it out there for anyone that I hurt that I know what I did was wrong, I own and acknowledge it, I will never be that kind of person again, and I wish you the absolute best. I appreciate the friendship and kindnesses you all showed me, even when I was being cruel in return. You're better and stronger people than I.
EDIT: I would ideally like to have this account deleted, but I know that's not something they're willing to do. So I'm going to ask for it to be permabanned instead. I wish everyone old and new the best of luck
Edited by Think Pink